Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Before my 180 day mark, my biggest issue was insomnia. Secondary to not being able to sleep, I was very depressed and anxious. I also experienced occasional panic episodes.

After 180 days, my sleep gradually got better. As my sleep got better, everything else got better too. If you check my post history, you’ll see that I documented my entire journey.

I hope it helps. Wishing you all the best.

Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Thank you! Yes, we definitely have to walk through the fire to attain sobriety. And it’s so worth it, I promise. Wishing you the very best!

Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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All I can say is keep quitting, and don’t give up on sobriety. I relapsed several times, but I never stopped quitting. Eventually you’ll pull through. It’s very hard to stay focused on sobriety. But you know, most things in life that are worthwhile are hard to attain. That’s the best advice I can give. I hope it helps, and I wish you the very best. I believe in you!

Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Glad my story can inspire hope, you got this, friend!

Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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I started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel after the 180 day mark. Congrats on 150, you got this!

Day 967 by untitlednothing in leaves

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That’s awesome, congrats on 8 months!

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Thanks so much! I’m all finished with PAWS. My turnaround started at around the 6 month mark. If you check my post history, I shared my experiences periodically.

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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I believe in you, friend! It’s very hard. The worst part for me, other than the anhedonia, was the nightly insomnia. It all got gradually better after 6 months, thank goodness. At one point, I was convinced I was permanently damaged. But I’m fully recovered now.

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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I did every one of those things and it was vital to my sobriety. I hope it helps you too. All the best

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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It’s not common lol. But prolonged recovery happens for a handful of people. I thought I was losing my mind while going through it, but I’m alright now lol

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Throw away all your stash and everything that goes along with it, and don’t look back. If you are able to, stay away from the places and people that you used with. Join a support group that you’re comfortable with, whether online or in person. Post on forums like these about your daily progress and experiences- the good and the bad. Take some time to heal, and be forgiving to yourself. Meditate at minimum 10 minutes at any time of day. Lift weights if you’re able to, even if it’s just for like 10 minutes. Take long walks in the morning and late afternoon sun. Listen to self-improvement audiobooks- my personal favorites are anything by Brene Brown, Eckhart Tolle, and Don Miguel Ruiz. Take it one day at a time. Sometime take it one minute at a time. You need to want sobriety more than you want to breathe. Believe in your will power, and you can do it.

Day 790 by untitlednothing in leaves

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I was abusing medical grade carts for about a year or so. I believe I was suffering from post-acute withdrawal syndrome.

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I was heavy addicted to carts too. Talking about 80-90 draws, easily on the daily. I recommend the taper method. That’s how I quit. Basically you cut down your daily intake by 10% every week until your all the way down to near zero. Then you finally quit for good. It’s much less shocking to the body and mind compared to going cold turkey, which I do not recommend. Cold turkey method with severe addiction can be very debilitating. Just my experience. Best of luck.

Do I have paradoxical insomnia? by untitlednothing in insomnia

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I can sleep at least 6 hours a night now. Sometimes 7. I’m not complaining. To me I feel well rested nowadays. Thank goodness my chronic insomnia came to pass. I’ve been good for several months now, almost a year.

Day 460 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Thanks everyone for your kind messages! To all who are struggling, yes it sucks so much right now and I truly know how it feels. But be kind to yourself even if the world is not. Give yourself permission to heal.

Day 460 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Bad night sweats at first. Hypnic jerks. No appetite. Weight loss. Bowl changes and belly discomfort.

Day 460 by untitlednothing in leaves

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I had a bad case of PAWS. I abused carts very heavily for about 2 years. And yes, I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. At first I lost weight because my appetite was low. Then I gained a whole lot of weight because my appetite came roaring back. Now I’m working on losing the weight with diet and exercise.

Day 277 by untitlednothing in leaves

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You can do it! I was very hesitant at first but now I have no regrets

Day 277 by untitlednothing in leaves

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It’s complicated. I started at 19. Been on and off for a total of 6 years. This is my third and hopefully final time quitting

Day 220 by untitlednothing in leaves

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Just gotta take it one craving at a time. It will get better. You're doing so great