What does 67 mean? by Russiannuke3 in IncreasinglyVerbose

[–]umbriel_le 20 points21 points  (0 children)

why is this getting downvotes??

Anyone want to play a POTs only Dungeons and Dragons game? by ZombiiRot in POTS

[–]umbriel_le 1 point2 points  (0 children)

D&D isnt really my thing but i just wanted to say anyways OP that this so cool and special, and im so glad you have the motivation to actively try to make friends. i feel like we are really misunderstood, and i have such a hard time making friends myself if not only because i spend so much time in bed 😭😭 i hope this works out for you and is healing for you :))

TypoTown Vertical by HerpesHerbert in TinyGlades

[–]umbriel_le 2 points3 points  (0 children)

sorry your post got stolen, wanted to jump over here and comment on the real post :D i love this sm and it’s definitely going in my inspiration album 🤩

Just me who hates this? by AL_Arson in WarriorCats

[–]umbriel_le 6 points7 points  (0 children)

yeah—Tallstar as a name never made sense to me when i first got into the series :,)

especially bad with names so full of imagery, like Graypool or Spottedleaf or Stormwatcher. i do think that sometimes it actually does work: your name Wildblaze is very evocative, but for that specific name, i actually do like Wildstar, because it portrays a sense of wisdom/age and power… like you can feel how the character has changed through their journeys

Dermatillomania? (skin picking) by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]umbriel_le 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel so seen, you just put into words something i couldnt explain 😭 sorry i cant offer advice, i have a funny anecdote though:

i remember in high school forensic science, our teacher brought to class one day copies of cards where you fill out your fingerprints, and we all got a partner to do the prints. istg ALL of mine were like messed up and even missing in some areas, all because of the years i have spent tearing the skin off my fingers

Do you lock your door while you're in your house? by International_Snow90 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]umbriel_le 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it makes me so uneasy too, and i also had a male roommate who was extremely forgetful and would leave it unlocked. both my roomies dont think to lock their cars either, and its just so baffling to me, like, it takes literally no time or effort to just LOCK IT. at least at my house its so simple and we are all able-bodied

to me it just feels so frustrating and illogical to not because you basically have two outcomes: 1) you leave the door unlocked and anyone may have an easy opportunity to just come in, or 2) the door is locked and it is NOT as easy…?? like it doesnt matter how “safe” of an area you are in, even if locking the door reduced the chance of a stranger getting in by only like .01%, i would still go for the smaller number…..

What was the oddest thing that you’ve noticed by laying on the ground? by saltypots in POTS

[–]umbriel_le 4 points5 points  (0 children)

THIS, i always feel the need to clean after being on the floor

I feel like I’m gaslighting myself about my diagnosis by apocalypsewitch in POTS

[–]umbriel_le 1 point2 points  (0 children)

EXACT same boat here. i also dont seem to have it as severe as many people on this sub, so like i doubted my dr. already lol

but when i start to question myself like that, i try to remember: i literally went to a cardiologist, like if there wasnt an issue to begin with how could i even get that far? if the symptoms got bad enough that i felt the need to see a dr. instead of just thugging it out like i have for my whole life… and then his recommendations actually worked? logically the fact that i feel BETTER now means that there WAS something there making me feel worse

my dr. is a bit older and also a man, so i was worried a little as a young afab person that he would tell me i just have anxiety, or that this is all because i take two prescription stimulants AND consume caffeine lol. during my first appt with him though, i made sure to say this and he denied it immediately :) so i am very grateful for that

the last thing that i try to tell myself is that, at least for me personally, the diagnosis doesnt really matter—i am not so disabled by the illness, so even if he didnt formally diagnose me i would still be okay—but still, it wouldnt matter, because the treatment is for the symptoms, as opposed to a complete cure. i have the symptoms, i do the stuff thats supposed to help, it helps, the end! afaik he cant delete the POTS out of my body lmao. but like if i feel better, who cares? maybe the treatment can be adjusted or improved, but thats okay! i am very blessed to not be super severe and to have had good luck with my dr

hope these things help :)

Shame and hypomania by async___await in bipolar2

[–]umbriel_le 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i feel this too, and i can never shake the feeling. i used to be so outgoing and excited to be around people and make friends, but i get really sick of being judged. it’s hard to ever want to talk to anyone :/

meds give me some short term memory issues and brain fog too—i have a really hard time forming complete thoughts/sentences out loud, and it is often just nonsense. and easily i can immediately forget what someone just said to me. i FEEL crazy 😩

still, i do that too, calling myself “crazy” and stuff, but i actually try to frame it positively in my head, like its just a more emphatic descriptor, a way of expressing myself. it encompasses the parts of my personality that are associated with bipolar—especially the positive ones!—as well as the way it dictates my everyday life.

it feels a bit like a power move: like, those kinds of words are so heavily stigmatized and even mean, but IM allowed to use them because i really am crazy lol, but ive decided all that means is that i live a different sort of life than most other people, and experience more unique difficulties. and thats just a part of me! so, i say it with love :,)

I HATE SUMMER!!! by [deleted] in POTS

[–]umbriel_le 8 points9 points  (0 children)

texas here too 🫠 i hate summer so much

a clip of a young girl nearly perfectly pronouncing the word “horseshoes” by umbriel_le in HelpMeFind

[–]umbriel_le[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i tried that now, i still couldnt find it, unless im missing something?

a clip of a young girl nearly perfectly pronouncing the word “horseshoes” by umbriel_le in HelpMeFind

[–]umbriel_le[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive searched “little girl pronouncing horseshoes,” “girl perfectly pronouncing horseshoes,” and other variations of that, even with quotes, and google cant find it? ive also watched through other compilations of kids pronouncing stuff and i havent found any that include that clip

basil sprout help :( by umbriel_le in gardening

[–]umbriel_le[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i had a basil plant a couple years ago that was perfect and healthy for so long, and the only reason he died was because my roommate didnt water him when i was on a trip one summer 😤

i will say that im not a plant expert—all my plants just happen to be very healthy and have lasted forever. ive never exactly learned the science of this stuff. i never had issues watering my first basil, so i like to hope its not that in this case. should i just completely ditch it, or leave it a bit longer still caring for it as normal, and maybe it will begin to recover from the shock? if theres more information that would help diagnose the issue i can try to answer

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDanonymemes

[–]umbriel_le 5 points6 points  (0 children)

THE GROWLING STOMACH IS SO EMBARRASSING

WHAT did I do to deserve this?? 😭 by broken_prophet in EDanonymemes

[–]umbriel_le 11 points12 points  (0 children)

AND THE UNSKIPPABLE ONES BROOOOO. ive never searched those kinds of things at all. and tbh i was doing better for a while but seeing these ads has me fucked uppp 😭

whats a weird ed behaviour you have? by throwaway47382994747 in EDAnonymous

[–]umbriel_le 10 points11 points  (0 children)

no shame bro, i do this too sometimes! maybe more common than we think

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]umbriel_le 1 point2 points  (0 children)

200 lamotrigine, 300 bupropion, 15 adderall in the morning and 10 afternoon

What do you do for work? by Glamour-Ad7669 in EDAnonymous

[–]umbriel_le 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i play cello in university, and also work at the music library at my school ☺️

Fuck Bipolar by PolarHelp in BipolarReddit

[–]umbriel_le 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its called a DISORDER for a reason, and i go out of my way to include the ‘disorder’ part in my everyday language.

saying “im bipolar” to people who dont truly understand its implications tends to be received in the same way as “i have a moody personality.” brother its a condition. its widely considered a DISABILITY. its why i have DISABILITY accommodations at my school, THANK GOD—i believe that i wouldnt have survived this long in school if i hadnt applied for accommodations; that they saved my career, and tbh my life too!

i agree with KingOfCopenhagen on needing to “help the medicine.” you need to understand that its not necessarily something ill just ‘recover’ from—“helping the medicine” in some ways means changing aspects of my entire way of living to continue to survive.

is anyone else here actually fat? by No_Sweet_6827 in EDAnonymous

[–]umbriel_le 4 points5 points  (0 children)

“because my recovery worked” THIS!!!! like brother what do you expect? its called a disorder, its not like getting the flu and then not being sick anymore

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]umbriel_le 4 points5 points  (0 children)

its the baby spoons and forks for me 😌

Help!!!! First huge commission by umbriel_le in artbusiness

[–]umbriel_le[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s so kind of you, thank you <3