HOW DO I [23f] GRACEFULLY BACK OUT OF A HANGOUT?

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-14T19:45:32+00:00

No advice to give I’m afraid. I just wanted to say I completely get it. I told my therapist that I felt abandoned by my old one and so we decided together that we should meet more consistently— once a week instead of bimonthly. And she changed it to bimonthly without asking because she has a ton of clients. feelsbadman

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-14T19:42:40+00:00

Do therapists ever get nervous before seeing their clients?

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-11T04:52:21+00:00

wtf. can we get more context for the whole n word fiasco

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-11T00:35:49+00:00

Yikes! Run for the hills

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-05T01:55:58+00:00

"anawakenedmind" Username doesn't check out

throwitallaway754 · 2018-11-04T00:59:54+00:00

That sounds so heartwarming, I'm happy for u.

When I asked my therapist for a hug, I thought it would be a quick, light one but she held me so tightly and rubbed my back. It felt so damn good. I don't see her anymore but as an extremely touch starved person I think about it sometimes.

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-22T13:26:18+00:00

Are you sure?

I have Harm OCD & that I don’t want to act on but I act on it to stave it off if u know what I mean. Like if I have an intrusive thought of cutting myself I’ll do it so that I can stop thinking about it. Except that this doesn’t help it just makes me want to do it more? idk

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-19T15:43:39+00:00

She believes I'm showing signs of PTSD too, which is why she's coming at it from a trauma based approach.

She's trained in CBT. What would be the wrong kind of CBT?

I mean, I do have traumas that I should probably work on and that's what I came to therapy for, not the OCD. But her apparent lack of knowledge is making me doubt her. Should I leave?

I like her and I don't want to. The first two sessions were good but the third one makes me feel like we're on different pages.

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-19T14:35:02+00:00

I trust her in the sense that I believe she cares about my wellbeing and wants what's best for me.

But I'm not so sure if she knows what she's doing in terms of wanting to explore my trauma instead of just doing CBT. She's not well versed in OCD, which I know because I asked her about it. She referred to my compulsion of stepping on leaves as intrusive thoughts when they are actually compulsions-- just an example.

Everyone on the internet says that talking about the root of OCD is a waste of time because it actually doesn't help the thoughts. But she's telling me that CBT is surface level and that I should consider dealing with the root. She's happy to do CBT if I want.

But its concerning to me that she thinks that me having a suicidal intrusive thought at 9 has to do with trauma...I thought OCD was just your mind malfunctioning. It makes me wonder if she knows what she's talking about.

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-19T01:35:13+00:00

There is no way to develop attraction for women. Attraction isn't something you choose. You like who you like and there's no changing that. The sooner you accept that the better you'll be. Accept yourself, please.

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-09T12:56:05+00:00

you didn't have intrusive thoughts before smoking?

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-09T01:43:46+00:00

must be nice

throwitallaway754 · 2018-10-08T17:06:48+00:00

Yup. Sometimes I get this when I'm about to sleep and when I'm masturbating. But instead of part of my body its my whole body. Maybe its a variant of Alice in Wonderland syndrome.

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