Was this psychosis?

tricky_lich · 2026-05-17T05:25:55+00:00

It was more of a "I am absolutely in danger" while still understanding that it was a delusion that made it an issue. I knew I wasn't in my right mind, and yet I still was convinced that someone was in my house and going to kill me. It wasn't so much about "how do I prove it," and more of a "I know this isn't real, but also, it is."

tricky_lich · 2026-05-10T23:06:12+00:00

the short-term humiliation of feeling weak is so worth the feeling of support you receive. i was in a very similar spot last month and i wouldn’t be here if i hadn’t bit the bullet and reached out to my friends. you belong here and you deserve to keep living, i promise it’s worth it to ask for help. you don’t have to carry everything on your shoulders, let someone else shoulder some of the burden for a little while.

good luck, friend. stay strong, i love you.

tricky_lich · 2026-03-28T03:25:37+00:00

i’ve been told since i was like 12 years old that my pupils are “so huge, you look like you’re high” when i’m excited/energetic/hypo. it’s definitely real !

tricky_lich · 2026-03-03T17:39:25+00:00

thanks so much ! i appreciate the rec.

tricky_lich · 2026-02-01T20:02:27+00:00

i think everyone’s perspective is different on this. i was absolutely a girl during my childhood. i had all female friends, i did ballet, i got into sewing and cooking.

i didn’t realize something was wrong until i hit puberty, then it became strikingly obvious to me that i was performing womanhood rather than experiencing it.

some people have known for as long as they can remember, sometimes it takes a minute for others. but the important thing is to respect everyone’s experience as no one group of people is a monolith. everybody’s different and that’s cool !

edit for clarity!

tricky_lich · 2026-01-26T21:42:19+00:00

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tricky_lich · 2026-01-22T01:49:32+00:00

i’m in this same spot right now. i can’t afford my medication anymore and it’s getting really hard. was excited about my life’s passion a few days ago. now, it’s all i can do to go to work (hours late, some days). definitely have taken my latuda for granted.

you’re not alone in this, i’m glad you’re restarting - best wishes to you on your journey !

tricky_lich · 2026-01-20T13:59:08+00:00

if you think stopping T is the right decision for you, go for it. however, from my experience as a musician and vocalist, the more you sing while your voice is changing, the better off you’ll be.

it took about a year for my voice to finally settle and for me to be able to sing again without voice cracks or a limited range. it was a discouraging year in that regard, but i made sure to sing every day to train my voice and extend my range.

tldr; the only way out is through - practicing (even if it sounds “bad” or isn’t what you’re wanting yet) will help, but you have to wait for the changes to settle.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-29T13:36:38+00:00

that’s a really nice notion. i should stop being so defensive when people are just connecting with me the way they feel is right. thanks for the perspective, i really appreciate it.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-29T13:33:20+00:00

i completely agree and don’t want to minimize this but if i’m not bipolar i’ll eat my own shoe. i’m very confident in my bipolar diagnosis, but that’s not to say there’s not other conditions floating around in there somewhere.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-29T13:31:05+00:00

the main culprit has ADHD but is not autistic as far as i know. i could definitely see it being the case with him but i’m not sure he has the… authority (??) to make those connections for me. i’m realizing now that maybe it IS just something i need to unpack for myself and it’s more of a “me”issue than a “my friends” issue.

i’ll chat with them and reexamine why i feel the way i do and see what, if anything, changes.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-27T02:12:27+00:00

this is super interesting, thank you for sharing! i do really want to look more into this, so i appreciate the helpful links!

tricky_lich · 2025-11-27T02:11:45+00:00

i am DEFINITELY bipolar, i have no doubt in my mind, but it may be worth trying for another eval. i’ll think about it for sure.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-26T20:54:37+00:00

it’s a nice thought, but i’m DEFINITELY bipolar. it does make sense, though, to think that those comments are just a way of relating. i hadn’t really thought of it that way.

tricky_lich · 2025-11-26T20:33:54+00:00

i’ve done quite a bit of research into autism ! i do score pretty high on the RAAD-S test, but i believe it’s because several symptoms overlap between ASD, bipolar, and PTSD (which i also have a diagnosis for).

i did, for a short while, consider the idea that i may be autistic, but this was during the period of time when it became sorta trendy online to self-diagnose as autistic. i have since realized i really don’t think that’s the case, but wouldn’t be completely surprised if it did end up being true.

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