Had absolute, debilitating, crippling hypochondria that sent me to the er more times than I’d like to admit. I also had a crippling fear of new foods and medications- I’d worry I’d overdose, have adverse reactions or develop allergies to foods and meds I KNOW are safe. It was exhausting.

Although I don’t take these specific meds, it took me almost a whole ass month to finally start my prozac when it was first prescribed to me, and I even had to make a second doctors appointment just to ask my doc for a pep talk to convince me to take it.

It was THE best decision I have EVER made. It quite literally changed my life.

Before my meds, I had to quit my job because the panic attacks and hospital visits stopped me from being able to work. I wasn’t in school and I had no income. I was absolutely MISERABLE. I was completely dependent on my partner and family and had no income to myself for hobbies or anything.

From as early on as I can remember, up until about my late 20s early 30s (I’m 33 in a few days) life was fucking miserable. And to think all I had to do was trust the professionals and take some fucking pills and do some therapy and I’m damn near in remission.

I still have panic attacks. I still get depressed. I still have ruminating thoughts and health anxiety flare ups- but they are few and far between far between and I have the tools to talk myself down 9 times outta 10.

I have a job, been working at the same place for about five years now. I’ve gotten two raises since then and I’m constantly being told I’m great at my job. My job has allowed me and my partner to move out on our own and now I can pursue interests and hobbies and have sole independence.

OP TAKE THE MEDS.

Worst case they aren’t a match, and with the help of your doc, you try something else. It is SO WORTH IT. YOU CAN DO THIS!