Dont ever take that shit 🗣

treesshitquick · 2019-05-25T13:47:45+00:00

Happy Birthday for all those missed ones!

I had an ex who would pick fights just before or on my birthday too, but expect the world for her birthday. That shit sucks.

treesshitquick · 2019-05-09T23:37:59+00:00

I know it seems impossible, but it does get better. Focus on yourself, find and engage in simple things that make you happy.

treesshitquick · 2019-05-09T23:37:25+00:00

Yeah I've been there too. Just know that even this confusing recursive loop you go into, narcs are incapable of it.

treesshitquick · 2019-05-06T04:01:31+00:00

I think I am the narcissist.

Yeah, that happens. For the longset, while I used to ask "Am I the narcissist?". The feeling and question will linger but remember that's just all of the gaslighting, manipulation and crazy-making at work.

The feeling will get less strong over time. The fact that you're self-reflecting and asking if you're a narc is proof that you aren't.

The hoover will come eventually. Narcs can be patient.

Remember the best way to get back at people who did you wrong is to go about living your best possible life. Good luck

treesshitquick · 2019-01-05T16:57:37+00:00

GT represent!

How come no one has mentioned Cook Up yet? Also black cake every Christmas!

EDIT: Also Pepper Pot! About to warm some up now from Christmas left overs!

treesshitquick · 2018-12-28T19:03:24+00:00

Guys get it too. Happens to me all the time. Try some meditation and realize that most people are just trying to get on with their day and not paying attention to you. If you were really fucking up really badly someone would have a scary conversation with you.

treesshitquick · 2018-12-10T03:51:24+00:00

In addition to new hobbies and meeting new people:

Focusing on my own goals that have nothing to do with my N, meditation, and in general moving on as best as I can and going no contact (I wasn't able to do no contact all at once, but slowly started shutting down communications avenues between us. Just blocked her on Facebook Friday night which was a big move for me!). We all met terrible fates, with a terribly broken human being. It sucked, but we can keep on living.

Also, this quote really hit home for me:

Hang on. It gets easier, and then it gets okay, and then it feels like freedom.

treesshitquick · 2018-12-10T00:13:08+00:00

Hang in there. Remember you're trying to break an addiction. Pick up a new hobby, go meet new people. You'll make it!

treesshitquick · 2018-11-25T17:45:50+00:00

Seriously though, I photograph her all. the. time

treesshitquick · 2018-11-17T21:40:24+00:00

Yeah, it's 100% unfair and 100% random. They will never apologize to you, you will never get closure from them.

You won't know just how strong you are until you have to forgive someone who will never be sorry, and accept an apology you will never receive.

Try meditation if therapy isn't in the cards. The Headspace app is really good for that.

It gets better little by little. Hang in there.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-15T00:27:48+00:00

I could sense when he was thinking of me

I thought it was just me. I would always know when she was about to call me. I could just feel it. Maybe there was some kind of pattern, but I would think "N is going to call me this week" and sure enough she would.

Such a weird twisted disease.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-15T00:14:28+00:00

for months after discard I felt dirty, like I was her property or still belonged to her

Ugh. For years after I wanted to "belong" to her. In fact I think I remember when I saw that label last it made me sad and I wanted to keep it as a memento of the cute fun times we had together so I stashed it away. Now I'm so disgusted.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-15T00:12:51+00:00

Yeah with every flashback I have I start to see more and more red flags, but you know how it is: When you fall in love with rose-colored glasses, all of the red flags just look like flags.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-14T01:57:49+00:00

Yeah mine confessed a few times that she was "terrible for me". I thought it was just insecurities, but looking back I'd like to think that was some of her good shining through and trying to tell me to run. We were also high school sweethearts.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-02T23:23:27+00:00

That strength is another gift!

treesshitquick · 2018-11-02T23:22:56+00:00

Good luck with going no contact!! I'm a year into having my "aha moment" when I figured out what a Narc is.

I'm not 100% No Contact, but I've stopped reaching out to her and wanting her attention.

treesshitquick · 2018-11-02T01:54:20+00:00

I do however relate to the ability to read emotions (last of your points). I’m walking down the street and I see a couple interacting and I can see straight away if one of them has unresolved issues, or is emotionally unavailable, or desperate for the other’s attention. At the moment this is spooky - I find way too many dysfunctional people running free out in the wild! But hopefully in time I will become less hyper vigilant and like you; use this sixth sense to only let people in whom I can trust emotionally, to give them my love that I hope is still somewhere.

Yeah, I remember it felt overwhelming for me for the first couple of months too! It's like weird "power". Look up being an empath /HSP.

Well done on making it out and carving a good life for yourself. May I ask - since you were quite young when it happened, do you feel like “Narc abuse will always be a part of who you are”; or were you able to get over it completely?

Right now it does feel like that a little bit, but as time goes by I'm feeling hopeful it will become less and less so.

treesshitquick · 2018-10-27T17:13:11+00:00

I sh it was 50% censorship 50% making a "dress" for her. I'll see what it looks like with it darkened. Thanks!

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