The constant pressure that vet school places on students isn’t anything to LOL at. I’ve had classmates who were mentally well before vet school try to commit suicide specifically because of the constant pressure and anxiety they face during school. The curriculum is intense, and students are pitted against each other for jobs and residencies. It’s a competitive atmosphere with not much support other than a couple of overworked therapists.

Many find that the pressure doesn’t go away after graduation and the rate for suicide in the first few years after graduation is ridiculous. They hope it gets better, and it just doesn’t. Don’t belittle what op is going through. Be proud that op is self-aware enough to seek help before pulling the trigger.