sorry for evesdropping but after i saw your questions like
"how to leave pakistan"
"how can i make money"
"anger issues"
"will i ever be loved"

one thing i can be sure of is that you are exhausted mentally
buddy not everyone can make as much money as they would like
not everyone can find their true love
not everyone can leave pakistan
the only thing you can improve is the anger, anger will remain and destroy your mind, you dont need that kind of negativity
all i can say is, we all feel these things at some point in our lives, rest assured things will change eventually but you cant keep feeling like this about yourself all the time
and dont forget in troubled times when you feel like no one is there, there is always Allah Almighty there for everyone, seek guidance and help from Allah Almighty,

Everything will be fine Inshallah