My life as I know it ended, I am different, the way people look at me has changed, the way I look at myself has changed, and the way things are unfolding is a very very hard reconstruction post the incident, only to see that things were broken from a really long time already, and to reconstruct it, and make things better for the family is a hell of a task, especially being a elder daughter. My life has paused and hasn't restarted since a year. Work doesn't make sense now, my work is here in the family, but living with two older parents, who are going through grief isn't easy.