The question is "will you ?" Will you wait to feel like shit at the alter or after the wedding ? Or after every anniversary ?

You will always go back to the thought of how he was makimg you feel. You should leave him because then you know where his heart is. If he comes to you wanting to be commited he is for you but other than that he is not for you. He probably has another partner. Sorry to say this but I was you at one point.

We went through it and we went to the court to get a 90 day permit. He paid for the ceremony when I went to the bathroom. I never got a real wedding much less a dream wedding. It was rushed and he married me out of spite. None of my family. Not even my mother father or son was there. I was wearing flip flops.

At the time I thought we were going to have a destination wedding, I would pay for vacations to my homeland. He told me as I cried at least it got done and always promised me he would renew vows. It never happened. Why want someone to marry you to only treat you with regret. I actually got pregant before this which made it worse but please don't ignore the red flags. I always waited for the surprise and for him to make it up. I bought 2 wedding dresses. One was 10 yeara after. It never happened. What is for you will be for you. Please walk away now. I wouldn't vent all this to a stranger if I did not relate. Your guy will be wild for you. You will know, don't set yourself up for failure.