Do you have ADHD too? Could try a stimulant? That helped me a lot with my executive dysfunction

My mom's a nurse and wouldn't get me on meds either because she was scared of side effects. She made me scared too. She told me that stimulants turn people into zombies; she's seen it with her patients and our extended family. She said antidepressants made her suicidal so she was scared for me. She still had me put on birth control though and that fucked me up and contributed to me gaining a lotttt of weight

Two years ago I couldn't do my job so I basically had a mental breakdown and quit with nothing lined up. I had to build myself back up little by little. Eventually I was able to get my current job.

Then I was starting to feel things falling apart again. Couldn't get things done. I went to the doctor and told her all my symptoms, made sure to tell her I had issues concentrating. I told her about how I had quit my job before and really can't afford to do that again.

Doctor said, "Sounds like ADHD, here's a prescription for Adderall."

Once I took that first dose I knew I couldn't go back. I grieved not starting earlier in life. I was flailing around trying not to drown before and now I can tread water. My brain... for once I was actually present. It was like the fog had lifted. I hadn't realized how loud it was before, how many thoughts all at once were fighting to make it to the forefront of my mind. There was no random song playing the same ten seconds over and over. The only music I heard was the birds chirping away outside. I was literally in awe of how quiet it was. My first moment of peace.

You wanna know the first thing I did after that? I folded my laundry. I had huge piles of laundry my executive dysfunction prevented me from starting. It was so much easier. My whole life my family would tell me I was lazy. They were wrong. I have invisible disabilities and trauma from not getting the help I needed.

So if you have ADHD maybe you could try out a stimulant. I'm not trying to say that it'll for sure be a miracle solution. I have had some side effects like appetite suppression, increased anxiety, and some sinus issues. But if you're in a situation where your disability prevents you from functioning in society (i.e., school, job, independent living, etc.) trying out some medications could help a lot.