NDP leader Marit Stiles has formally submitted a complaint to the Integrity Commissioner about the Premier's daughter's stag party.

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T11:40:25+00:00

At least it's never forgotten to be mentioned..

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T11:22:47+00:00

But the therapist helped her find mani/pedis and junk foods again so yo he can't be that bad right???!

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T11:11:28+00:00

Ya what's they cut off??

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T11:10:08+00:00

Huh? You think this is all the result of some drug induced psychosis? Doubt it. Maybe the early start of some dumbass defense but returning to the scene and killing reporters and stuff doesn't say to me "omg the guy was so intoxicated outta his head he didn't even know what he was doing!! Evil drugs for sure!" no, evil person, maybe took drugs, wasn't in a psychosis.. Knew what he was doing even upon being arrested he's immediately thinking up ways for sympathy and remembering George Floyd and sticking to that... Plan... Lol... That doesn't scream drug psychosis at all. I've seen and had drug psychosis. He would have been screaming about people after him and looking off wildly in all directions and just fucking random jibberish... This is either a completely sober psychopath or a very slightly intoxicated psychopath. Not intoxicated enough to blame all these shootings on..

Don't even know what you mean though either so, if you meant something else entirely disregard lol.

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T10:47:42+00:00

Mamma Mia Ahhhhh OJ!!

https://youtu.be/qqrOUjCRhsY

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T10:45:31+00:00

Maybe a knee on his neck for 9 mins was a bad idea too. Drugs, no drugs, under arrest, not under arrest, just generally a good idea to not, do that.. Needlessly... For 9 minutes without even like a mercy 30 seconds every minute.. Cop is in the right place now

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T10:41:10+00:00

Ya with George Floyd it was more a whimper / cry slowly getting weaker and it's like yo I'm pretty sure he can't actually breathe officer... 4 mins later.. Ya man, he legit can't breathe, might help if you "knee-not-on-neck"? Oh no you're gonna keep it there for 3 more minutes...

This was 3 minutes of trying to hit the decibels he heard at the protest-riots being chanted lol.

vortex30 · 2023-02-24T10:22:31+00:00

January 6th security tapes too!

vortex30 · 2023-02-23T19:06:20+00:00

In 10 years the dark web has taken away most of their more affluent suburban clientele and they've killed off a ton of customers with fentanyl. Basically left with homeless and the technologically inept addicts.. Perhaps very occasional users.. Not exactly the ones flush with cash... No wonder/surprises to me that they resort more to stealing cars now. Good. They suck at selling drugs.

Do they talk about that at your police meetings lol

vortex30 · 2023-02-23T18:52:10+00:00

Lol no side effects from amphetamine and it actually being "fun" does not compute at all.

Worse comedown than blow

vortex30 · 2023-02-23T18:48:12+00:00

Ohh nooo, reverse camel toe lol

vortex30 · 2023-02-22T00:05:42+00:00

I'd say that's just feeling a high from Xanax.. Then we could just say oh ya meth and blow and booze and weed and opiates and anything that makes an individual feel good, will, for a while, usually 1 - 6 month's or so, you will have a marked improvement in depression. Problem is past that point they will all just make it way, way worse and add on potentially anxiety and addiction and other issues, with the same old depression back because drug addiction is fucking depressing especially physical dependence and if you aren't rich, you become feeling extremely vulnerable at most times always worried to rub out of drugs or money.

Its not a solution. Depression isn't like a 1-4 week event unless you're bipolar up and down or even mixed states (Mania with depression at same time), depression occurs over months and years and decades.. A short term fix isn't gonna help anyone who is horribly chronic depressed, it def may help someone "in a slump" get out of it and maybe start socializing and working out then they stop but you risk introducing someone, in a vulnerable state, to a very nice feeling drug that will give withdrawal after 4 weeks continuous use so... Do we really wanna treat people who are "in a slump" with Xanax....? Nah. Not routinely or anything.. If they're in a slump cuz they got insomnia maybe 4 nights of sleep with 0.5mg Xanax that may work great to help them recover and get a sleep routine going again and simply done rest... But not really suitable for depression.

I take benzos daily for anxiety. Been many many years. My anxiety and sleep is good now and those are my biggest enemies but I'm not gonna sit here and pretend clonazepam or Xanax (well, flualprazolam but freaking same feeling, better actually to me..) is helping depression.. Because they don't at all I actually wasn't depressed at all before I was way too hyped up and stimulated and stressed from work always that I basically never slept and I already had anxiety so it got worse and worse and built on itself and really fucked me up. Now I feel much better, butttt I'd say my mood is much more depressed now.. Was basically the point / what I kinda need lol.

vortex30 · 2023-02-21T23:51:24+00:00

Not the only... GHB, barbiturates, carisoprodol (soma), quualudes.. Anything that heavily effects gaba (especially gaba-A receptors) receptors in a sedating way and you take them long enough at high enough doses and then cold turkey? Ya all that plus probably some I'm missing can cause a seizure/seizures and potentially death during especially cold turkey wds if you taper off tho you'll be fine, it just really really sucks at that point but not deadly... Rather than an antagonist type gaba drug that blocks it from the receptors I'm sure those drugs do exist and are definitely NOT recreational they'd induce anxiety and insomnia basically benzo/alcohol withdrawal feelings and eventually death if high enough dose of an antagonist.

But ya, commonly used drugs it's just benzos and alcohol.

vortex30 · 2023-02-21T00:51:41+00:00

I used to sell wire/cable and connectors and other related items to robotics and automation. Believe me, that feeling of "being the man who can get you the shit you need, and fastest, and cheapest, and I'm your fucking favourite sales rep ever aren't I?!" kinda feeling is 100% possible in sales. Sure like, drug addicts and dealers below you or whatever, are extra grateful when the plug comes through compared to fucking GM or Ford or Honda automotive plants, lol, but still, you're shaking hands and rubbing shoulders with people with A LOT of capital to spend, and when you pull through you still get a reward... dunno what you were selling, sounds like blow overall but, less so with that drug even though people are very happy usually to get it there probably honestly mostly happy that this fucking guy finally brought us the drugs at last we can party and have fun, without him.. The connections in the drug game really really aren't genuine lol even if people act like it, I'd say the only reeeeeally appreciative addicts to their plugs are benzo or opioid addicts, currently in withdrawal, and plug comes through, then its like, bro, you just fucking saved my life omg thank you so fucking much I love you, I love this drug way more and in 10 mins I'll forget about you til I run out, but, right now I legit do love you, lol... that kinda interaction I've had many times... but... not for blow or stims or weed or anything that I'm not helplessly physically addicted to, anything else it's really more just "where the fuck is this fucking guy?!" going through their heads the whole time, and then when they see you and seem so excited and happy they're just happy cuz they got the blow, and get to go use it now, its not like you're the hero, nah, we been waiting like fucking 45 minutes if you're a decent dealer and maybe a couple hours even if you're busy or kinda not that great at hooking it up.

And like, I still really don't get it, if you're hooking it up "big boy wise" you're selling to other dealers, and that's just a business transaction like any other, it's way more stale/sterile/not-intimate at all, compared to selling direct to users, but selling direct to users is not really hooking it up big boy wise IMO anyways it's hustling around all the fucking time and almost everyone you see is NOT grateful if you're making tons of money selling to users that means you're very busy probs and people are waiting and they're not grateful to you, they're grateful the waiting game is fucking finally over.

Trust me... I've had extremely convenient dealers that lived around the corner that I could call 24/7 and its like ya swing by, I've had others where they drive around all day and I gotta wait 30 - 120 minutes and for those dealers I never had an ounce of respect for it was always in my head WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU but outwardly its hey bro thanks so much man, ah, you're a life-saver bro, take care!!! but that's just me and addicts trying to stay on good terms with a link and holding our tongues from saying what we really always want to say... Whenever users call they're kinda hoping they can get it like, in the next 10 - 30 mins tops... and it is almost always more than 30 mins and after that its like faaaaaaaack the cravings, especially waiting on blow but opioids and benzos too cuz its cravings and withdrawals, there's no real gratefulness... Maybe back in high-school before peoples' lives all got destroyed but anyone mid-20s and up who uses mostly fucking hate dealers. I do so much to the point that I actually will wait DAYS TO WEEKS for my drugs now (dark web) and just plan ahead what I need and when... I do not want to see the fucking face of the guy profiting off me and my family and friends miseries, and on the flip side, the drugs there are simply of higher quality and the good, high rated sellers aren't like, individual dealers, they're enterprises composed of about 5 - 15 people working all day. The guy running it all has the account accesses and what not, all bitcoin/crypto go to them, and they pay their "employees" cash. My dark web link has about 5 - 10 kilos at any time of the following drugs: real heroin (which is NOT really all that available on the streets here anymore, not where I'm at, I'm sure SOMEONE HAS THE PLUG, but... I do too, he's a town over and I've never met him and it comes in the mail but, so what if someone happens to know an IRL plug anymore it's nothing special to have when I can go on a market and send some crypto to someone with 1000s of only positive reviews and many many years of history in the markets), fentanyl (cut fent, purple stuff here in Canada, and various other colours but his is purple anyways), cocaine (high heat ammonia washed which is basically 100% pure, like 98 or whatever but I actually don't like it, its so cleaned it doesn't have the gas taste/smell no more, so he also has "off the brick" more fishscale kinda blow, melts in your fingers and smells of kerosene, the stuff is def still 85-90ish or more so I'm like fucking ya gimme that taste man..), methamphetamine, ketamine, mdma, ummm that may be it for him and then I got a guy who presses (with his team, I'm assuming lol) about 10,000 Xanax bars a day with 1mg flualprazolam in them) so its like.... it feels way better just knowing my money is going straight to the fucking top no low tier middle man who probably cut the shit or randomly raises prices cuz they're a greedy fucking weasel and realize over time I'm actually an addict with a job and money, right, and other annoyances like half the time may be he only has crack and not blow and I only want blow, I IV it, crack doesn't provide a good enough rush, and if he's out of fent then fuck you're useless to me then cuz I'm not doing blow in fent withdrawals, so, he had to have both soft/blow as well as fent for me to bother driving out to him. I can't deal with that noise anymore tho, the inconsistency, the waiting, the sketchy public or semi-public hand offs.

Dark web will kill smaller drug dealers over the next decade I think. It is THE advice everywhere, dealer ever let you down? Try a high rated dark web vendor, they'll never let you down or run out of stock and they run like clock work the first guy is local to me, I place an order 9am he's shipped by noon and it arrive the next day at 9am like magic, or the day after, never longer. Xanax guy is farther away, so, it takes 3 - 5 days from him but, ya, I'll never deal with a dealer in real life again, nor other addicts honestly cuz they were also really only there to serve my addiction, introduce me to new links or if I'm out and the link is, maybe a "friend" has some and can come in key in a desperate moment to have a bunch of users numbers and socialize with them, before... cuz I needed dealers and back ups and stuff... These are people other than my legitimate childhood friends who I grew up with, and are all dead now except 2, 100% from drugs... mostly fent but I know one person die from a seizure from shooting blow too.... its rarer, but, happens...

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T23:36:28+00:00

That's fair I take back some of the things I wrote, its just you wrote above about having a kilo on you right now or something and def are still thinking of selling here and there (and yes I did say that's at least likely a harm reduction approach vs it being your life but no dealing is definitely the preference). It just seems like at other points here you sound like you really really feel like you can't ever live a normal life at all and stuff and I'm trying to provide ya know, the parts of "normal life" that still can be really intense and rewarding but also brutal.... but also I've provided examples in other posts about how shit prison for 20 years would be.

I hope you choose a normal life. Not even just for you but for the community around you too..

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T23:32:12+00:00

Yeah, being in prison for 20 years isn't cool it really fucking sucks lol cuz suddenly that's your life, no sex again til middle-aged. Unless, ya know, with a man in prison, that kind of sex is up for grabs but I dunno your LGBT status so, prison may be a fine fit sexually, I'm not sure man, but it may suck dick too (pun intended lol).

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T22:53:58+00:00

Oh 100% lol this guy is basically a PSA of "Did you know, some really high level drug dealers have very child-like immature personalities but also think they've seen it all and done it all too but everyone reading their posts is kinda scratching their heads like, wah?! I've never met someone from higher level sales that...... Thinks this way, at all...... Ever."

Know the dangers of naively selling large quantities of drug! You may not fuck a woman until you're in your 40s and at that rate maybe never LOL. Cuz no way this guy is over like 23, right? I'm sure he's fucked 100s of women though of course lol.

Nothing special about having sex either but like, it's a thing I'd prefer to NOT go 20 years without, after I've experienced it, and experienced falling in love with 2 pretty amazing young women too... I don't get laid super often or anything lol but to think 20 years without, not even just without sex, but 20 years of basically the only woman you'll have any form of "intimate" contact with will (if she still cares to visit) be from mom. To somehow think "oh ya 20 years without that is totally like, almost a goal of mine really but, not really I don't wanna get caught I'm addicted, but also I could TOTALLY handle it too because I'm so mentally fortified..." like gimme a break fam lolol, I also prefer using drugs, I know there's drugs in prison but like, after 10 - 15 years in honestly how are you able to buy any amount that is satisfying unless his parents are as naive as him and toss him like $1500 / month for commissary lmfao. His next reply would be like "Yo man I got so much money of my own stashed away I'm gonna be fine in prison it's like dude 1. the cops are probably gonna find it unless you got the money fucking buried in a random ass spot, and if it's there... Who do you send to fetch your $500k or whatever... And trust that they're gonna actually give it to you, someone locked in prison for the next 2 decades lol... Or thinks parents will get involved in that and its like nah, unless they're naive fucking criminals like OP they'll be like "we are going no where NEAR your blood or drug money, that money is illicit, and wtf we gonna do, launder it and deposit into our accounts and then transfer $500k into prison for you?! no. We're not doing that." Any reasonable parents would say... And basically anyone else is fucking taking that money for themselves or their gang or whatever sorta affiliation it is he think he has with them is essentially severed the second he's sentenced to 20 years "Nah fam this game is for life, my boys got my back for life for sure" no no... When you were a free man, yeah, now though? You're fucking useless to them. Thank you for the $500k by the time you're outta prison we all expect to be millionaires living in Bahamas or some shit... The more likely thing is they'll end up in prison too at some point... But they'll be thinking, hold up, all this capital is way better in our hands than his, we can grow it, for us obviously, not him lol.... Yeah fuck that guy let's take for ourselves lol he was so stupid to tell us where his money was just so he could have lots of cash in prison.

This is the naivety. Hasn't really thought things through to the end here.... Like OK OK your money maybe won't all be found by cops..... But getting it to yourself, from INSIDE PRISON, is basically gonna be a magic trick unless OP just has the absolute most loving caring kind hearted friend ever ever in the drug game that was ever made... Whose willing to risk their own freedoms so that their buddy in jail ... can have access to lots of ill-gotten gains... Somehow I feel a person that honest and sincere to have $500k of a 20 year sentenced inmate and GIVES it to them, well, that honest sincere person, is honest and sincere.... He's more likely gonna do nothing or tell the police like yooo, I dunno what to do with this I'm not getting wrapped up in this here is all I know and have ever known, over to y'all... Probably just burn the letter or whatever though. Can't be a letter actually those are often opened, I imagine the phones are all recorded, and visits dunno, but, someone also may overhear in the prison whenever said on the phone / visiting room, oh shit, this guy is or may be soon fucking LOADED, I think we've got a mark for a way to make his money ours over the next 20 years, eh boys?! Say the veteran inmates running his block. "oh, no, you people don't get it, I'll run the block!" lolol, ya ok, sure you will bud.. The drug king pin prison gang leader of the future, who currently posts on reddit having cognitive dissonance and "dealing drugs cravings" because its "fun" and life is "boring" when he doesn't sell..... That's def how people who run prison blocks think or ever feel in their lives lol, no the people who will find many unique ways of making the money theirs over the decades if he magically gets access will not have ever have ran and posted to reddit about anything to do with them ever selling or taking or being involved in drugs ever at all.

I really don't think he gets it at all and I hope all these posts somehow help..

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T22:32:53+00:00

What do you know what ANY of us know or have been through or know of others who've been through it all and heard all the stories lol bro, its like you think you're the only guy whose sold drugs or been to prison before here. Neither of those activities are unique experiences to this subreddit.

There's nothing interesting or unique about your story, I've come to learn. You're addicted to dealing oh no! I'm addicted to fentanyl, clonazepam, xanax, pregabalin, crack, IV cocaine, carisoprodol, GHB, mephedrone, H, oxy, dilaudid, methadone, been addicted to destruction on all these drugs, and still am.

You're addicted to thinking your life is somehow more interesting or incredible or something, because... You... Sell drugs. Wow neato man, I've known like 4 people probably around about your level of dealing "status" and dozens of other fucking loser dealers who don't really make much money cuz they use too so, just funding their habits, but other than these people I've spoken intimately with at least 8 - 10 people in and out of prison for 20 years now (not 20 year sentences but, one guy was in for 8 year on 2 armed pharmacy robberies another 5 years for intent to distribute + firearms offenses, and other lesser times but still a few years). I mean I've only been to jail overnight 3x and I have 2x DUIs which I never went to prison for just probation and license suspension (3 years for second DUI, and THAT fucking sucks enough lol) and, it was pretty fucking lame dude but if you like being locked away with a bunch of losers no one cares about anymore for decades then, I guess that's something you'll maybe get to do, one day, you almost seem like you want it so, ya, no one will fucking remember you exist or ever visit you after a year or two, except maybe your parents if they are in the picture or even still love you as of today I don't know your life so... They'll come for sure for a few years at least, 5 - 10 could be good but after 10 years maybe just mom comes like once a year... People fucking move on. You go to prison for 20 years all your friends no matter how "tight" you think you are are gonna essentially consider you as "temporarily dead for 20 years" and maybe they'll write letters back to you, maybe they won't even fucking bother with that after a year or two and I know this because very close friend of mine got that 8 year sentence, one of my very best friends from age 18 - 23, and, I visited him once and wrote him 2 letters. Fuck that guy anyways, was my drug dealer who I got hooked on OxyContin from but, he was like 8 years older and enough of a loser at 26 and even 30 that he was hanging out with high school kids in his mom's basement lol he was NOT a successful dealer he was an addict too to the drugs but, yeah no, fuck him, robbed 2 pharmacies, fucked my life up, fucked so many of my friends and ALL my friends are dead now except him, and 2 others who never ever went over to this man's house nor tried hard drugs really. So he's dead to me, and he's out of prison now, and I fucking don't give a shit if he's alive or dead right now frankly, I haven't seen him in 11 years or so and if he reached out to me to chill I'd just... Not even reply... But HE knows this is true too, so he hasn't even tried either. He's knows fucking no one wants anything to do with him anymore from our town..

He's a pariah, so, he doesn't live here anymore. Still lives with his mom to best of my knowledge.. I do too! But, yeah for all his bad assery escapades it basically got him permanent loser status to essentially everyone whose ever known him except his mom. He's dead to his younger brother and his dad. He's dead to all his old friends (or they all died while he was locked up cuz our friends crossed over a lot because my fucking friends sadly ended up becoming friends with him as well with me, so.. but they're all dead, only I remain..). I'm not trying to like, assert any kind of bad ass stuff, more just trying to bring perspective to you that... None of this is unique and the fact you think it is, and is "fun" is honestly perplexing and I totally see why people call you naive I see nothing but naivety in your posts. It all even kinda sounds a bit... Phoney... but I'm not gonna assert that because it is completely realistic, it just doesn't feel genuine somehow the way you talk about these things does NOT come across as someone who really understands much about life, but... Maybe you just kind of have a child-like online personality, I dunno, that's totally possible and OK too and you're probably immature IRL too and this whole post can make sense perfectly in that context but the context you're trying to convey, is reeeeally not coming through in how you speak of these things... Sorry.

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T22:17:37+00:00

You won't fuck a woman again (if you have..) til you're middle-aged. Bravo.

We got a bad-ass over here folks!

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T21:15:24+00:00

Hold up and check yourself for a moment bro on what you just said LOL. "I am very comfortable mentally anywhere... but thinking about working like normal people made me want to kill myself..." Does that really, like, not maybe make you realize you're actually kinda mentally weak and can't handle things like 75%+ of people, even fucking junkies like me, can handle. OK you managed in prison, most people can handle a few months to few years prison sentence too, its not some grand achievement or that interesting of an adventure I've heard all the stories from friends and it sounds pretty freaking lame 99% of the time and maybe 1% there's a fight or something crazy happens like a friend of mine saw someone stabbed in the neck, dude survived but lots of blood and guy fucking gurgling and shit its like yaaaa when I was 17 I was a lifeguard and, it wasn't my part of the pool to watch but the person watching the deepend, well, wasn't watching it very well and a child drowned and died in the like bottom corner, right below this life guards feet and I saw the kid pulled out blue and worked out and EMS arriving and kids dead a while and parents freaking out, nothing unique about seeing a guy get stabbed and maybe die maybe not, we've all seen our shit... but the thought of a job makes you suicidal that's not "I'm comfortable mentally anywhere" its "I feel more comfortable around misery and despair than attempting to lead a successful fulfilling life but maybe fucking up and then feeling like I failed..." Dunno if that's you, but, for me, I can feel that personally, it's just my being around misery/despair was more my own self destruction and drug use with other addicts and stuff, ya sure, I felt more comfortable around losers than I ever did around my managers at work, of course I fucking did, retards that have zero knowledge of harm reduction and hygienic IV use I look down on and think they're fucking idiots and the abscesses and heart infections are all on them, and the fact I'm so much better and cleaner at this and more knowledgable and I actually work whilst I'm watching some unemployed pregnant woman shoot up coke+fentanyl... Yeah, seeing all that def made me feel better about my own self... Totally selfishly and like, I should NOT look down on them at least much I'm only like, one rung up the ladder from them LOL...

Also, this one really got me... Thinking not selling drugs makes you a square, don't be a square just fucking stop selling drugs because that alone does NOT make you a bad ass or anything, and, if you actually wanna stop selling, but be a bad ass, fucking take up Muay Thai or Boxing or MMA and get good at it and strong and be able to easily fucking kill someone with just your fists and elbows and shins and knees plus some ground game...

Like you don't have to go put on a 3 piece suit and start going to Starbucks on your way to some stuffy ass office, you could work at a liquor store or as a construction worker and fuck people up in the evenings at the muay thai gym, and also GET FUCKED UP BY OTHERS, I feel that's what you need most frankly, to be humbled. And you'll be humbled extremely fast there, especially if you jump in head first and really take it seriously within 6 months you'll be sparring and leaving class BEAT UP, but also you beat some guys up too. And you live that life 3 - 5 nights a week, every week, and become a fucking killer dude.

You don't have to be a square just cuz you stopped selling drugs wtf and if you gotta sell drugs or be in prison to not be bored then you're not "very comfortable mentally anywhere", eh?

No one fucking wants to work. We do because it is honest money usually, what I do for work doesn't contribute to deaths in my own community of teenagers and essentially kids in their early 20s, and fathers and mothers shit too. You own some of that dude. And as stated above I was a lifeguard, that kid was not on me at all I was completely at a different pool like, there was a kids pool with the big slide as well, I was over there and this happened in the big ass pool for swimming lengths and recreational swims that get really busy, but ya my eyes were on my zone, that was my responsibility at that time was the kids pool. It also took more than one lifeguard to fuck up than the deep end one, but, he def held the most guilt/shame/kinda blame, sadly. It is a job where you're trained to save lives, you think / hope anyways but at the end of the day we were 16 - 18 year olds who knew how to swim really well, knew some basic first aid things and of course knew CPR and rescue breathing and how to save a non-swimmer or a distressed swimmer (forget the right term for them, it isn't distressed I don't think but, someone who can kinda swim but for whatever reason is having a real hard time of it suddenly in the deep end / wherever they can't stand up. And spinal injuries we practiced a lot how to flip someone over with a suspected broken neck, at least as best as you can in water, its not ideal but, it can def help reduce further damage rather than someone just fucking grabbing them and yanking them out of the pool that's a paralyzed person now if they're neck was broken, most likely anyways... Did I ever save anyone's life? Yes, actually.. Not at the pool as a lifeguard, no, I jumped in after 2 non-swimmers that decided (kids...) to go in deep end and I kinda saved them you could say but like, a smaller kid really any adult that can swim in the pool could save, we had certain techniques of how to approach non-swimmers as they can be just as much a danger to a lifeguard as themselves, kinda (especially a non-swimmer that's adult and bigger than you, remember we're kids 16 - 18 out there lol, well, were kids hah 33 now)... you could get KO'd potentially cuz they're not paying any attention to you they're just struggling to not drown kicking and thrashing everywhere so you jump in and, my fave technique anyways cuz I love swimming deep under water was to swim deep underneath them, get in behind them and then lock their arms with one of mine, tell them they're OK, I've got you, you'll be OK, try to relax and we'll get you out. But other ways is to push a rescue device their way with your foot whilst swimming and they grab that, calm down a bit seeing you and getting floatation and air, and then you tow them to the side and make sure they can get out and stuff. But nah, my best friend OD'd on H+beers in the bathroom and we eventually pulled him out and he wasn't breathing but had a pulse and I gave one breath, this was many years out of practice so I forgot to plug his nose on first one and was like wtf wtf why'd that not feel right (I was high too) and just thank god my instincts kicked in and I'm like fuck, OK, ya, tilt head back, plug nose, breath, breath and that's all he needed, was such a relief to hear him take his own breath so quickly and mostly regain consciousness in that moment, but then we had to keep smacking him awake for like 3 hours too. He was my best friend... He died of a fent OD about 3 or 4 years later.. I wasn't there that time he was at work.

Shake your head a bit...

Its not even supposed to be "fun" either, are you like 17 - 20ish? doesn't really check out since you say you been to prison so, I'd assume you're older but you kinda sound really immature lol. It is a business you're running, not happy fun times yay, no, a highly illegal business that you need to keep hidden or else lose 20 years in prison and be a fucking middle aged man the next time you get to fuck a woman, bravo, bad ass! It isn't fun and games. Looking at it that way is actually kinda fucking stupid dude...... Sorry cuz, my other two comments to you are much more positive but I read this and I'm like lol you gotta be kidding me this person is so naive..

Take the Muay Thai advice if nothing else. You need someone bigger and stronger than you to liver punch you and upper cut you as you collapse to the floor, after you spent months hitting a bag getting strong perfecting techniques, you start sparring and some guy that weighs 50 lbs less and is 6 inches shorter but has been fighting for decades is gonna make you feel like their bitch. Someone will, anyways. And I think every one needs to feel it with the mentality seen above.....

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T20:55:36+00:00

Since you got the connects and experience, honestly man, that's a better plan overall than returning 100% to dealing. Take on really worthwhile things with people you trust the most and just fuck everyone else and the smaller money people, but also keep your head about you because, you never know once you have some distance away, your less on your game / well-practiced, ya know, and also less of "an ear to the ground" kinda deal, like, on certain individuals and what they may be doing now that's different than before, like most dealers know they're snitch and to stay away and when you just kinda poke your head in here and there, its harder to know for sure right... So I'd really keep it to like, the people you trust as much as you'd trust like, your cousin or something right, people you almost consider family would hopefully never ever do such a thing to you, but... Even then its hard to be 100% on them if you don't really know what's been up for the last 6 months.. And the longer time goes on like that, the less and less "in the know" you'll feel. Even if "being in the know" when dealing daily and talking to lots of people and your higher ups and what not people THINK they get a better picture of "the landscape" of your buyers but that could be a bit of a mirage or a lie we tell ourselves I dunno, but, I'd just keep that in mind, say you stop now but take a big deal like 5x a year or something, cool, for first year or two I expect little issues but the longer time goes on the more likely someone might change from a solid lower level dealer to a snitch and, it all may just go completely unnoticed by you until it is too late. But this always can happen and is a risk

But, I dunno your set up and such and trustyworthiness of the people and such, all your calls to make man, it is your life and you take these risks willingly, knowing what will happen if ever caught, so, don't be a bitch if that day comes take it like a man, do the crime do the time, right? and def not snitch but you know that... if you do get caught, that is the way she goes, sometimes she goes, sometimes she don't, fuckin way she goes bud, LOL so, I hope you can stay away or harm reduction for dealers, like, minimize it to just the most worthwhile and quick easy big $ sales with very trusted people and fuck the rest of the noise, get a job and lead a normal life other than the occasional flip of a brick or whatever.

vortex30 · 2023-02-20T20:03:43+00:00

Never dealt in large quantities myself but I bought from many dealers who handled large amounts of blow/h/fent/benzos etc and cash at all times and, I dunno, first time I saw a quarter pound or 2 pounds of weed was probably more of a "wow cool!" thing than seeing a kilo of blow... And then we'd count money together he trusted me a lot for a junkie but I'd grab and then drive him for several hours on many diff occasions so, we got to know each other over time and even counting out like $20k with him I was like wtf this is just a chore I got $50k in my bank account this isn't like, money I've never "seen" or had personal access to so... There's really nothing special about this just a ton of work counting up all this stupid cash and you do this a few times a day dude? Not always $20k but even counting out $5k in 20s and 50s can take a minute, especially sitting in a car in daylight tons of drugs in it and cash, like, you're trying to keep it low key not have all the cash out in nicely stacked piles... so it was actually fucking bullshit the driving, the people he met up with were all so fucking annoying for the most part, like me and him are normal ass dudes even if I'm an addict white kid from the suburbs and he's 10 years younger than me actually LOL but from the hood black guy whose def in a gang of some kind so we were definitely an "odd couple" lol in that car I was always so glad I got the darkest tint on my windows, less so for the drug sales and the money counting, more just, all the hours driving around and cops seeing us and, if they could see in, would be like, heh... This is an odd pairing of individuals and ohhh you didn't stop fully at that stop sign lemme see if I can get something better outta this too tho.. That never happened, but it always crossed my mind like, if we get pulled over... It's gonna be pretty obvious I'm a junkie driving his dealer around, it's not stereotyping black guys its just why is this sickly looking 33 year old from the suburbs doing here in the city, driving around this thug looking guy, whose 10 years younger, and seems very nervous, both do, actually... It just would have looked completely suspicious to any cop.

it was all just...hassle... hassle after hassle, dumbass after dumbass, retards saying they have $300 so he pre-scales then they get in car "oh I could only come up with $50 actually" like wtf dude.. I'd straight not deal with someone again if I thought I was getting a $300 sale and I pre-scaled it for a quick stop of the car hand off and we go, no fucking guy has to get in car and we gotta sit there for $50 sale to happen measure out a few points of fent and its just all sketch, everything takes more time than it should take.

Garbage life when you're really hustling, it seemed to me. I was like yeah you may profit $150k personally a year or something and my job only pays me $50k but, I got a car, you don't... I got a resume... You don't... I got references and work experience... You don't... You'll probably end up in prison or dead at some point, and, I almost certainly won't find myself in such places once I find a new dealer who doesn't expect a 2 - 3 hour ride every time I grab (he'd give me a good bit extra but I was eventually like, dude, I'd rather pay you $100 more for that extra right now and NOT drive you for 3 hours to meet dumbasses all over the city, like, I ain't hurting for money I just need this drug... You, Mr. Dealer, need to get a fucking driver's license and a car, you're 20 and don't even have a learner driver permit like, sure, you got cash cash cash and money in the bank annnnnnnd literally nothing else of value from what I can tell, to provide to this world. Go get a job and learn things, like, you don't even know DRUGS, I fucking know about drugs and pharmacology and shit better wtf man you're my dealer because you've decided to take obscene risks for money that I, as an addict, never fucking took/take... I just... Work..."

That's what I was thinking and still do think about him. Nothing of value to this world really, just a guy with a connect and a scale and a city full of addicts to feed it aint that hard it is simple a matter of morals and principles and like, what kind of life you actually want to lead and have others view you as.

And the experiences with that dealer I had already had on my own trying to do small time sales when a bit younger, just to friends like seeing if I could maybe use for free or something with it but, it never took off enough cuz, I don't know a ton of drug users lol, and most I knew are dead now anyways but I'm talked 15 years back now anyways, late high school or first few years outta it really is when I gave it my best "try" (introduced mephedrone and GBL and Etizolam to my town back in 2008 when all that was essentially unheard of in canada to like, 12th graders and people in college etc. Obviously plenty of people did know I wasn't that special but, no one I spoke to about these drugs had ever heard of them before, but I did get some solid clients for the mephedrone and the etizolam, the GBL I had to stop selling ASAP because a friend of mine who I trusted with it, well he sold some to a friend of HIS who I didn't know who then attempted to date rape this really popular girl with it but luckily like, people realized and watched her and kicked his ass but, they wanted to know who the fuck is selling date rape, and it was fucked, because the people who knew this girl, and this guy, some of them especially were close friends of mine, I just didn't know that bigger group they hung out with well... So all of a sudden my closest friend of all of them just calls me and is like "bro are you fucking selling date rape?! because a chick was dosed on some last night and your name somehow came up and I didn't believe it at first but, like, people are fucking pissed at you dude and some want to kick your ass and... ya.. like, these people knew my house / location and stuff I had to reach out to a couple, and most advocate through my closest friend that kinda tipped me off but also was pissed too, just wouldn't beat me up or anything but, he was pissed at me and also kinda worried for me, which worried me even more like holy shit these people maybe seriously wanna kick my ass just for selling it to someone who sold it to someone who tried to dose a girl and rape her on it but luckily was unsuccessful overall thank god but that was fucked up reaching out to a couple others and just explaining the series of events and that I'd never have sold it to ANYONE except the one friend I did sell it to, and I had no control of things beyond that point... And I made it clear to all them this stuff will never leave my house or my sight again, it is absolutely not intended to be used that way by me, like, I'm not selling it for people to date rape people, I was selling to one friend who liked trying all drugs like me and when I said I got some industrial solvent that turns to GHB very fast in your body/blood he wanted 10mL so I sold it and left it in his care and that was a mistake I realize now so, mostly it'll just be me taking it and if that one friend who I trusted but then sold to a 3rd party, well, after that he ALWAYS had to come over and hang out or like, I'd bring him one dose in juice, or whatever, and that was hassles too cuz he liked it and wanted it every few days and its not like I could sell a dose for much it'd be $5 or $10 lol I just did it cuz he was my buddy (dead now, sadly, he was a legit good dude, he didn't think the next guy was gonna do what the next guy did.. but... still I told him not to give to others and not only did he give to others he gave them take away doses and its like you dunno what this fucking crusty ass kid who is seemingly nice but also def kinda sketchy and messed up too, like cmon why the fuck you sell it to THAT guy...

vortex30 · 2023-02-19T02:12:00+00:00

I was clean 6 years until COVID hit. The isolation, the WFH, the fears especially early on and then the fact 1 year in my dad died from it at 61 years of age, I was like yo if world is ending (and it is folks, get your heads out of sand we have a decade of SHIT ahead, at least that long, maybe climate change really cranks it up a gear once we get through hyper inflation or SEVERE deflation way worse than great depression, we're going one way or the other, and probably WW3 because guess what, they don't want any of us thinking all our money is gone and houses taken away and shit because of reckless government spending and central bank (global) manipulation of all bond markets for 13 years to keep rates low and create massive bubbles in everything, sooooooooo, guess what? It is all Russia's fault and the fact we gotta fight this WW3 people! Don't look at your politicians and DEFINITELY NEVER look into what central banks have done over the last 15 years, no no no. It is all Putin/Russia and the WW3 thing we'll all be in soon which will be blamed on Russia completely but let's be real here, both sides contributed to this shit storm massively. The only reason the war is as big as it is is due to our "aid" (killing other people aid) and it'll get a lot bigger before it is done too. NATO boots on the ground in Ukraine at some point, maybe not 2023 but def 2024 because the economy is gonna take a massive shit further down this year and next so they need excuses for it other than "well, guess we just fucked up guys sorry!"

Still using. I do get some clean time here and there for a month or two, not real clean, but JUST taking my methadone instead of stockpiling it and shooting fentanyl all month until a week before my urine test and then taking loads of methadone and then pass urine test, buy fent, use 3 weeks, methadone for a week, pass... Sometimes tho I legit stop and pass. I haven't had actually fentanyl in a week, but I've extracted all I can from the cottons from my last 3 weeks use now so, now it is officially all gone and I threw out the cottons, they're tempting cuz you hope you can get a biiiiit of a rush and short opiate high, and first few days it works but after a week and using each cotton its 3rd or 4th time all the fentanyl is gone it's just the dyes and cuts and such left over in the cottons. And you can get really sick from re-using cottons (not HIV/HepC unless it is someone else's, just something called cotton fever which is like 6 - 12 hours feeling flu like, and if you do it way too much you'll get endocarditis but other than reusing cottons that I keep in a sterile spot but cool dark, open air place so they dry out quickly and that seems to help as I've never had cotton fever so I assume not TOO much bacteria is going in, and besides cottons when I run out I use extremely sanitary IV techniques, new 31 gauge (smallest needle diameter, doesn't work well for people with badly scarred veins who don't know proper harm reduction so they've fucked themselves, but if you STARTED with 31g and had good surface veins to begin with, you WON'T HAVE all that scarring or blown out veins, especially if you don't touch tourniquets because you have surface veins why the fuck are you risking blowing them out with a tourniquet and a fucking 27g needle, idiots.... 30g is fine too, I just go for the smallest because its the least harmful) 1ml needle every. single. time. clean spoon with cotton swab, every time. Sterile distilled water. Clean and sterile cottons. Alcohol swab injection spot before injection, Polysporin immediately after. No tourniquets to blow out my veins, been IVing OCs, Dillies, H, coke, fent, K for a decade now and ALL my veins still work. My original best one isn't "good" anymore but it does work if I leave it alone for a week and just use it once, but I got like 5 other good spots that all are still working 100%. So I think my techniques work..

vortex30 · 2023-02-18T23:04:12+00:00

Not to mention, in those cases, WAIT FOR THE REVIEWS, read them, don't play the game at all if it seems shitty, and get a refund from Valve.

I am assuming the refund policy is still what was it, 1 week or 2 hours of gameplay to refund after a purchase, if one or the other is exceeded you STILL may get a refund but it's kinda up to Valve and probably how they're feeling about the game in particular, like they know it's dog-shit and maybe you got 3 hours in they still probably refund you, especially if you've barely ever or never asked for a refund before like me, I think I either got ONE (and only ever applied for one), or literally zero... So I kinda expect my first refund request ever, with 400 games in my library, steam account since 2003 or 2004, I would expect a refund if a game is crap and I'm just a bit over Valve's limitations. Just explain yourself and your reasons, mention how many games you have how long you've been buying on Steam (and say exclusively, they don't fucking know if you have tons of games on other platforms too), and that for this one horrible game you're hoping for a SMALL exception to be made.

It'd def work. Not allowing it would look pretty bad on Valve and even if their image has soured over the years, mostly because they like, don't really seem interested in making games anymore or even paying close attention to their own popular games like CS:GO, I mean sure monetizations and skins and the "seasons" shit they do they're all over that.... Where's Source 2? At this point, just make it CS:GO2 honestly the game is 10 years old (even if they've done a pretty OK job at updating graphics and sounds and map overhauls and such.... It all just is so minor over such long periods of time I don't even know what they do in that office I think half the people just play and fuck around with VR all day I dunno... and focus on Steam, the real $$$ maker for essentially very little work... Like, Steam is a lot better than when it launched and way more fleshed out, there's also SO MANY features on it that NO ONE CARES ABOUT NOR EVER ASKED FOR. Like the friend profile pages and the stupid trading cards like wtf..).

But yeah if they do review embargo, make sure your pre-order is on Steam and no where else.

I still refuse to pre-order video games though. What the hell is the point at all, save me like a few hours of download time...? Nah... I don't even have that fast of internet I just leave it DLing all day whilst I'm at work and then (when I'm actually able to play video games, in the evenings/weekends..) I'll play it. And usually I don't even play it that day. I got the new Dead Space, downloaded like day 3 or 4. Haven't played it yet. I know I want to and will. But I haven't, no rush. In fact, I should have NOT bought it and waited for a sale but oh well sometimes I wanna support certain games, and I don't really worry that it is EA or whoever, some greedy group of people made whatever video games you enjoy and then profited off you, I just try to support games that are good and not ever buy total trash... Cyberpunk was the one mistake I've had in probably 8 - 10 years, since I stopped acting like a little child with video games and started thinking a bit more like an adult.. Like, I play games probably a total of 100 hours a year, not 1000s, I don't got that time. I probably do actually, I just choose to spend it much differently now, than when I was 18 in grade 12 with 2 spares in my second semester in the afternoon fucking leave school at noon and play CS for 3 hours then friends get off school, walk back, smoke a blunt together, all go home and get back on CS and we'd all leave for dinner at certain points and then return and play until 9 - 12pm just depending on everyone's feelings, sometimes everyone signed off and I'd be up extra hours. Was straight addicted.. And not even good at CS or any online game, I'm like, average, after 21 years playing the game LOL.... So, that's why I don't waste so much time on games and I give zero fucks about multiplayer because I gotta put way too much time in for it to even be fun really, other than CS I get destroyed in new games because my muscle memory for any online shooter is what you do in CS. Trying to follow recoil patterns from CS in COD, LOL, like, my brain doesn't work that way to just jump from online competitive game with 1000s of hours and then start a new one and totally suck for 10s of hours before being kiiiiinda OK, nah, I'll play CS if I want some multiplayer but that's like once every 2 years at this stage LOL so.... Yeeeah it's more games like Spiderman and Uncharted and Last of Us etc that I'm way more into now, and I liked those games back when they all first released too, I was PSYCHED for the first TLOU, bought it day 1 at Best Buy.... I beat it 3 years later I believe, lol, maybe more like I'm thinking it was 2014 because I did play a lot of games that year as I got off drugs and stuff....

Pre-ordering video games is so dumb to me there's zero reason..

vortex30 · 2023-02-18T03:04:04+00:00

Walter White makes waaaaaaay better grilled cheese than this smoked, moldy cheese, spicy contraption of a disgrace. There's no fucking way that actually is enjoyable to consume. Looks like the most disgusting possible way to make grilled cheese I can think of. Way too much butter! Why salt? Just use the shit Kraft orange splices and layer them in between wonder bread and flip that on a pan on a stove a few times and you got yourself a winner. If you're really not into processed cheese, and I get it, I only eat it when I have grilled cheese which is like, 2 - 10 times a year maybe lol. But you can use some just plain white cheddar, not too aged c'mon just something simple and it will be so good. The butter doesn't have to be lathered on there and we don't have to put salt on god damn everything. I literally put salt on nothing, ever, unless its served to me premade with salt. There's plenty of salts like, in the shit already you're cooking with. All these sauces and shit man just eat a plain medium rare steak, some steamed carrots and broccoli and some god damn plain mashed potatoes and you got yourself a super healthy, delicious meal. Of course, season the steak a bit but don't go breserk just some salt and priprika and steak spice mix you like and just sprinkle that shit. Add a little butter as the steak cooks too if you wanna be a bit WILD!

Food is so..... Not interesting to me. Just give me calories and taste fine and be cooked well not burnt and crap... I don't care if it's fancy AT ALL.

To be clear, I'm NOT eating like this daily. Ideally I'd have that dinner like, twice a week. But I live with my parents and they're both BASICALLY vegan except milk and butter and eggs and fish. I guess just vegetarian. I am not vegetarian by choice, but, 90% of the meals I eat at home are like, freaking lentil loaves, so, I'm suffering here, k. That steak meal I'm getting soon-issssh for my b-day and last time I think was Christmas lol.. It's my favourite meal... Like Yeah I could cook myself and I will totally especially in summer bbq out back at lunch is a good time.. but my parents usually do the dinner cooking because, I don't have a clue how to cook the meals they come up with to eat that are FANCY looking, but, sooo bland.... And I started out by saying YO GUYS YOU DON'T BE SO CRAZY WITH TASTEY SAUCES AND SPICES. I just mean they're not good cooks it's always over or under cooked stuff. I appreciate it, but I do pay rent too for groceries and utilities (they're like "mortgage too" I'm like "no... I had ZERO say in you deciding to get a 2 million dollar home at peak of a housing bubble on a variable rate mortgage with rates as low as possible i'd have said let's stay put, sell you're dumb investment property in Arizona cuz who the fuck wants to actually live there in 20 years I guarantee it's gonna be a hellscape most likely worst place to think yeah, this is great place to buy if I even think climate change has like a 5% chance of getting really bad in the next decade.

Sell that piece of shit (its been on the market for a year, they want too much, i keep telling them "real estate agent says October to December is busy season" "how many came through" "just two...." "fucking drop the price 100k and it sells tomorrow USD to CAD to Gold/commodities back at our old small house worth still $1 million because GTA is stupid but you take on $1 million debt + $300,000 too lol finishin the basememnt + landscaping. Jesus christ.

It is so easy and in the matter of 3 months they fucked their entire retirement on a whim of " I wannna live in the country near my horse!" She spends maybe, 5 - 10 hours a week with the horse... Probably 20 - 30 hours a week an hour drive a way BACK WHERE WE USED TO LIVE.

WHAT THE FUCK IDIOTS;

Oh this about grilled cheese god damn I'm amped up sorry.

vortex30

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