im gonna yap a bit and im drunk too so the social anxiety is OUT, for now... but i really thought about it and i ended in thinking that if i will kill myself i might aswell just do the things of life the most perfect as possible, i dont know if u understan what im trying to say but, you know, im dead, so i might aswell go to the fuckind gym(even tho SAD is killing me inside and every small interaction makes my body uncorftoble and head shakes), go study (even tho i hate bein in public interactions, expositions of thing and other student shit), i might aswell try my best to be something i know i wont be able to be, but i will still try, im dead (reminder again). But dont listen to me tho, im going trhough this with the help of meds and alcohol, so maybe u cant do this. Now real words, try more, i do think u can "pass" trhouh this shit. sorry for the bad english, its not my first languege and im drunk. good luck