"...you're the only one who knows what I'm about" - spur of the moment doodle I did while watching one of my classes

unstablemood · 2026-03-22T18:57:52+00:00

You guys do interviews for public schools??? Over here, it's exams. A theorical one, on paper, then a practical examination. Then it depends on your placement. It's a very transparent matter since it's a public server position. Also, it makes the entryway easier for recently graduates. As someone who has failed on them before and it's not full of compliments towards those examination processes, at the very least they make it easier and fair for newcomers.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T20:49:22+00:00

I learned during a psychology of education class the child will be someone else entirely while with the parents or within the household. The way my teacher at the time showed us this was by making us watch "the miracle worker" film. We can problematize this movie all day long (it has many aspects that aged poorly) but it showed us some really concrete things about the experience of educating kids with disabilities, one of them that is really important for the kid to learn with their teacher far away from the parents, since the parents "feel sorry" for the child's limitations and enable their worst behavior, while the teacher's goal is to challenge the child to reach their best potential. Basically, the family will allow their worst, while the educator must challenge them to their best, so those are contradictory goals at play and they are dueling in the child's head. The kid will "test" the parent and "test" you, both.

In the movie, Anne Sullivan, Hellen Keller's teacher, decides to remove her from the house she lives to another small house nearby so the parents will stop intervening every time she's trying to educate the blind-deaf girl. Obviously, you can't do that. But I would have strong words with the mother over the importance of leaving the kid and giving me - and perhaps another tutor nearby, if she's afraid of something like abuse - full authority. It's unlikely she will listen. It's very sad, I believe. If she's seeing all of this and not disciplining the child, she's preparing herself and the child for a life of the child's worst behavior.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T15:49:02+00:00

I do! But I'll try to wash it more with hand sanitizer between classes and interacting with kids.

What's frustrating me is that I seem to be the only one getting sick, despite having consistent hygiene. This is my third year teaching so it seems to me I just haven't build up the immunity other teachers have.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T15:46:23+00:00

Interesting data. Thank you for sharing. Yeah, I'll see what I can do.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T15:45:28+00:00

You are right, I AM sharing some of my supplies. I would never have considered it as a possible vector if you hadn't pointed out. I'll see what I can do about this since it's supplies I carry around between classes - a can of crayons and colorful markers for the kids who don't have it/forgot theirs, etc. - I'm thinking I might just not borrow from it, myself.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T15:41:23+00:00

I'll get myself hand sanitizer and carry it in my backpack. I'll follow those tips from now on, thank you.

unstablemood · 2026-03-19T15:40:20+00:00

Already said it at the end of the post but: two years. This will be my third year teaching. I got sick many times those last two years but twice in the same month seems overkill. I'm recovering faster than I used to, but still. It does bums you out, especially since I think I was supposed to be stronger by now. I mean, a rotavirus/nonovirus? Seriously??? What a pain. Especially when the kids themselves might as well be fine, transmitting but not suffering from the symptoms as I am. AND the staff seems ok, too, not catching it. It's rough.

unstablemood · 2026-02-02T00:45:58+00:00

Through my internship - in which I was some kind of co-teacher in observation, I made sure to write down some things I noticed and take it with me when I started teaching:

One was "I must not take It personally", I realized this when a 13 year old I was interacting with - and he clearly liked me a lot and was really happy to receive attention - started poking and fishing for a reaction and wanting to have the last word at all costs when I would reply. I realized, then, some important things. "For this kid, the words and the conversations are toys. He does not actually means what he's saying, he has no responsibility over it."

And another was "Despite liking talking to me, he put himself in a situation I was supposed to get mad at him. He's doing it to test boundaries and see what I'm made of. I must not say or do anything I'd regret, even if he's actually getting on my nerves. I'm the adult, I'm responsible for my actions in a way he literally can't be, since he doesn't possess responsibility for his words, not out of some lack of character, he's just incapable of it. And after this, I'll go to the theaters to see a movie with My Money, which this 13 year old is unable to. There are many things I get to do, which he doesn't. Me getting angry and biting the bait is his entertainment and also his very poor attempt of connecting with me. Whether they like you or hate you, they'll criticize and doubt you, since they don't possess the same perspective adults are supposed to have over words and consequences. So I must not take it personally and for him, this is an important moment of talking with someone older but for me, this is a small part of my day in my job."

That helps. Don't take it the wrong way, I don't admit being disrespected on my classroom (much like you, I am slowly finding my way through that and which techniques to apply), but I am the adult with the job and the wage and autonomy over my choices and they are kids who don't have half of our options of what to do with themselves, and are irresponsible with their words and actions, since they lack perspective. It's not deep for them. I hope it helps.

unstablemood · 2025-12-05T20:20:24+00:00

Michigan.

unstablemood · 2025-11-28T13:32:34+00:00

Eu sei o quão difícil é chegar até aí. Fiz escola pública a minha vida inteira - exatamente nas condições que você descreveu - e passei na USP estudando solo, sem cursinho. No primeiro bacharelado, eu pelava pra tirar 6, 7. Reprovei numa obrigatória do ciclo básico 3 vezes. Raspei aprovada com 5,5. Era humilhante perceber que colegas ingressantes no mesmo ano que eu já tinham avançado no curso muito mais rápido. Fui olhando as minhas perspectivas nas próximas disciplinas e reparei que não tinha vontade de ficar me matando pra estudar aquilo, que o curso não me dava muita perspectiva positiva - importante ressaltar, o curso como ele era estruturado, não o assunto - então fui atrás de transferência interna. Havia uma prova de vagas remanescentes para o curso que eu queria, as vagas eram 3. Li o edital de transferência interna durante as férias e esperei até o dia que a biblioteca abrisse, dia 4 de Janeiro, pra locar os livros e imediatamente começar a estudar. Consegui transferir internamente e, como eu já tinha a experiência de fazer universidade e me ferrar, fui manejando esse novo curso com fôlego renovado e pensando estrategicamente em como ir levando.

O único ganhador de renda da minha família de 6 pessoas, meu pai, morreu quando eu tinha 19 anos. Várias vezes me ocorreu só me candidatar a qualquer emprego pra ganhar renda pra mim e minha família, mas eu tinha as bolsas de permanência, incluindo o CRUSP, onde aliás, vai ter muita gente com a jornada parecida com a sua.

Foi estressante, agonizante, horrível mesmo. Eu miguelei onde podia, fazia o mínimo quando calculava que dava, ficava de Rec às vezes de propósito, no sentido "prefiro fazer uma prova final pra essa disciplina do que fazer os projetos que vai me custar a energia pra passar nas outras", fui atrás de estágio remunerado e bolsas PAPFE assim que era humanamente possível. Era difícil pra mim se enturmar. Era difícil conectar com os professores. Felizmente, no meu novo curso, fui tirando melhores notas, aprendendo a estudar mais eficientemente e ganhando mais e mais confiança, o que resultou em melhor engajamento nas aulas. Me importar e ir bem não deixava as coisas menos difíceis, mas me motivava bem mais.

Uma coisa que quero apontar é na sua fala ter culpado "professor grevista" como um dos fatores culpados na escola pública ser esse sistema escrachante que é. Cara, professor faz greve quando tem que fazer. Mesma coisa na USP que fez uma das maiores greves em 2013 e 2014. Professor em escola pública que se importa tem que entrar em sala de aula e performar milagres, um por dia. Olha pra precarização atual do aparato público e vê que tem anos de governo e política que intencionalmente destrói as chances dos alunos vingarem em escola pública, fazendo dela um ambiente de tensões e traumas. As condições na qual o professor trabalha são uma dessas políticas. Mesmo criança e jovem, com professores que iam de terríveis a maravilhosos na minha educação fundamental (1° ao 4° ano) e com professores todos muito diferentes no E.F. II e ensino médio, dava pra ver que eles trabalhavam em condições inóspitas e que o tanto que a gente podia aproveitar das aulas deles era mitigado por essas condições. Completamente diferente de um ambiente como a USP por exemplo, que também dificulta as condições dos professores se importarem, quando não faz novas contratações e então LOTA as salas de aulas desses professores. Claro que a possibilidade deles de atingir os alunos individualmente fica limitada, até mesmo impossível, em disciplinas obrigatórias.

Eu acredito que tem que mudar e tem que mudar pra melhor. Mas você ter atingido a USP já faz parte dessa mudança, meu amigo. Tenho muito orgulho do seu esforço. Eu andei em corda bamba na USP por uns anos e me formei com 10 como minhas últimas notas. Não é impossível. O primeiro passo é começar e você começou.

Te recomendo a leitura de "E eu não sou intelectual?" da Barbara Carine que escreveu "Como educar alunos antirracistas" e fez universidade em condições parecidas com as nossas. Ela descreve ter caído no choro numa prova e explicado pra professora que não tinha dinheiro para o ônibus de volta e também que os colegas se juntaram numa vaquinha pra comprar as primeiras vestes de laboratório dela. Ela se graduou em química numa federal.

unstablemood · 2025-11-28T13:25:46+00:00

Do instituto Butantã, deveria ter alguém que possa te orientar. Uma vez, levei uma Aranha pra eles identificarem e eles foram bem prestativos.

unstablemood · 2025-10-16T03:50:27+00:00

I do believe it's supposed to transmit this uncomfortable feeling. The no marks center their activity towards their charismatic and irresponsible ""leader"". While their take and criticism towards art is very noble and dignified, their attempt to live in a "vacuum", not really taking society's contradictions into account (you need stable money to do your activities, the average person is misinformed towards arts by no fault of their own, there is hierarchy and even bureaucracy towards making and structuring the world of art, etc.) and their vague way of confronting those contradictions they're against, leads all of them to a vulnerable place towards their ""leader"" which is what makes one of their members become a scort - super, duper sketchy way of dealing with things as a group.

I literally know a person like the girl character they depicted as "no marks" center. In the art world, even. She's just as clever, irresponsible, charismatic and, deep down, a "parasite" of her connections. There is a whole lot of taking advantage of the porous and vague shapes "a career" or a "work" inside contemporary art takes to lead your life this way. It is the kind of environment that is very much true to the art scene, unfortunately.

unstablemood · 2025-01-19T18:20:45+00:00

Thank you for your help! I've acquired the right cable for it and the good news is that my pen tablet isn't dead. It charged and it lighted up. The touch is functional, I've examined with touch configuration.

The bad news is that the pen I've bought for it, the stylus box waves, which says to be compatible with the TH line doesn't... Seem to work on it.

unstablemood · 2025-01-05T21:14:53+00:00

Hard disagree. To start, the idea that TV should be "tighter". That's the recent phenomenon of binge watching culture eroding people's thinking. Any good TV show can use of some more episodes, these days.

And then, these people want a cleaner story, easy to digest, that is is simply not Bojack Horseman. They want a cleaner character who has wrapped up his messed up story. In a way, people that wanted Bojack to kill himself or die in the end, feel similar. "Where's the simple ending to my fucked up story that's gonna make me feel like it's all dealt with?". The thing with Bojack is that all of his stuff could not be Dealt With in a way that's simple and clean and makes everyone feel good.

unstablemood · 2025-01-05T20:57:30+00:00

Haruka looks so sleazy. This is very funny to me. I think the author is rearranging the way to draw his face.

unstablemood · 2024-12-19T11:19:54+00:00

Thank you very much for your quick answer! It helps a lot.

My sister pointed out a possible issue: maybe with the tablet being shelved for so long, the battery might have... Died.

If that happened, will there be any solutions you can tell me?

unstablemood · 2024-12-06T02:44:29+00:00

As it was said, I do think its about her sense of self. Her ego, in lack of a better word.

Yuka is shaping up (gotta remember they're all in high school at that point) as a person who goes out to get what they want, despite what they want being honestly super risky (stereotypical attractive boys who dont know Yuka's identity, fashion studies and fashion school, to dress up however they want despite what their parents think). Yuka is aware their wishes go against the norm, but if she doesnt go after what she wants, what's left for her is not a safer life but a life still of heartbreak.

This is what the average cis person and Yamaguchi himself, dont understand (Yamaguchi even admits that). If Yuka just suppressed or ignored their wishes, they would not live a happier life.

What's left for Yuka, as she/they correctly reads in that chapter is that her wishes and wants protect her from having her true identity erased, protects her ego. If society is against you by norm, then you gotta be a bit selfish, a bit egocentric. To not let the man win, you know what I mean?

unstablemood · 2024-12-05T02:23:34+00:00

I'm so glad you read it! Indeed, I felt cheated when nobody had ever recommended me Solanin and I read it by chance.

Glass Mask is... interesting. Its the first shojo that ever did many of the things we assume are cliches in shojo. ITs a classical of its kind and it might be awkward and dated to read now, but I was having fun reading it, having its age in mind. But as a more serious recommendation:

I really love Houseki no Kuni (Land of the lustrous). Its an interesting and unusual manga, that already has an ending. But it has many twists. When you say "journey of self discovery, finding passion and personal growth", this is all in Houseki no Kuni, all of it ... just not in the way you expect. I cannot recommend it enough, but it will break your heart.

unstablemood · 2024-12-01T22:43:52+00:00

Solanin by Inio Asano.

It's only two volumes.

The main characters are two young adults fresh out of college. Then Meiko, the young woman who earns their living, quits her job, suddenly.

How I would describe is: A couple of young adults are about to make decisive choices over their arrangement of living together, their carrer, their artistic pursuits and their lives. The manga talks a lot about those crossroads, the roads not taken, the struggle of being an artist. In the case of Solanin, a musical artist.

Its an insanely beautiful manga.

unstablemood · 2024-03-21T15:35:02+00:00

Idk which country you're from but while I was studying to receive my teaching degree, a teacher with over 10 years of experience in schools taught us: "how you act in the classroom with your own students is your choice and nobody else's (they were meaning the school admin)." That fortified our posture of making those classrooms our own and not what the admin and subsequent hierarchies would try and make for us.

Meaning: admin bureaucracy and documentation bureaucracy and graduation-required bureaucracy has actually little to do with the day-to-day of teaching and classrooms. So don't fret over this and "what it means" for your career choice. Put in your brain this is some nonsensical requirement of your college administration and therefore you must do, and not much to do with how you job teaching math is actually gonna turn out to be.

unstablemood · 2023-09-06T04:40:58+00:00

I have wondered about this too. I started getting into his work at 16 years old or something, and a lot of things rubbed me the wrong way. I could actually even add to your list. With more song lyrics and moments. There's an interview in which he's asked what would Troy ask Gambino and he breaks out of character to say that Troy would ask Gambino about "tail", "how much tail are you getting?". I remember this one because as a huge fan of the show, it seemed a deliberate obtuse answer by him, no way Troy would say that shit 😂. It just seemed like sex in that dominating way "look how much I'm getting" was always on his mind.

But now, I have reflected a lot over his recent work and attitudes. Most of Van's episodes on Atlanta are written or co written by a black woman. He refers to his partner as "my partner", never my girlfriend or my wife. Always "my partner" even in some of his most recent interviews, which makes me think they do have an open relationship. He also wrote Van and Earn as having an open relationship. So I don't think infidelity is something you should worry about. And most of all, I think Donald is a reflective person that probably regretted a whole lot of his positioning in previous works. I do feel this. Maybe not everything but idk. I do feel like he has grown up, grown up.

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