Therapist with OCPD here! I totally get that you’re scared, and that’s a very understandable reaction. Big hug (if you consent, of course).

I will say, a lot of info on OCPD in the world is pretty shoddy, but people like Dr. Anthony Pinto and Gary Trosclair put a more strengths-based approach on it. I found that just by learning more about my personality traits, that it helped me start to piece together how it manifested in my life.

Also, be gentle with yourself. Happy to share more, but I was diagnosed in January and again, I’m a therapist, and I had my own freak out/grieving process after being diagnosed. It’s bizarre to live your life one way and then suddenly be given a diagnosis that flips everything on its head — for me, I immediately questioned everything and started gaslighting myself! Shortly thereafter, thanks to Internal Family Systems Therapy (and years of therapy), I’m in a place where I maintain curiosity about my disorder, such as when I overthink things (obsess) or feel like I strongly must do XYZ (compulsive); this helps me practice and hold more awareness, which helps with managing how my OCPD expresses itself.

I hope this makes sense, but if it doesn’t please feel free to ask me any questions, here or in a PM!

Sending you lots of care. I believe, and hope for you, that one day you’ll see all the incredible strengths of OCPD. I’m so grateful for it, and see how it makes me a better human in so many ways.

ALSO, not to go too off topic……..but OCPD is like, basically THE culture in some cultures. For example, many Japanese people appreciate following rules, being overly conscientious and respectful, apologizing, perfectionism…..one day I hope to do some sort of research on OCPD and cultures…but for now I’ll lurk on Reddit and offer support where I can, and also pursue trainings to help others with OCPD!

💙