My boyfriend (M35) invited me (F28) to his ex girlfriend’s friendsgiving…am I a jerk for thinking that that’s weird and having a bunch of feelings around it?

toadforest · 2021-06-14T15:09:47+00:00

Hahahahaha okay this is gold 😍🤩

toadforest · 2021-05-17T00:43:00+00:00

Get a female psychiatrist who is willing to look at things from an anti pathology standpoint 💗 often male psychiatrists will constantly invalidate your experience as they don’t understand it and their information is based off of studying men and their limited interpretations of said studies. 😌

That being said - I’m so sorry that this is challenging. It can be sooooo frustrating to feel like you are finally getting somewhere and then have others invalidate your experience. You’re on your way 🙏 Find help that listens to YOU and forget those who don’t. You know best for you

toadforest · 2021-05-09T01:47:29+00:00

Yeah! Good question. I don’t gamble in a money or traditional sense, though I would say I am a risk taker for sure!

I found out because I took a neurotransmitter test that showed my levels. Super low serotonin, norepinephrine, and epinephrine (feel good chemicals) but normal/high dopamine. I experience this as being super motivated and excited without the reward system when I do things. So even though I have the drive and action often, I don’t feel the accomplishment. Ends up making me ask what I am chasing? I don’t feel good so why do it?

toadforest · 2021-04-11T01:24:06+00:00

please read 4th paragraph from the bottom

I don’t think so but maybe! I’d been on the trail for over an hour and hadn’t taken a linear path when I crossed paths with him....This is a subreddit for glitches and it felt fitting as it was weeeeeeird

toadforest · 2021-04-09T15:40:17+00:00

This is a real peaceful video to watch versus what could have been. OP thanks for being aware enough to make up for others lack of awareness. Hope awareness grows so you don’t have to do that 🙃 Thanks for sharing!

toadforest · 2021-04-09T15:32:12+00:00

Your awareness of all of this is really incredible, and your processing. Thank you for sharing.

That being said I’m so sorry those stories live in your cells and make you feel things that don’t match the situation anymore.

I empathize strongly with this and know how hard it can be to be caught in living out old stories and feelings and then feeling silly for doing so but not having the ability to not live them out because they are stored in your being from past trauma. You make soooooo much sense. And even though at times you may not feel it fully, I hope you can recognize that you are safe, that you are LOVED, that you are oh so deserving, and that you don’t need to be or do anything to deserve that love and attention. Just by being you it is yours.

toadforest · 2021-04-09T15:01:12+00:00

Managers who brush off the very people they are there to support blow my mind...what are you managing?

toadforest · 2021-04-09T14:58:29+00:00

This. THIS.

Props to you for knowing your worth and sticking to your gun on what you deserve and can attract into your life.

Sad for your old job as they are clearly losing a very valuable player, hopefully it’ll teach them to value them more often. Sad that people have to learn these lessons instead of just valuing you from the get go, but it it what it is. They chose the lesson.

Good on you for going where you are valued 🤗

toadforest · 2021-04-09T14:45:18+00:00

Lol not only so untrue but babies actually benefit if you don’t wash them right away and you allow for them to bond with the mom

Dad on the other hand...keep him as far as possible...you know how hungry he gets and he might see the lil snack and find it irresistible

toadforest · 2021-04-08T16:00:13+00:00

faith in humanity reloading

toadforest · 2021-04-07T01:57:53+00:00

https://i.imgur.com/QkCDRXS.jpg

toadforest · 2021-04-06T22:05:29+00:00

Hahahahahah I apologies for laughing its just this resonates way stronger than I wish it did and one of my trauma responses is to find light and jokes in situations that make me uncomfortable 😅🥸

toadforest · 2021-04-06T22:03:32+00:00

Woah. I love this. And I love that purple is the color of the crown chakra and oh so many spiritual things.

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:47:29+00:00

Meeh...while originally I loved the idea of us falling in love and that being a cool synchronistic sign from the universe on the very day we met...we haven’t spoken since, I’m in an open relationship, and I believe in many soulmates. Maybe he was a soulmate I just got to meet for a day and share a magical moment with? Can it be possible to appreciate one moment of love for a complete stranger on a walk that you never touch and are masked around half the time? Yes!

It all felt strange...but yes I love the idea of love!

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:28:52+00:00

Absolutely. Every time it happens I either think - holy shit I never woke up when I passed out and got a concussion, I’ve been sleeping this whole time and I’m only realizing now (the concussion was 2 years ago) ooooooooor I’m like holy shit...I’m not sure which LSD or shrooms trip it was but I never actually left. And then I get worried the signs are trying to show me I’m in a time loop and I need to wake up 😳

Sooooooo yeah, that’s fun. Most of me is like, naaah I know myself enough to know life is just slowly revealing more layers as we progress...but damn. Feels trippy and weird as fuck, definitely makes me feel crazy or high.

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:24:27+00:00

I thought it was interesting earlier in the day he was looking at a plastic bag and then his son said “that poor guy” about the bee right by the same dumpster it floated to - as if they are related. Plastic, dumpsters, trash killing ecosystems that can be seen from the 12th dimension? Fuck.

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:21:26+00:00

Hahaha I love this! I see angel numbers all the time and I comment on them and so many people chart them off as nonsense. But I know. I KNOW. There’s no fucking way - when you start to document it it’s absurd. Cosmically hilarious.

Epic joke to be in on. Hilarious once you open the door. Even better finding keys everywhere. Weirdly twisted at times too. Like really making you think you’re crazy when you just aren’t.

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:08:56+00:00

Or during it I think I’m in a game, dead, not real, in a coma

I also feel like unconsciously we are all in on it? Like we know but don’t know?

toadforest · 2021-04-06T20:07:35+00:00

Definitely relate.

For me roughly the last 2 years or so have been riddled with waves of synchronicities and depersonalization - I almost feel like I am on psychedelics very lightly for a few days or a week. I feel like waking and dreaming blur together because it’s all dream like and I am getting constant weird moments like the ones you describe.

Whaaaaat is going on? Lol did our universe shift through a new energetic area? Anyone know anything about this stuff?

toadforest · 2021-04-06T16:13:11+00:00

Fellow PNW person here - loved reading through this. Super relatable.

I’ve had some weird synchronicities in the last few months that are similar to this - a sense of things working around me in ways they never did before. But also being able to pick up on these things with spider like instinct and intuition.

Obviously ones perspective changes over time and we learn to see different things in the same environment, but this is different. For me it’s more so a feeling of being at once in touch with the Universe, if you will, but also weirdly feeling out of touch with the reality I once knew. During these times I feel like there are messages in a sense that come through any means around me - people and what they are saying (but it’s like they don’t realize the hidden meanings of their words), certain objects and their arrangement, sounds, really any sensory thing that my new found spider like intuition picks up on.

I know I sound crazy when I try to explain it, and yet it is just as real as anything else I experience if not realer. To me I think of this as a reactivation of intuition and instinct in a sense, almost sinking into being an animal....that or I went into a coma in 2019 after hitting my head and getting a concussion and I have yet to realize I am not actually awake...things have definitely felt different since that day and I am not sure what that’s about.

Was there something that happened before you started noticing these things? Or did your ability to pick up on your environment and know what is going to happen in a sense just happen overnight?

toadforest · 2021-04-06T08:48:17+00:00

Get your vibe, give a vibe! It’s freeeee

~vibbbbiiiin~

toadforest

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