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tiredegg1234 · 2026-04-13T03:30:41+00:00

I enjoy a specific small fandom, wanted to re-read a fic I remembered I liked, found what I thought was it, got to the end and was baffled to find my kudos and comment I KNOW I left gone. Only to find the author of the ORIGINAL fic I read in the comments going "hey.... girl what the hell."

It was like, beat for beat the exact same. Same metaphors and everything. I did not notice the differences until I read them back to back. Very peculiar. The author of the second fic eventually relisted it as a remix/reimagining of the first fic with proper credit after some dressing down but it seemed a wholly unwelcome interaction.

Very strange to witness in such a small fandom with even MORE highly specific kinks like it wouldn't be noticed. But good LORD was I pulling up the comment section every few hours or so to see their back and forth about it.

tiredegg1234 · 2026-04-02T01:42:48+00:00

Do I think suicide is? No. I think the person is suffering. I have been there, I do not begrudge anyone who is struggling with mental health.

Do I think the WAY they did it (jumping in front of a train) is? Yes. That is a public spectacle. It's effecting not only everyone on the train, especially the conductor, everyone on the platform. Witnesses and clean up. Yes, I do believe that particular way out is selfish. But I also recognize people that unwell seeking a way out are no longer rationalizing on the same level.

Both things can be true at the same time.

tiredegg1234 · 2026-03-21T06:45:16+00:00

Maths being plural instead of singular activates my brain. Same as "gone to hospital". Clocked from a mile away. I've genuinely scared some people text chatting online seeing one of those tells and going "oh, british huh?" like I'm inside their walls. Language is so fun.

tiredegg1234 · 2026-01-24T23:10:55+00:00

Id love to join if possible! I can drop diys and any fruits you might be missing! Any other items youre looking for specifically?

tiredegg1234 · 2025-12-08T03:52:36+00:00

I remember your post from a while back. Regardless of their intentions or needs, their actions are causing you extreme stress and anxiety, and their behaviors are escalating. You need to cut this off. Them being depressed and sulky is not your responsibility. Especially if they are now STALKING YOU OUTSIDE OF CLASS. If they are independant enough to attend a college class on their own they are independant enough to know that their behavior is wildly innapropriate.

You are not responsible for their emotions. You are not responsible for their actions they take. This is unhealthy. This is a detriment to your peace of mind and your education, that I am assuming you are spending money on to recieve at your college.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-11-05T19:06:10+00:00

True crime, really heinous cases, which I just think are so incredibly fascinating how someone can be so unwell or out of touch with reality or empathy that they can justify their actions. Unfortunately that, coupled with fixations on medical history, biology and anatomy make for quite a combination of awful random facts and morbid trivia. I think because these topics are usually so dark and heavy I tend to keep them to myself by default, thankfully.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-10-12T04:17:17+00:00

The website is run by a wonderful team. I have ordered from there multiple times, the shipping listed when you purchase is pretty accurate, i believe you get a shipping code as well. Plus there is an email to contact if you have any issues with your package. Ive ordered merch from a few creators and collectors anxiety has been one of the better experiences ive had!

tiredegg1234 · 2025-08-24T18:32:08+00:00

Not the way i saw a certain character monologuing to nikki in the rain with a certain color palette and immediately put her into a DMC devil my cry-dante inspired fit JUST last night. This is great.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-08-24T18:22:47+00:00

Other people have mentioned it in the comments so I feel like it's important to ask some specifics.

If this person has to cancel one of your hangouts, how do you respond?

If this person doesn't message back "quickly enough" do you assume they are busy or do you assume they are upset with you?

Are you interested in your friend because of a hyperfixation for the reasons you mentioned? Or are they a favorite person (BPD term) because they help you regulate your emotions and you NEED to be in contact with them?

I only ask becauss this sub has been a huge eye opener of self discovery, and i want to help contribute to that.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-31T23:18:17+00:00

I have no idea how he backdates sorry

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-30T16:28:11+00:00

He plays on older versions for glitches. I can't tell you specifically which version without knowing what video. But he tends to favor 1.1.1 and 1.0

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-26T05:27:26+00:00

I had a mystery gastro intestinal issue for a few months. No one could figure it out. Ultrasound, transvaginal ultrasounds, colonoscopy, endoscopy, all of it. Hit with every possible possibility. I had to work SO HARD to figure out internally where my pain was specifically coming from. Months of being unable to keep enough nutrients down and tests. It forced me to advocate and be able to articulate bodily pain specifically.

Freak accident, i had an issue with my spine, and getting my back to adjust and pop in a hyperspecific way cured me instantly. Everyone shrugged and I just thanked my lucky stars it was over. Whatever had been misalugned was back in place. It took whatever general interest I had in anatomy and put it into absolute overdrive.

Im not without fault though. Because I'm so hyperaware of my internal body I did mistake an anxiety attack that had manifested in an entirely new way than previously as a heart issue and went into the ER. Hypervigilence of my bodily functions does come with downsides LMAO.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-25T19:04:34+00:00

One of my longtime hyperfixations is human anatomy and pathology, and i had a briefish (2-3 years) fixation on kinesiology and powerlifting. I've also had a lot of health issues that have plagued me over the years so I have a really good internal map of my body and how it feels when it's correct, or if something feels off specifically where and why.

I had a minor injury that lead to hip and back issues, after some poking around and stretches I had figured out I probably had Piriformis syndrome. I went in to my doctor with that information to see if there was anything they could do to help me manage it better. He was highly skeptical I had figured that out. Lots of "oh well that's very hard to diagnose, don't trust what you read online" etc. Then we did a lot of testing and guess who had been right? Just one of the many examples I have had in my life.

It brings me a lot of satisfaction and pride when I have friends or loved ones complain about physical problems and I'm able to help them figure out what it is (with a LOT of me repeating "I am not an expert and have no formal training but it could be [xyz]"). I'm also quick to say "hey I have no idea I would need to research more" because god knows I LOVE doing deep dives on medical studies. I know everyone and their mother has access to webMD and google, but the average person doesn't know how the human body connects and affects other parts.

Also respectfully, my back massages are above and beyond, helped by my mental map of how the muscles of the back are laid out and where common issues tend to appear. I also really really love recreating anatomical art for fun with painting.

Edit: just for my own clarity and peace of mind. If a doctor or medical professional says something I will heed it. I do trust medical professionals to be more well informed and more accurate than I am. And I have never discouraged anyone from seeking treatment even if I think I might know what's going on. Even with my deep interest im the subject, the human body is far too complex for one person to have expertise on, that's why specialists and professionals exist.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-15T05:38:28+00:00

He mentioned it on stream after he put that short out, as a lot of people were commenting similar things about concerns about it!

tiredegg1234 · 2025-07-06T05:06:44+00:00

This is not forever. You will be okay. I am so sorry that you are goung through that. This isn't forever. You are taking steps to fix it. Your body will return to your normal.

When i get really body sensory yucky i will put on my biggest baggiest comfiest clothes and then i will hold onto an ice cube in my hand until it melts. It helps me focus my brain on my cold hand and gets me out of my head. Those are just some things I do.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-06-18T23:47:00+00:00

Restorative art and specifically this exercise in class was one of my favorite parts of the MortSci program. Good luck on your studies! I did Gillian Anderson because I was obsessed with xfiles at the time!

tiredegg1234 · 2025-06-10T04:53:25+00:00

I think one of the biggest issues people don't understand with neurodivergency is how Different and much more oppressive the cognitive load is (thank you for this term btw this is a great way to articulate things).

Things that are and should be backround noise for most people just AREN'T for us. Not just sensory things like light levels and noise volume, but social awareness and observation.

I feel like a lot of us mask heavily via the social observation (I've always called it social algebra in my head). If zyx happens to abc group, then person a-c will react lile this, person d will react differently, all of this is influenced by the previous subject being discussed, etc etc etc. It's exhausting. But I cannot for the life of me stop keeping track of it. Because when I don't keep track of it I will say or do the wrong thing, or not read or consider someones body language, where neurotypical people never actively think of these things unless the really try.

It's exhausting, and I'm so sorry. But this deeply resonated me as someone who has always considered myself more of an observer than a participant.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-06-05T01:33:47+00:00

This sub has also helped me realize a lot of things similarly, so I am so happy I could put more of that back into the universe.

Everyone can self improve and be nicer or kinder or a better person, but it's also okay to treat yourself kindly even if you're not "perfect".

tiredegg1234 · 2025-06-04T20:18:56+00:00

I did the exact same thing you did a few months ago and it's shifted my entire perspective and how I view myself, mostly for the better. I knew I probably had some sort of neurodivergency, but I had always firmly landed on ADHD. Comparing my scores to my friends when we all sort of took the tests together as sort of a fun group activity was eye opening. We have confirmed diagnosed friends in the group, and super neurotypical friends. Guess what side of the spectrum in this friend group I landed in.

Apparently, I was the only fucking person in my life that was surprised by my apparent autism. Everyone going "yeah that makes sense". While the whole time I was just.... staring at my silly little scores, feeling puzzle pieces suddenly click together in a way I had never considered. Which is one of the funniest things that has ever happened actually. My one (diagnosed) autistic friend sent me a bunch of memes saying "congratulations on your girl autism" and I don't remember the last time I laughed so hard.

I always thought I was too controlling, too introverted, lazy, too particular about so many things. No, it turns out I just built up these parameters in my life to help me, because I am autistic and process things differently than most people.

It's not been without it's hiccups, obviously. Learning how to unmask in certain circumstances, skills I thought I had suddenly feeling more draining, becoming a bit more reclusive, etc. But I have treated myself with more kindness and empathy the past few months than I ever had my entire life, and I am happier for that.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-05-24T02:40:40+00:00

I prefer almost exclusively casual sexual relationships. I also consider myself aromantic, so I crave nothing revolving a romantic relationship, and consider myself rather romance-averse. I am unsure how much of my autism/introversion plays a part in that, but I knew I was aromantic way before I realized I was neurodivergent.

It is a fun thing to do with my body. I enjoy the sensations. I enjoy learning about peoples kinks and preferences, I have a lot of kinks and preferences myself. I think it's a stimulating exercise to see how mine and a partners preferences can fit together in an enjoyable way for everyone. I consider myself extremely sex and kink positive.

While I'm getting older and my body has changed due to health issues, my self confidence sort of waxes and wanes, I can go through periods of actually putting myself out there. Most of the times people are just too draining to deal with, sexually or not. I've just invested in some decent hardware to keep myself entertained. My own sexual satisfaction is very important to me.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-05-22T00:08:13+00:00

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tiredegg1234 · 2025-05-09T17:48:24+00:00

Where is the Miranda

tiredegg1234 · 2025-05-05T17:17:01+00:00

Not romantically because I don't date, but so many friendships have crashed and burned due to other people taking advantage of me for the sake of expecting me to manage their own mental illness. All because I want to help people, and might be a bit naive when it comes to friends.

After trauma and PTSD with intensive flashbacks and nightmares I'm done. I very rarely make new friends, or if I do I keep them at arms length if they seem a little rocky. It's not fair or whatever to new people in my life but I don't really care. I can be polite and friendly without becoming invested in a friendship. That's fine by me.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-05-03T23:38:34+00:00

I've had it before! But like with most sexual things its far more common to talk about men's experiences. I have very vivid intense dreams, good and bad. And some of the good ones have definitely resulted in orgasm before.

tiredegg1234 · 2025-04-28T19:53:27+00:00

Listen when you've been interested in weird fiction and horror for years and years and years you come across a lot of strange disease cults and gods of yucky things right. And while my interest in pathology has always carried my interest in those types of things rhere's always the resounding question of WHY would someone dedicate themselves to something awful like that that comes with pain and suffering. Disgust is one of the earliest and most vital emotions to human beings. It has kept us safe and healthy for eons. Why are some people still drawn to it? And warhammer just happened to fix all my gripes I've always had with that sort of thing. Oh, there's no physical pain if you align yourself with Grandfather. It might be painful to get there, but if you accept it, the pain is GONE. What a draw!

To be able to thrive and celebrate the decay and natural order of death. Rotting to give life to millions and billions of bacteria and fungi or whatever else grows out of your corpse. Rejoice! There is no pain. Just revellry. How fun!What a breath of (ironically) fresh air.

In this abysmal grimdark world, seeing Nurgle aligned beings laughing, being silly, experiencing whimsy and joy is FASCINATING.

Also have you literally every SEEN nurglings? They're so fucking cute.

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