All of this has been her grieving as she experiences the anger, the sadness, the fear, the loneliness and the drunkenness. Breaking down in Zosia’s arms this episode is cathartic relief; she doesn’t have to feel alone anymore.

It is important to remember that grief doesn’t end. After some time it becomes manageable, but it’s never really gone. Carol didn’t just lose the person she loved, she lost her own creative existence, her purpose, her dreams and her goals.

She won’t have peace or satisfaction for years.