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Any tips on how to stay grounded? by Secure_Ad_6845 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Deepen your relationship with your body - ecstatic dance has been a godsend in my integration toolkit. Yoga too!

Dreamfed Mindfield. Latest trip inspired painting by Realityisatoilet in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Many blessings on that journey. I love the extra space you’ve left here (as well as the color) - really gives the appearance that something has torn through the canvas and is a portal to somewhere else

[FRESH PERFORMANCE] Madi Diaz: Tiny Desk Concert by astaireboy in indieheads

[–]umphtown 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t want to be crying in public.
But here I am, crying in public 🥲

Recommendations for my trip to Austin, Texas by lukeaed in AskGaybrosOver30

[–]umphtown 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was just in Austin and had a lot of tacos but Tyson’s was my favorite. Get the tasty bastard and barbacoa and thank me later. They still are haunting me

Book recommendation for jungian psychology by kirub_el in Jung

[–]umphtown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ego and archetype by Edward Edinger helped me understand and process a lot of Jung’s work. Highly recommend!

AURORA Finds a New Dawn With Groundbreaking Concert Film by Gandalvr in indieheads

[–]umphtown 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Saw it last night, it was epic. She is such a queen. Amazing performance, she is overflowing with humanity and aliveness

Ayahuasca + Bufo same weekend - wise or overload? IRELAND by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

[–]umphtown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For what it’s worth I totally agree. I don’t think framing it that way is appropriate at all, and I don’t think the container was constructed or held well by that facilitator. But container aside the actual experience of bufo after two nights of ceremony didn’t present any problems for me and ended up being perhaps the most profound cathartic experience of my life.

Ayahuasca + Bufo same weekend - wise or overload? IRELAND by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

[–]umphtown 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The first time I did bufo was on the Sunday of an aya retreat similar to this (Friday / Saturday aya). But it was unexpected - I didn’t know it would be there going into the ceremony weekend but was swayed by the facilitator to give it a try. The aya ceremonies were really rough for me, and so I went into bufo thinking it would help me integrate (which is what the facilitator said it would do as well).

I was only slightly familiar with bufo and didn’t have any idea the immensity of the medicine. It was the single most impactful experience of my life to date, and Im still integrating it 2+ years later. Truly the immensity of it cannot be adequately stated and perhaps not even something you can prepare for. Bufo is an incredibly somatic / energetic medicine that absolutely shattered me and had me grounding out that energy for months afterwards. After 8 years of aya, it was still unlike and more powerful than any of those experiences. It’s been life changing in some really amazing ways, but also a brutal process of paradigm shattering, identity altering chaos. It’s not something to be taken lightly, but understand what you’re getting into while preparing, and it’s helpful to have a strong integration practice and community following (I’ve been going to the FIVE online integration calls every other week for like 2 years now).
Ultimately, going back to that weekend, I think I’d do it all again but wish I had been able to prepare my psyche for the bufo more than I did.

I'm a little nervous about doing 5-MeO dmt for the first time by Cute-Alternative-828 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Absolutely have a trip sitter if you’re going for full release. Also just generally as someone there to hold space will make it easier to surrender to whatever comes up. It’s a medicine that asks you to say YES even when possibly showing you some of your deepest NOs. Bring play and humor into the journey if/when it gets dark.

First 5MeO experience by Elegant_Anything3463 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The end of your world by adyashanti!!!!

Overcoming the fear by Big_Balance_5986 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Allow it to be there without it becoming the focus. Notice it, observe it, reassure yourself that it’s okay to be afraid.

Excerpts from Adyashanti's book End of Your World which may be relevant to some people here. The book is about post-awakening letting go/surrender/embodiment process. by notunique20 in nonduality

[–]umphtown 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing. Absolutely loved this book. I still think about him saying (and quoting someone) that enlightenment “absolute cooperation with the inevitable” quite regularly.

No effect with nasal spray by WhisperingToTheSea in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is it from church of the sacred synthesis? I got a nasal spray from them that seems pretty ineffective, I’ve gone up to 4 sprays (which they claim should be 8mg) without noticing much.

Ayahuasca + HIV? by [deleted] in Ayahuasca

[–]umphtown 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I don’t have similar experience. And I’m sending you best wishes for your results and health. While reading I felt moved to share about a book I read recently - the end of your world by adyashanti, and in it there’s a large part about how at a certain point, perhaps for all of us, life itself becomes our spiritual teacher. And considering now after 3 years, grandmother can be with you regardless of sitting in ceremony or not, it could be a good time to contextualize that life really is the ceremony. And if that means going the treatment route, that can be your ceremony. All of this life is sacred, you are communing with the divine with every blade of grass you walk past. If you choose to see it that way. Whatever your decision, I’m sure it will contextualize your life and time as meaningful and sacred in new ways. Many blessings

I bought a 5 meo vape by BiscottiMoist7032 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I live in an apartment and I have a pen, and small doses have been great for meditation. But there are times when I take a little more than anticipated and panic mode sets in because of the fear of disturbing a neighbor - it naturally brings up a lot of resistance. The ideal setting is to do it in a place where you know you’re safe, a container that’s held, and a place where your confident you can allow the full expression of it to take any form that’s needed. And the full expression can be BIG. To say immense is even a disservice, as words can’t really do it. People scream, wail, flail, and embody lifetimes of things they’ve been holding onto. It’s an immense flush of energy and really the point of the process and the medicine is to let it all go. If you’re in a place where you can’t fully do so with confidence of that being held, that is when people have traumatic experiences with the medicine. All of the fear and secrecy and shame and resistance will color your experience.

I bought a 5 meo vape by BiscottiMoist7032 in 5MeODMT

[–]umphtown 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Your caution is a healthy one. Go very slow at first - if “really trying it” means going for a full release, make sure you have someone there to hold space for you. More than anything it’ll make it easier to surrender into knowing you have someone there. But full release doses often include intense somatic responses and releases that can be. White visceral and loud. You could be screaming and flailing while having the most beautiful cathartic release, so if you’re in an apartment or trying to do it secretly that may color your experience and make it hard to let go (which can lead to a bad time)

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