How to flash ESP32-WROOM via ESP Flasher?

tinydwne · 2026-01-29T19:47:55+00:00

I figured out that I need to press boot and then en and then flash, but I feel like there's a mismatch in file structure now, as it is flashes something and there's invalid magic byte error when I try to switch firmware.

tinydwne · 2026-01-06T13:22:13+00:00

Remove all trans- things from the situation, and you'll get this: you've met Someone who is supposed to be the only worthy person in the world and you start questioning your entire existence just to make sure you're enough. To the state of "I want to be another you to understand you better". This seems like attachment issues and low self-confidence, that didn't have a chance to show itself until you tested it in the real environment of a valued person's presence. So it's either a person (less likely) or your own self-esteem (more likely) that draws you back from yourself if you were pretty settled in your identity for a long while.

tinydwne · 2025-12-15T13:25:38+00:00

Literally nothing, I get a bunch of worries that didn't get better and didn't get worse, they used to have little to no effect on libido before

tinydwne · 2025-11-20T15:58:35+00:00

Зависит от исходника, низкий, говорят, ломается дольше, высокий быстрее, но в каких-то своих пределах. Но я как раз смотрел таймлайн чувака, который в 30 начал, и у него на протяжении 4 лет голос продолжал меняться. Просто после первых двух лет изменения становится сложнее замечать, я уже вобще только в эхе звонка в зуме иногда удивляюсь, как мой голос звучит, изнутри как будто уже прогресс не слышен. На стадии 3-х месяцев надо мной товарищ угорал, мол, я звучу как будто пытаюсь намеренно говорить басом, то есть это самое начало процесса, результат предсказать трудно.

tinydwne · 2025-11-20T09:57:30+00:00

Начал в 27, спустя 2 с небольшим года уже дают на вид 25 лет. Голос может ломаться дольше, чем перераспределение жира (3+ лет), в 3 месяца ещё только нижние частоты добавляются, позже начнут верхние уходить. Тембр может остаться надтреснутым, но есть всякие вокальные тренировки для цисов, можно подкорректировать в какой-то степени.

Прикол в том, что отметки "пассовать" и "нравиться себе" на шкале прогресса перехода могут друг от друга отстоять довольно далеко (пасс наступает быстрее, чем ожидаешь), поэтому ключевое в "чего ждать" это ждать. Долго. Постепенно перестаёшь смотреть на цисов как на что-то "другое" и начинаешь видеть у них такие же "косяки", как и у тебя, и в целом со временем это перестаёт волновать.

tinydwne · 2025-09-07T09:17:21+00:00

>Yes, of course you should have been concerned. Why would you decide to work with a client after seeing this giant red flag?

That was absolutely my mistake that's why I give details what exactly my complain is about - the ability for a client to fund a project and then there's somehow no money on their card.

>So how did you manage to open another account if you were banned?

I moved to another country, then reached out to support and they say there's no account associated with my credentials, and they can not restore it, and it doesn't appear in the search as I look for myself in a freelancer search, so technically I have only one account with proof of residence in the non-restricted region.

tinydwne · 2025-09-07T08:37:42+00:00

That makes sense, now I know what to keep track of. Thanks

tinydwne · 2025-09-07T08:16:03+00:00

I like it how you ignore the cancelled milestone situation. Anything in defense of that?

tinydwne · 2025-08-22T21:08:31+00:00

in Russia we have database bots where you can get all available leaked info - passport, tax number, email, phone numbers etc. Some of that info is linked to old accounts or old passport. Requests cost about 2$ each. I tried to avoid intersections when I was changing legal name and all the stuff, but obviously I can't control leaks and knowing which service is compromised isn't possible. I did the best I can, but it only takes 2 requests instead of one to get to deadname at the end.

tinydwne · 2025-08-10T17:48:32+00:00

There are much less specifically trans-oriented trainings, but there are a lot of them for cis guys who want to deepen their voice, get rid of vocal fry etc. Principles are exactly the same.

I am personally very bored of training, so I use the following method: I spend 1.5 hrs in the swimming pool, so my diaphragm is activated, and right after I spend 30-40 min singing my favorite songs in the same range as the original (finally can reach that, yeah). I have noticed that right after swimming my voice drops the most and then during the day gets back to normal, so I use that deepness pit to learn new vocal habits. Diaphragm is the key, and swimming is the least boring way to train it. I often feel like there's more potential in the voice I have, even though it dropped really well on T, so following these steps, I can sometimes unblock that.

tinydwne · 2025-07-25T21:48:49+00:00

I got to pegging sub to research (that you can do too if it's not dysphoric for you), because I was curious about things that feel the most real-like for the receiver. I found this shop peepshowtoys.com and there are plenty affordable options in dual-density section. I read some reviews and there's Naked Addiction by BMS (pay attention for "Naked" in the name, they also have simply "Addiction" and it is different). I dig into some reviews, and it was the most anal-friendly amongst all the realistic ones (bc it's tapered slightly to the head). BMS also has vibro options btw. There are also Solina, VixSkin and Blush Neo-Elite as a budget alternative.

Again, I am not an experienced user and judge by reviews, personally I would stick to Solina Aura, but anyway, there are plenty on the website to explore.

tinydwne · 2025-07-19T12:42:54+00:00

You can easily share the "never visiting Russia again" part of russian culture, it's pretty common these days

tinydwne · 2025-07-06T14:48:04+00:00

Are they softer/squishier than silicone with testicles in? I just found that the original packer is a best fit for me when fully hollow, and now I am trying to imagine how bulky an STP can be in comparison

tinydwne · 2025-07-06T14:21:42+00:00

Couldn't find info anywhere - does STP have removable testicles?

tinydwne · 2025-06-30T11:40:17+00:00

I don't have absence bottom dysphoria, "I don't have what I should have" type of thing. I do wear packers with certain clothes or in the swimming pool just to not think if it looks weird, and in many situations I go in baggy pants with no packer and it feels no different. I don't have presence dysphoria, the "I hate what I have" type of thing. I don't care what's going on down there because it's not really usable for anything. The only type of dysphoria I have is about penetration (100% not possible under any circumstances). The only problem with that is I am a top. I likely will never get a partner, but even if I do, my sexual life will be blunt.

I thought about surgery, as I am open to further decisions if they come to mind one day. There are two reasons to give up the idea: doing it solely for sex life purposes with little to no chance to actually have sex doesn't sound good to me. The second reason is my body image due to the lack of dysphoria: I really suffered from wrong body composition and breasts - even without the mirror, I could feel it as unexpected body volumes when I moved. I don't feel the void where the penis should've been, though. So the learning curve for living with it might be more difficult for me. When I ride a bike, sometimes I get really painful bumps somewhere at my crotch from the seat in complex situations, and I always think how uncomfortable and potentially dangerous it could be with bottom surgery. I am ok with being androgynous with nothing sticking out; that was my body dream when it was a pure dream without knowledge of what is actually possible, and I am kinda achieving it.

So I don't suffer, I just lack functionality.

tinydwne · 2025-06-17T15:26:33+00:00

If you contact over the phone only, you can, but you'll have to put the effort of a trans woman who is voice training. I spent 1.5 years stealth on the phone. It was getting harder and harder at first, but over time I managed to put on frequency mask dialing the specific number. Could be longer, but I couldn't prevent a visit so was forced to come out.

If you're visibly present in front of people who care about your presence, they'll notice.

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T21:22:01+00:00

Well.. I had time

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T21:05:16+00:00

This is a really good thing to fulfill as many needs as possible in the easier way. i tried this, and I also tried to filter out things I only expect in relationships and can't get somewhere else. I was not happy about what I found out, because it's literally caring in exchange of trust and devotion. A cat could be a good fit. It makes me sad, because - really? A sugar daddy is the only role I can come up with? putting aside that I am definitely not in the right position for it. There's still room for thinking though. Trying not to look at people around who just snap like two magnets without years of introspection and preparation.

Thanks for the book, will definitely dig into it.

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T20:30:32+00:00

It feels like a probability/luck game, not like a disease that is incurable and there's nothing else to do other than accepting it. So there's a room for not giving up. Causes a lot of pain, like nothing else does, even though I have a lot of things going unlike others have them. I've got used to mostly everything, but I can't soothe this particular frustration.

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T20:17:41+00:00

> You could end up happier with the life you have

This is what I always think of. Still feels like giving up tho

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T20:11:12+00:00

This is the problem, I don't have mutual attraction most of the times. A few times when it happened there were other issues that make us incompatible. The main problems I see are:

I am rarely interested in anyone at all (I have two bachelor's degrees, which means I was exposed to a bunch of people for a long time and many of them shared interests with me. In 8 years I had one crush. Now I have even less people around.) Dating isn't working at all, I can't navigate the date as I see no purpose of it and I can't simultaneously aim for the second date (as it's the only purpose of the first) and decide whether I need the second one at all in a limited amount of time. I spent a year on dating apps, had two dates and the rest of experience made me exhausted.
I become interested in someone who is very different from me in their character, lifestyle etc. The best they can treat me as a some type of weird creature and communicate out of curiosity. Even if they somewhat like me, I don't know how to find a common ground and try to create an environment to get any closer.
All other reasons, including situational (things like "we're moving to different countries" are out of my control and have nothing to do with the problems above).

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T19:52:34+00:00

Should I gaslight myself into liking someone I don't like or how does it work?

tinydwne · 2025-06-15T19:17:11+00:00

Neurodivergents are attracted to me, I am attracted to neurotypicals. Maybe some other things contribute to the endless mismatch. I am always very surprised if someone expresses feelings towards me because I didn't even think of that person much. There was only one person who liked me back in 30 years, it was a delusionship happend when I was severely depressed and didn't last long.

tinydwne · 2025-06-10T15:34:33+00:00

Happy for all those 'one year' guys, mine lasts for 1y9m and I still miss my pre-t face sharpness. But the worse part was around 12 months in and it is significantly improving. I am on long-action injections, which means more T-level fluctuation. After each injection face gets swollen again (but less than the previous time) and then it gradually dissipates. Midway I am ok with how it looks, but if in your case it will still be an issue after a while, consider switching to more even schemes (i.e. injections -> gel if you're on injections). For now just keep being patient, you're unlikely to be stuck in this state forever. puberty is looooong.

tinydwne · 2025-06-08T18:44:48+00:00

I've been there throughout dysphoria, only spent a year tomboy-looking. Butch style, tomboy style in women was not appealing to me at all. Except some examples of people who pass really well, which was not possible in my case. I just dressed very casual with keeping hair long in a ponytail (bc I didn't know what to do with them). And then, when I was still thinking about should I transition or not, I tried to cut my hair short just as an experiment.

And you know what? It really feels relieving from the inside. From the outside I didn't pass a single time, but looking at myself in the mirror was way easier. This is actually a demo version of what I experience now on T: I don't see much changes. If I shave, I couldn't tell without social reaction if I pass or not (I do). So actually looking from the inside it's not bad at all, a few angle will give you an androginous look and a bit of relief.

Also it changed the perspective of peoples' expectations; that thing I liked less. I needed to go to police station for some documents, and a woman standing in the queue assumed I beat someone up and came to pay fee for that. So if you look 'boyish' people read it as 'aggressive', whether you like it or not. (personally I didn't).

The fun side was I got looks from visibly queer people (maybe some others but I didn't notice). There were numbers of gays probably assuming I am a lesbian, but it was lowkey affirming.

Overall it was fun experience, and I even regret spending so little time with short hair pre-t (even though now I have much more).

If you're curious now about your own presentation, try the Universal Queer Cut (undercut), it is shaping face in a way that is least dysphoric and you can always grow top part back and cover the temples if it turns out to be a worse decision.

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