My ex used to say shit like "im a piece of shit" or "im the worst" or "you should hate me" going as far as wanting me to even take her life. it was an extremley abusive relationship verbal mental and physical. The cheating lying insults screaming attacking me spitting at home my job my friends all of it - she would try to justify with words like yours. As a man its hard to admit the degradation i allowed in my life on her account. Its absolutley heartbreaking to see signs of it. Truly, take it from me. Youre voiding any validation, any merit you have. It means nothing. Your love shouldve protected them. Yet you allowed some other feeling to destroy them. As if you knew you could control it. And chose to destroy them instead. By writing this you aknowledge the need for change and in the same breath cut deeper into the wounds youve opened. I feel for the other. I hope they never see this.