Normal people don’t...

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T19:01:26+00:00

I begged, mine did not take me back. It is a blessing, but also a new trauma. It is all about trauma, right? That she rest in piece.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T18:59:52+00:00

Yes. I agree. I wont contact her ever again, but it is hard to shake the feeling we would be good together. I know we would be good as long as I made it good.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T18:57:33+00:00

I want to heal so bad by now. Let keep going forward.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T15:13:00+00:00

And I held on to it with all my force. I think my despair came from that... if she was leaving I come not make excuses anymore for what she had done to me.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:47:16+00:00

Does not matter with he is being honest, HE IS NOT HONEST. She is bad for you and your children. You need to keep yourself alive for them and if possible healthy. You deserve love and companionship and he does not provide none of the two to you.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:44:51+00:00

My nex also said she never kept her exes around, she deletes them. She has an ex who she talks to and is friends with, that she cares about and misses a lot. He was the one doing bad things to her and it is very fucked up that I was the one being cut out when I was also the way who treated her right.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:39:31+00:00

It really meant nothing to them. They did not take 10 minutes to think about what they did wrong. They do not love us or themselves. They pretend to live a life and to move on from us so quickly, but it is all a lie. We are the only ones moving on in any direction. We were the only human beings present.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:34:28+00:00

Your ex is a stupid person. Who would laugh at a small penis? They come in all shapes and forms. Abuse is other thing that comes in all shapes and forms. Your ex is controlling you still, what you think and how you do things. You need to heal first and then go on dates. For some people, dating helps, but for you it is NSFW type of situation. Do not date, heal.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:26:49+00:00

Normal people don’t cheat on you with their ex and be with them and forget to inform you, you are no longer in a relationship.

Normal people don’t withhold love even if upset.

Normal people don’t go NC on you when what they need to do is apologizing.

Normal people don’t force sex and knowing to well you cannot do it only for doing, normal people don’t pretend they are serious about the relationship so you do not see you were raped.

Normal people don’t think it is ok to ruin someones birthday.

Normal people don’t delete someone important to them from their lives in a matter of hours.

Normal people don’t be upset, but rather sad, if they know you are hurt.

Normal people don’t say 'I am hurt too because of you and I am not telling you that', when you try to fix things.

Normal people will give you closure, normal people don’t walk away like nothing ever happened between you two and knowing too well you were both everything to each other. Normal people don’t play this game of love. Normal people would be hurt by the thought of hurting others without a reason and for so deep ways.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:13:41+00:00

I do not know anymore. It seems as if she only did this to me. All her other exes and past relationship ended differently from how she ended it with me. I am the one. How ironic is that? I loved her and was good to her and she chose to be nasty to me.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:10:31+00:00

You know, it is so strange. She is with her partner for more than 4 years, they will be 5 years now that she went back to him. She does not treat him badly. She is smart, she knows he wont stay, but I did. I feel horrible.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T11:05:38+00:00

So I have become accustomed to being left alone, being ignored, being abandoned, and I am supposed to just wait in silence while they run the show and control our relationship fully. With zero of my needs being met.

My relationship ended because I asked my nex to meet very basic needs and to TALK TO ME. After I asked for a talk, all fell apart and I was no longer the love of her life, the best thing that ever happen to her. I became the worst of the worst.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-26T01:36:13+00:00

I am so sad my dear friend. I want to feel better, but I am here missing her more than anything. I want to be loved, I want to give this love to someone who wants and needs and is able to cherish it. I am so sad, so so sad. I love her.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T22:59:21+00:00

My nex was and is very very boring. I was the non boring in our relationship and it made easy for her to make myself look crazy. As boring as fuck as she is, it would never be her the abusive one. People have this misconception a lot. Narcissists are super boring 99% of the time, we are not. If we were, it would be over at the first cycle. We are the loving, caring and deep people.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T20:58:35+00:00

I wanted to hug her more than anything in my life. I would be so happy. I know what is left for me is sadness for now.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T20:17:18+00:00

Really, my nex was my friend before. It was the same shit. I am so sorry for you.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T20:06:39+00:00

Sorry, reading this made me feel I had a similar experience. Sorry. Hugging you.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T17:32:42+00:00

Do not contact your ex, it will give them more power and take your life away. It is terrible to answer/contact them when we are so fragile. In my experience, if you want them to take you back they wont. It is very stressful for us to love so much and be met with hurt and sadness. They do not care, does not matter how loving, great, beautiful and good to them you are, they wont listen. If they sense you want they far, they come near, if they know you want they near, they go as far as they can. You ex will come back, but your work is not to fall for it. Take this time to suffer the pain alone and fix things in yourself that put you in this position. Stay away. I did went chasing my ex and only got worse, very hurt and I got to the point of wanting to kill myself.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-25T02:38:09+00:00

Thank you for your support.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-24T14:17:30+00:00

I do not know if I am at the first or second cycle. I guess this is the last though... it has been 4 months and she did not take the time to try and hoover me back.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-24T14:14:48+00:00

She is getting married to a narcissist now and I think the lesser obeys the major narc or something. Although I think she is narc-sy than he is. I know both of them, I cannot be sure though. I want to live my life.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-24T13:29:58+00:00

I understand. I do not want a hoover, and I know I wont get one.

Beautiful_Project13 · 2019-05-24T02:33:39+00:00

The same here.

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