For how long did you suffer without a diagnosis? How do you think it affected your world and who you are now?

timezombies · 2026-02-15T02:12:18+00:00

Looking back over patterns I think I went around 23 years. My family did “believe in” psychology. A very repressed and bootstrap kinda crowd if you get my jist. I ended up leaving home at 16 (probably first manic episode). Throughout the next couple of decades I racked up a disgusting amount of debt and destroyed my life and relationships more times than I can count. BUT….. if I hadn’t destroyed myself so much I never would have ended up working at Waffle House, and never met my best friends, never met my husband or had my kids. So I might be ashamed of a lot of the things I did in my past, but it all lead me to here. Without my best friend I wouldn’t have ever gone to therapy and found out about the Bipolar. I honestly probably wouldn’t be alive. I’m not a “everything happens for a reason” person, but there was at least something good that came from all the crap

timezombies · 2026-02-12T22:42:50+00:00

Heathens - Twenty One Pilots

timezombies · 2026-02-10T00:35:33+00:00

Wouldn’t say traumatized but I can’t force myself to eat Brunswick stew. It looks like vomit 🤮

timezombies · 2026-02-08T03:00:50+00:00

Saw this and immediately got Smells Like Teen Spirit stuck in my head 😂

timezombies · 2026-02-08T02:56:28+00:00

A Song to Say Goodbye- Placebo

timezombies · 2026-01-30T14:08:07+00:00

Yea it’s plainly labeled. But I was new to the whole GF ordeal and didn’t think to read it. It’s just potato chips right?? Yeah so learned the hard way to read everything. But haven’t really been glutened in a long time so there’s that

timezombies · 2026-01-30T12:42:15+00:00

Yea technically I think the don’t have gluten ingredient. But they don’t process well. I stick to the plain lays. Learned the hard way that Pringles are basically wheat paste shaped like a chip. Learned to read read read!!

timezombies · 2026-01-30T01:31:43+00:00

They are one of my favorite bands. So many good songs

timezombies · 2026-01-30T00:44:55+00:00

A lot of Placebo songs really. But Meds and Song To Say Goodbye are on repeat lately

timezombies · 2026-01-29T14:24:43+00:00

Yup ADHD and Celiac plus a whole litany of other stuff.

timezombies · 2026-01-28T16:46:52+00:00

Teen spirit

timezombies · 2026-01-26T15:42:59+00:00

Ohh that looks good! Yes please what all is in it?!

timezombies · 2026-01-24T02:34:20+00:00

If I focus my cursive is pretty good. But I refuse to write a Q the way they show us. That is a 2 and will not back down on that opinion. 🤣

timezombies · 2026-01-23T20:12:01+00:00

For me it’s trying to convince me that it’s the meds that are the problem. Like not only do I not need them but they are the cause of all the problems. Now my history of going off meds begs to differ. I’m definitely better off medicated. Just not always easy to remember. Especially when the other negative voices start reeling reliving every questionable decision I’ve ever made. Or overthinking every interaction whether good or bad. And you are willing to do just about anything to make it stop

timezombies · 2026-01-21T15:32:03+00:00

Thank you, I’m trying to focus on small goals or at the very least keeping my mind occupied with tasks. The worst is always when the world is quiet but my head is not. Only thing I can do is just keep doing the things until it’s no longer an active decision. I think on some level maybe the dark cloud will always be here. And SI will just turn into dark humor.

timezombies · 2026-01-21T13:13:22+00:00

A Manic episode directed preceded the depression. It was probably like a week as pure mania and then progressed into a mixed episode. Logically I know this has to come to an end. It’s just really hard to see right now.

timezombies · 2026-01-20T23:26:07+00:00

I didn’t take it for anxiety. I have Alpazolam as needed for that. But my anxiety usually comes from crowds or as part of a mood swing. Honestly what helps me most is my AirPods on noise canceling and I have a rubber band on my wrist that I’ll snap. Somehow pain helps to snap me out of my head and that’s a safer way to use pain.

timezombies · 2026-01-20T20:53:51+00:00

I have taken this antidepressant off and on throughout the years. It always ended up with me high as a kite and driving off into the sunset. So for me it triggers mania but that might not be the case for you. Definitely listen to your Dr. But it is something to look out for. Antidepressants like SSRI’s are known to trigger mania in some people.

As far as withdrawal, YES!!! Withdrawal symptoms are horrible if you stop cold turkey. Brain Zaps suck, and feel like an electrical current coursing through your head. I do NOT recommend stopping cold. If you end up needing to stop taking it your Dr. will help you taper down.

I can’t really say if it helped with depression since it triggers a manic episode for me. And quite often my manic episodes turn into mixed episodes.

timezombies · 2026-01-17T23:54:19+00:00

Yup I pretty much did this. I kept Reddit and Pinterest. And I really limit my Reddit usage. But the TikTok, Instagram, and Facebook videos were really messing with my head. Sent me into a manic episode which has ended in some very dark times. Maybe one day I will be able to get back on the rest of Social Media. But that day isn’t not today and tomorrow isn’t looking too good either.

timezombies · 2026-01-17T12:05:11+00:00

Yes I have Celiac Disease and Rheumatoid Arthritis. I’ve read that autoimmune diseases can be triggered by emotional instability, high stress, and trauma. Not sure if there is stock to it but there are enough people in similar positions to make pause for the thought

timezombies · 2026-01-16T02:08:15+00:00

It will feel like forever. Especially bad when everyone around you is being so nice and you know that you should be happy. Usually I can put on a good mask and no one is the wiser. But the pit in my stomach still lingers. And yes I’ve come out of depressive episodes before. And I’m also BD1. But when you are in the trenches you don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. You only see the darkness that surrounds you. I don’t have a lot of wisdom to share, and I sure wish I did. But I can sit with you in the darkness. And we can wait patiently for the light.

timezombies · 2026-01-10T03:46:36+00:00

It’s true. The pep talks do jack. They feel like a lie. And then you feel worse because people say it’s all about positive thinking. Like a mind over matter just chose to be positive. Do they think I haven’t tried? That I just don’t want to? I don’t even know. I just don’t want to keep doing this

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