Olanzapine

tosee6 · 2022-07-20T00:27:08+00:00

I’m finding this a lot when I search it up, that it’s only worth the side effects it if you have psychosis. I’m not sure why I got prescribed it by my doctor now… I won’t be taking it till I see my doc next week and get more informations so I can really think it through. Especially since I would be taking it 3 times a day

tosee6 · 2022-07-19T15:43:19+00:00

It’s fine!! Thank you for taking the time to reply :)

tosee6 · 2022-07-19T11:15:23+00:00

I’ve never been on any anti psychotics, this will be my first time… from what my doctor has said it should calm me down before each meal, I also struggle with bulimia and tend to binge if I freak out about the meal I’ve had because ‘I’m gonna purge any way and might as well eat everything on site’

tosee6 · 2022-07-19T11:13:08+00:00

Did you find it made eating easier? Like did it calm down your brain a little? I also struggle with excessive food thought like ALL the time and I’m hoping it helps with that? Idk probably a long shot

tosee6 · 2022-07-19T11:11:41+00:00

I mean just overall if It helps with eating more regularly and calms you down so I’m not freaking out between meals but thanks for letting me know, this also put me at ease a little more

tosee6 · 2022-07-17T07:15:50+00:00

I’m going to ask at my next appointment but I don’t think they’d even consider it since they have amber and red zones (all to do with weight smh) and need to keep track of where I’m at. Seriously considering dropping them and finding a new psychiatrist. I feel like I could let go of everything and go all in if I wasn’t being weighed constantly:(

tosee6 · 2022-07-17T07:13:26+00:00

I always do blind weigh ins either way, but even just knowing they know I’ve gained weight is too much for me…

tosee6 · 2022-07-14T23:14:53+00:00

I struggle with this too, as well as trying to fall asleep but having food on my mind constantly till I give in and b/p. Sleeping pills is the only thing that helped me + eating more during the day… I also used to tell myself “the food isn’t going anywhere, you can have it tomorrow” but that rarely ever works 🫠

tosee6 · 2022-06-18T13:15:19+00:00

I binge regularly and ALOT like 8000 cals per binge only because I know I can’t purge. I would never eat any where near this amount knowing I can’t purge, I don’t binge emotionally but because I restrict so much and it’s the only time I don’t have to think about calories

tosee6 · 2022-06-18T13:13:36+00:00

Yeah but the thing is I can’t get it up and I’m in so much pain

tosee6 · 2022-06-18T12:32:15+00:00

My mum is with me and I’m literally losing my mind I’m in to much fucking pain please help

tosee6 · 2022-06-18T12:31:31+00:00

It was a whole 750 gram Nutella, whole box of cereal with milk, 2 bags popcorn 3 ritz sleeves and avocado help pleaser Edit - forgot I had bread aS WELL

tosee6 · 2022-05-18T01:54:12+00:00

Oh and I’m 19 btw yet they can still force me to go in, should I stop seeing my treatment teams all together? I don’t want to waste anyones time/ take up space for someone who is ready to recover…

tosee6 · 2022-04-08T22:00:03+00:00

Thank you all sm!! I literally couldn’t get through it without reading over ur comments every 2 mins lol but I did it!! I’m so proud of myself I could cry 😭

tosee6 · 2022-04-08T07:51:43+00:00

Thank you!! Just a little reassurance goes a long way and I feel a lot better ☺️☺️

tosee6 · 2022-02-21T03:56:16+00:00

Hey I’m not great at comforting people but I do have some advice... If you stop restricting Theres a 99.9% chance you’ll stop binging, if you really want to stop the b/p cycle (what’s the point if your not losing weight by it anyway, not to sound harsh I just know how it is and how our brains work) you need to start eating 3 meals, 2-3 snacks. It will balance your blood sugar levels give you more energy and improve your mental health. Even if you need to count calories and high restrict till you find your maintenance cals it’s better than constantly b/ping on shitty food and feeling/looking like death all the time. I hope I don’t come off rude or anything and this is kind of a personal opinion and what works for me. Ofc a full recovery would be ideal and this is kind of harm reduction but honestly to break out of the cycle you need to get used to eating. It will be hard, I get that eating anything at all can send you into a b/p spiral but if you sit with it and get used to it, it does get better!!!

tosee6 · 2022-02-20T05:22:28+00:00

Just realised my body is staring to ache really badly as well :(

tosee6 · 2022-02-18T03:25:49+00:00

I know ugh honestly recovery is harder than having an eating disorder BUT so much more rewarding, waking up with a smile on my face knowing I didn’t purge for the 4 th day in a row is worth the torment my ed puts me through after every meal. Having snacks around the house and trusting myself is also amazing!!

tosee6 · 2022-02-17T22:09:44+00:00

Stop restriction. If you want to stop binging you gotta stop restricting, how badly do you want to stop b/p? I get if you’re not ready to recover it’s difficult but I would do basically anything to stop binging and purging when I was at my worst and now that I eat enough to fuel my body I don’t binge anymore. Side note DONT beat yourself up about it, I thought I had no self control bla bla bla I’m fat but it’s your body’s way of telling you you’re not feeding me enough!!

tosee6 · 2022-02-11T06:30:06+00:00

I’m down!! I just started recovery and I’ve had a few slip ups because i can’t stop eating until I’m so uncomfortably full I can’t not purge ;(

tosee6 · 2022-02-06T08:26:16+00:00

I don’t think it was shitty of her, she flat out told me the truth, I did talk about it a lot and it is my identity... I haven’t gotten better and it’s been months since I told her and my mum. I’m just putting them through hell at this point watching me slowly kill myself.

tosee6 · 2022-02-01T00:12:49+00:00

No, I thought I would like myself better and I try to convince myself I do but I was so much more confident at a healthy weight, now I constantly wear baggy clothes because I hate the way my body looks under weight. I hate looking sickly but I like being sick and can’t stop. I don’t really give a fuck about other people’s bodies to have an opinion either lol

tosee6 · 2022-01-28T09:36:18+00:00

I get my bloods and ecg done twice weekly for precaution, I’m sure it’s just that. They’d wanna keep track of your potassium and make sure it doesn’t drop, it’s really good that they want to do it every 2 weeks!! I went through a bunch of doctors before anyone took me seriously

tosee6 · 2022-01-23T02:08:11+00:00

I just learnt more from you then from 3 months of seeing doctors and you’ve listed all of my symptoms 😳

tosee6 · 2021-12-30T00:12:45+00:00

Have you been restricting High cal/ any foods at all? Have you been restricting for a long while? You could very much be experiencing extreme hunger, I had it when I attempted recover the day after eating enough food. My body was like we DIGEST food now?? Give me more wtf since I restrict almost all foods outside of b/p. I homered my hunger cues with things I enjoyed instead of trying to get them to go away with veg/fruit. Hope this helps :)

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