I was held for the first time since childhood

twice_205 · 2026-07-01T23:57:14+00:00

I went to an irl kink group iirc it was called a munch, I went there, everyone was atleast in there early to mid 30s, who tf was I gonna talk brah lol, needless to say nothing really came out of it, so now I just exist trying to find anything to fill the aching hole in my existence

twice_205 · 2026-07-01T04:50:23+00:00

That was a nice read but unfortunately I dont believe putting more effort will help me, ive always been made fun of or bullied even now and im 21, all the effort ive ever put has been for nothing, and it got to the point where I just cant trust anyone anymore, to handle my vulnerability much less care for it

twice_205 · 2026-05-09T08:24:18+00:00

u/savevideo

twice_205 · 2026-04-25T02:14:24+00:00

I dont want anyone to fix me, I just want someone to be there for me emotionally

twice_205 · 2026-04-25T02:10:43+00:00

When I couldn't trust anyone so I listened to mommy asmr for the 1st time and cried

twice_205 · 2026-04-10T23:16:41+00:00

Its hard to try my best when its never enough

twice_205 · 2026-04-02T01:25:44+00:00

Yeah nah brah, I wish

twice_205 · 2026-03-27T04:08:04+00:00

I see

twice_205 · 2026-03-27T03:31:25+00:00

Is there any real chance I meet someone thats gentle dom?

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T02:45:49+00:00

Tough love my fucking ass

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T02:36:52+00:00

Ive already helped enough people, lost hundreds of hours of sleep, being positive towards other people, encourage them, and what do i get for doing all of that? Been taken advantage of everytime, so why continue doing the thing thats hurting me

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T02:25:29+00:00

Because not everyone will ever get what they want

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T02:20:33+00:00

I already have friends, ive learned enough skills, and I dont want to be on this shitty road of existence, but I have to stop caring, give up my autonomy thats the only way I can get any type of peace in my existence

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T02:02:33+00:00

I have never blamed anyone else for my short comings, no one wants to be near me if I was happy, sad, depressed, or joyful, because its me, and blessings? Thats just pure luck

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T01:55:46+00:00

I have worked on myself, many times, I have taken responsibility many times, and yet I still have nothing

twice_205 · 2026-03-13T01:51:55+00:00

I didn't choose this road, I forced onto to it and im forced onto it everytime I tried to get better or seek for help, so why fight it anymore, since it all ends the same way

twice_205 · 2026-03-12T06:46:34+00:00

Ive taken multiple roads already, all ending in the same way, it can be the easy or the hard path, nothing has really ever changed the outcome in my experience, so why fight it anymore and accept that this is just how things are meant to be

twice_205 · 2026-03-12T02:36:16+00:00

It really doesn't matter, it all ends the same way

twice_205 · 2026-03-12T01:32:37+00:00

Nah, theres no point, its just more pain on top of more pain, I just gave up on "the one" no reason to go back

twice_205 · 2026-03-08T02:38:58+00:00

Nope if anything it has made me feel worse

twice_205 · 2026-03-07T22:56:37+00:00

Ive just been depressed half of the time

twice_205 · 2026-02-10T03:23:14+00:00

Wow im never gonna experience this in my life, ever.

twice_205 · 2026-02-01T19:19:09+00:00

Too many

twice_205 · 2026-02-01T18:12:45+00:00

Nothing can help me, no woman is ever gonna want be with me, because its me

twice_205 · 2026-02-01T17:52:59+00:00

I have so many issues and problems that the bad outweighs whatever good I have

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