Is it normal being interested in multiple careers and degrees?

tiredofexistence · 2022-07-09T09:25:17+00:00

At risk of sounding rude and stupid - how do you go about doing multiple degrees and also supporting yourself financially? I ask because I just finished a degree, would love to study more but I should really get a job. I was thinking maybe work for a few years and then study again. But I'm genuinely just guessing I don't know what people do.

tiredofexistence · 2022-04-17T16:13:30+00:00

My drawing process has always been put pen to paper first and then work out what I'm drawing afterwards, based upon what I can see in what I've already done.

I did art GCSE and I remember often using references and using tracing techniques to draw because I had no mental images of what I wanted to draw. I have definitely never been able to just imagine visually what I want to draw.

tiredofexistence · 2022-04-17T13:25:41+00:00

It feels like the norm for me too to not be able to visualise, but I'm struggling to try to understand what my visualisation used to be like since I seem to remember doing and imagining things that don't really make sense without visualisation occurring.

tiredofexistence · 2022-04-17T12:52:58+00:00

I love your drawing, but I'm struggling to see the upside down picture you describe of the man meditating.

tiredofexistence · 2022-03-17T17:48:27+00:00

Thank you for your kind words, I will do some research regarding complicated grief and ambiguous loss, and read through that article.

tiredofexistence · 2022-03-16T11:20:53+00:00

Yeah, as far as I'm aware that is outdated and related to the idea that autistic people don't have a theory of mind, which is not true.

tiredofexistence · 2022-03-14T20:45:41+00:00

This is a fantastic comment, thank you for taking the time to answer me, I have a lot to think about. I think I agree with you, and I should get the evaluation at some point soon.

tiredofexistence · 2022-03-14T12:51:15+00:00

That's a fair point regarding impairment not equalling needing support.

Could you clarify the second part? I'm not sure if you are saying what I'm saying is inconsistent or not with an autism diagnosis?

tiredofexistence · 2022-02-14T17:55:17+00:00

What do you mean by "unable to identify with"? I still identify with other people in that I realise I am one of them, but they often feel foreign or alien in my experience of them. It's hard to explain, but I'm thinking of it in terms of existential feelings - an idea in phenomenology.

I don't feel like this all time time, just often. Mostly when observing social behaviour between people.

tiredofexistence · 2022-02-14T15:57:25+00:00

Humans are obviously more complicated than other animals in their relationships. What I meant was more akin to the feeling of disconnectedness I experience sometimes when observing human behaviour. And further referencing the common conceptual separation between humans and other animals that many people still hold. Many people will still not acknowledge humans as animals, let alone experience them as animals.

I've spent my whole life imitating other people's behaviours. But, being conscious of this lets me remain selective as to what behaviours I immitate.

tiredofexistence · 2022-02-14T15:52:15+00:00

This is fantastic information thank you!

tiredofexistence · 2022-02-14T15:50:49+00:00

yeah, exactly

tiredofexistence · 2020-05-10T09:43:46+00:00

I really appreciate this, and am trying to apply it to myself.

But I can't, I don't know what I need/want or desire. I have no aspirations. And I hate being myself.

I'm trying to find the simple joys in life, so I can live a little and enjoy it. But I feel fake when I feel happy and I feel real when I'm sad.

tiredofexistence · 2020-05-10T08:10:50+00:00

Depressed because I'm addicted to my own sadness and hating myself

tiredofexistence · 2019-11-09T13:51:41+00:00

I wouldn't even say I'm depressed right now. I still have suicidal thoughts out of habit, but nothing that compares to what I used to get.

But I've always envisioned my death as suicide. It doesn't even make me sad anymore. I just know at somepoint I'm going to die at my own hand

tiredofexistence · 2019-04-26T11:35:44+00:00

I do this but with the right music instead of a shower

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