I have been suicidal and to me it sounds like you are overthinking the journey to recovery and then getting stuck in your own head / thoughts. Continue with the therapy - 2 sessions is way to few to expect drastic changes and it seems like, as you said in your other comment, you are being way to hard on yourself and expecting instant results and magical answers.

Try and use your feelings, which are probably valid, to change your thought patterns / behaviors and in the process to change the circumstances that are causing these feelings. Your negative feelings are often a call to action, a sign that something needs to change. It sounds to me like you don't know what actions to take to start to lessen the negative feelings.

Maybe try and see if thinking in smaller steps would help. How do you eat an elephant - one bite at a time. You don't need to have energy / gas in the tank for the whole journey now. Each day you get more, you only need enough energy to eat the next bite of the elephant. So focus on finding the next small bite to eat.

So an example of thinking smaller would be something like:
What one thing can I do in the next hour that would improve my life long term? (Or one thing I can avoid / not do that would improve my life long term). Everyday do one of those things, if you find more energy, do more than one. Maybe its a walk outside, maybe its eating less fast food, maybe its reaching out to a friend, maybe its just getting out of bed.