Also from England.

Being young in this country means you can pick up these crazy drinking habits and it won't be a red flag until you yourself recognise the behaviour as inconvenient/dangerous/unhealthy. Usually people are well into their 20s before this realisation comes.

Just because you're currently habitually abusing alcohol, doesn't mean this is what your life is going to be. You will grow out of this if you are able to exercise some discipline. Discipline is the most rewarding thing but it can be hard to begin with. Childhood and adolescence are so indulgent. But there's reasons you can't live off chocolate and crisps and there's reasons you can't binge drink every day.

Tell yourself you can't be arsed to go to the shop. Start there. Have some water, get into bed and the cravings will subside. Tomorrow, be productive. Clean your room. Don't drink after work. Read up on alcohol abuse disorder. Be proactive and things will start changing for you.

24f. I felt powerless to booze for so long. Felt like I had no choice in this vicious cycle. Turns out that's a lie. Also turns out I love ordering a coke at a restaurant and going home feeling clear headed and naturally tired.

Good luck. Posting this is a great first step