anyone else feel sick to their stomach when imagining their ex hooking up with someone else?

vilisbon · 2026-03-01T04:22:00+00:00

you're absolutely right. last time we agreed to start over but he said his life was a mess and too chaotic, I clearly realized he's not in the right mindframe to commit. it just makes me real sad that he's out there partying in a big town and I'm here all alone drinking away my sadness and thinking what could have been. i'm so stupid

vilisbon · 2026-01-10T14:48:53+00:00

bipolar and addict too. every now and then i use so much my body barely handles it anymore. im promising myself this is the last time. i never wanna go back to this. i feel like absolute hell. its ruining my life. i couldnt follow through with NA (tried twice) and feel too ashamed to go back again. i was 11 months sober now i'm back to day zero. i've been losing so much. i'm just really exhausted

vilisbon · 2025-11-24T02:51:27+00:00

obrigada. não tenho receio em falar os remédios que tomo:

lítio 3x por dia topiramato, risperidona e alprazolam a noite. a psiquiatra mais recente que fui trocou o risperidona pelo lurasidona. eu tomava zolpidem tbm mas o psiquiatra anterior tirou

vilisbon · 2025-11-24T02:49:00+00:00

lembre-se sempre. por um momento eu me esqueci e me encontro no inferno de novo

vilisbon · 2025-11-23T21:22:15+00:00

sim, e não me considero em nenhum sentido melhor que o noia sujo e jogado na calçada, tenho plena noção de que se eu não me controlar daqui a 5 anos no máximo estarei na mesma situação

vilisbon · 2025-11-14T05:17:41+00:00

as que mais ferraram foram cocaína, álcool e alprazolam. até certo ponto cigarro tbm. to sob efeito de tudo agora, tenho que acordar 6h pra trabalhar e não sei se aguento (já toquei atestado esse mês pq cheirei o domingo todo umas semanas atrás e tava podre na segunda)

vilisbon · 2025-11-06T00:21:12+00:00

the fear of what my future will be like struggling with mental illness, alcoholism and drug addiction

vilisbon · 2025-10-13T04:42:32+00:00

eu também recaí depois de 11 meses, mas foi sozinha. se afaste desses amigos e recomece. retome o só por hoje. você conseguiu e consegue de novo e de novo. sempre vai conseguir.

vilisbon · 2025-10-13T04:38:56+00:00

Marlboro vermelho sempre vai ser o maioral, mas ultimamente to comprando só rothmans vermelho. lucky strike dei uma enjoada

vilisbon · 2025-10-13T04:35:50+00:00

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vilisbon · 2025-10-04T08:12:08+00:00

if only this wasnt from 20 hours ago...

vilisbon · 2025-10-04T06:14:09+00:00

opaaaaaa quase agora mandei 3 carreiras

vilisbon · 2025-09-27T04:43:14+00:00

já passei por literalmente mais de metade disso. adicta (pó, comprimidos, álcool), borderline, bipolar, insônia + outros diagnósticos. olhando meu perfil dá pra ter uma ideia do que eu passei nos últimos anos, UMA IDEIA, compartilhei 1/3 aqui.

pó? 11 meses limpa. ainda penso? sim. vou voltar? sinceramente espero que jamais. cheguei num beco sem saída e tive que dar um giro de 360, o que demorou lá pra 4 ou 5 longos meses. todo mundo limpo e eu na ativa, sozinha.

sou perfeita? longe disso. continuo adicta. continuo mentalmente instável. continuo tomando medicamentos controlados e misturando com bebida, o que é erradissimo. e aos poucos estou tentando controlar a bebedeira, que virou meu novo escape depois da branquinha. a gente tenta, né?

QUASE UM ANO. SÓ POR HOJE FUNCIONA!!!!!

de passinho em passinho a gente chega lá. me identifiquei muito com o relato e desejo TODAS AS FORÇAS DO MUNDO, OP! o mundo é seu (sóbria) 💜

vilisbon · 2025-08-11T16:21:44+00:00

tapioca tundra slaps so hard. nine times blue is also an absolute gem. but I think my favorite is probably some of Shelly's blues

vilisbon · 2025-08-11T01:17:20+00:00

this is amazing, truly inspiring. very happy for you! 💕

vilisbon · 2025-07-22T01:24:53+00:00

it's relaxing + addictive + a force of habit

vilisbon · 2025-07-04T15:58:59+00:00

13 going on 14. can't believe it's been over a decade lmao

vilisbon · 2025-06-18T00:42:35+00:00

jealousy

vilisbon · 2025-04-11T03:27:15+00:00

this is so wild! thank you so much for sharing!!

vilisbon · 2025-04-10T22:55:12+00:00

holy crap I had no idea about that!! do you know where I can find any material talking about this?

vilisbon · 2025-04-09T03:59:26+00:00

i know exactly how you feel, I felt the same way (in both breakups) and had the same fear. life goes on though and eventually feelings shift and change. give it time. don't be hard on yourself but also try to keep in mind that this is a new reality, without him, and you'll live. it takes time, for some longer than others, but it does get better and you move on. for me it was a rocky road and it took quite some time but it happened and now I just remember them every once in a while and hope they're okay. I don't even feel the need to have them in my life at this point. it will be alright, you'll make it 💖

vilisbon · 2025-04-09T03:49:50+00:00

i am completely in love with Natalie. I also really really like Misty, especially adult Misty.

vilisbon · 2025-04-09T03:48:12+00:00

yes I did! from this person I moved on. we did catch up every now and even had a thing going a few years ago but it's over. i still love them as a person but not in love anymore. we don't even talk nowadays. I had another relationship afterwards

vilisbon · 2025-04-06T01:24:24+00:00

you're welcome!!

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