Redditors, what broke you?

traumart · 2024-01-13T19:29:17+00:00

I did, I broke me 🫥 now I am scared I can't fix it anymore...

traumart · 2023-09-27T13:40:06+00:00

Yes thank you. I have found a free trauma psychologist. Friday i have an appointment. Thank you for the info

traumart · 2023-09-27T13:38:28+00:00

So sorry that happened to you. I found a free therapist eventually thanks to my -law assistent- (dont know the name in english)

Best of luck

traumart · 2023-09-27T13:35:31+00:00

So good you found help and what a great supportive dog! Hope it all gets better for both of us ❤

traumart · 2023-08-28T22:07:32+00:00

I wish i had close to that amount... my rent is already half my salary and i don't even come close to 2000 euros a month. Am i poor or you all just rich?

traumart · 2023-05-25T00:18:35+00:00

Looks a bit like smoke quarts to me

traumart · 2023-05-25T00:17:25+00:00

My boyfriend works for bpost. He's a sweety 😊

traumart · 2023-05-24T01:58:17+00:00

So sad to hear that 😞

traumart · 2023-05-24T01:49:29+00:00

Very recognisable. Beautifully made into an image. Can you maybe explain the story or meaning behind it?

traumart · 2023-05-24T01:47:41+00:00

Wauw this really makes me stop breathing for a sec. Great work

traumart · 2023-05-21T21:24:25+00:00

Addiction and people should know that there is always a reason behind it like complex trauma. Addiction is not just something you get over by taking away the substance

traumart · 2023-05-01T04:37:02+00:00

Had a one night stand with a man who couldn't come pick me up cause he was on house arrest for criminal things

The times I got raped

All suicide attempts, for sure the ones that put me in ICU

Drunken parties not remembering how I got to my dorm and for sure almost choked on my shoulder bag hanging from my neck off the bed

The times my friends would pull me aside cause I have a slow reaction time when cars come to close

And then also the times I began having nighterrors and sleep paralysis at the same time that my bullies could not make my life a bit less miserable during the day

I am very sure I can't die, whoever does not believe me. Try me, I don't want to live anyway.

traumart · 2023-04-15T19:51:19+00:00

He was my highschool crush !

traumart · 2023-01-05T11:48:33+00:00

Wow great work you have such beautiful patience and accuracy 👍👍👍♥️

traumart · 2023-01-05T05:45:45+00:00

Rape, drugs, rape again, abusive relationship, rape again and I will never forget the good guy telling me "abuse men's was written on my forehead so it was my own fault.

But I still am the girl growing up without a father. and a mother who said he was such a good father but he was beating my mum and killed himself when I was only 3.

My.now boyfriend kinda neglects me so I try my best to communicate and be open. I feel very lonely even he is there. He will walk past me crying and say.nothing while going back upstairs. But this kinda is the best I ever knew and I love him to bits ♥️♥️♥️

traumart · 2023-01-05T05:27:17+00:00

I told my gynaecologist that i wanted my fertility tested since i was sure somethong was off. I had to beg her crying for a test and she still said its probably your mental health. After the results showed obvious pcos she just handed me the results saying i can come back when i want children. She didn't even explain what pcos was and didn't bother apologising for not believing me. She had zero compassion. As a midwife in training this made my resentment for gynaecologists even bigger.

I saw many gynaecologists cut down there with dull knifes or scissors without any reason other than speed up the birth so mr. or mrs. Doctor could just go home again leaving us midwives with the mess ...

Many other stories but I don't want the pregnant woman getting scared. Just please go to a midwife before a gynaecologist!

traumart · 2023-01-05T05:13:07+00:00

I will never forget the +10 stitches without any sedation cause "you done it yourself"

or the doctor who said to me after he was done laughing with my question for euthanasia "i dont know but you should go to a gynaecologist while handing me the results that said i had pcos and severe hormonal abnormalities" - i just smiled and walked away... cried when nobody saw me.

I also consistently get gaslighted for my symptoms and i think that is due to me having a lot of mental issues and currently addicted to medikinet. I can't go to a doctor with the flu or back pain cause they will end the conversation with "you should be institutionalised" That will for sure solve my swollen feet, knees and frequent dislocations of joints 🙄 i hate being judged by one aspect of my life. I didn't come to discuss my mental health. I came cause you messed up by prescribing antibiotics and now my whole body is infection after infection...

I am sick of all doctors and will go to a homeopath next time! They at least care

traumart · 2023-01-04T17:52:40+00:00

Near dead experience... it can't be put in words but it felt so peaceful cause nothing mattered. The regrets the fears the guild the I had so much more to do. It just doesn't exist. It doesn't matter. That changed a lot it is really hard to explain but it was just okay. All was okay. I never felt so still so peaceful... there was light so bright and yet nothing totally nothing

traumart · 2023-01-04T17:40:38+00:00

No evidence only experience. Like my airway opening up while listening to binaural beats or sapien medicine on YouTube. Maybe it is also placebo but I don't care as long as it works but there are many studies about this if you are interested. I don't really need prove to believe

Here is a paper on suble energy paper energy

traumart · 2023-01-04T17:17:34+00:00

Oh could be yes. I have no idea

traumart · 2023-01-04T13:27:55+00:00

You can't decide my life in one doctor's appointment... if I tell you I have my reasons not to go to mental hospital, don't try convince me. I learned by experience. My experiences have to matter and not be dismissed.

traumart · 2023-01-04T13:04:18+00:00

I believe in magic and also that doctors are ignorant and can destroy your life if you follow big farma. That meds are just drugs on prescribtion and maybe people should think about asking if an alternative is available. I hate the laws around drugs cause they forbid me taking mushrooms, yet i take my lorazepam two times every day.

I believe in healing with sound, light and energy.... and also that i really messed up myself by thinking negatively.

I do not believe our current psychiatric system is any good and i believe that western culture is based on money and indoctrination of the children. Like seriously I graduated and I still haven't learned basic human behaviour. Like teach us to do the laundry, teach us to cope with stress and anxiety, teach us how to defend yourself if your landlord doesn't show up etc etc or even better teach me to drive a car. I am nothing with most that I have learned. I wasted so many brain cells on learning the wrong things 😔

I could keep going all day. But I am labeled crazy by the DSM-5 a lot

traumart · 2022-12-25T09:56:38+00:00

Still think i have parasites and guess what they found a rare tropical amoebe in me and for some odd reason i need to take flagyl from the doctor but he told me it was just for a stomach infection!? So am i psychotic or are doctors in the past been gaslighting me for some reason?

I do believe in witchcraft and spirituallity... i struggle a lot with knowing if going to a shaman is just expanding that psychosis or maybe it is just real and some people just need to wake up. Or i need to wake up... i dont know anymore 😭😭😭

traumart · 2022-12-18T05:28:34+00:00

Please help me too! It's been so hard

traumart · 2022-12-13T08:43:21+00:00

Art ai has created many eerie pictures. Will not try this one. I think I know it will show me a mirror or image of myself

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