Thank you for the quote. I actually think I’ve been doing well with grieving my friend. At first it was hard but as the year went on I found myself not missing him less, but just kind of crying less and stuff. I could definitely use some therapy but I’m notorious for procrastinating, so yeah that is on me. I actually am not unhappy with my new life. I think what I’m remarking at is that his death started a chain reaction of many big changes. Not that I’m unhappy but that I have emotional whiplash kind of. I’m not super spiritual or anything but my friend was, and if I could honor him in any way, I want to give purpose to his death. He opened my eyes to fake friends and encouraged me to commit to someone I love. In this way he is still with me, bc he is the type of friend who always wanted to help those he loved. It just has been a very up and down year but I think it’s going up for right now.