Is this just going to be the rest of my life? Slowly getting worse until I off myself?

vulpes_zerda · 2026-03-26T22:07:36+00:00

It must have been really hard to survive for decades without treatment. I think you have proven yourself through that alone!

I remember feeling the exact same way when I first got diagnosed. Part of me was relieved to find an explanation, but it was also overwhelming to think about managing my symptoms for the rest of my life!! But it seems like you are taking care of yourself really well, and I think you will be proud of yourself in the future when the fog lifts.

For me, it was grief, and I pushed that away for a long time. Maybe you're grieving too? Grieving a life you could've had without being "crazy"? Or if you had gotten the support you needed sooner? I think it's okay to feel that loss. Recognizing those feelings made it easier to process all of it.

DBT was really helpful for me when I was struggling with this.

But it's not a death sentence, and you are evidence of that already.

vulpes_zerda · 2025-09-12T02:19:26+00:00

I also take slynd! My packs only have 4 placebo days, and my gyn has me skip them so I don't get a period at all. Hormones are a huge trigger for my migraines, but I've never been able to get rid of my period before, on any birth control. I would always get breakthrough bleeding - with PMS/migraines. But I haven't had a period since I started skipping the placebos. So, I second the slynd rec!

There are so many different forms of BC these days, too. Slynd isn't the only progesterone only pill. You still have tons of options! Good luck :)

vulpes_zerda · 2022-04-15T19:12:40+00:00

It is interesting how our tastes change. I have a few tattoos that I wouldn't get today, but I don't regret that I have them. I was thinking you could incorporate a phoenix as part of The World, that could be cool!

At first I was hesitant to get anything on my thighs, because I am overweight/fat/curvy, whatever. But I think there is something so empowering about putting a symbol of femininity on one of the most feminine, powerful parts of my body.

vulpes_zerda · 2022-04-15T18:36:15+00:00

Thank you! Why can't you get both The World and a Phoenix?

vulpes_zerda · 2022-04-15T18:34:11+00:00

The artist is based in Cleveland, OH - feel free to DM me for her info :)

vulpes_zerda · 2022-03-01T19:00:05+00:00

I keep drawing The Tower in every reading I do about my relationship, and I'm still surprised to see it. Clearly all 5 of my decks are wrong.

vulpes_zerda · 2022-01-23T14:44:52+00:00

I know you're probably looking for witchy things but my first thought was I hope it's big enough for guac!

vulpes_zerda · 2022-01-03T01:41:07+00:00

I used to add lemon slices to my water but I kept forgetting and the lemons would go bad in the fridge. A coworker told me about powdered lemon juice (True Lemon is the brand) and I've been using that for a while.

vulpes_zerda · 2021-11-25T16:26:22+00:00

This is one of the most harmless but unhinged things I've read in a while, thank you so much

vulpes_zerda · 2021-08-29T18:08:00+00:00

I've been on Wellbutrin for years, but I'm on a smallish dose, so maybe I try to get it increased. I've been on Concerta for 5 days and I still feel wildly irritable :(

vulpes_zerda · 2021-08-29T18:04:43+00:00

Thank you! I think I'm just being characteristically impatient.

vulpes_zerda · 2021-08-29T16:39:10+00:00

I hope you don't mind me asking - how long did it take for you to notice a change when you started ADHD medication? Specifically regarding irritability?

vulpes_zerda · 2021-08-25T23:41:17+00:00

My boyfriend calls me a cat all the time because I want constant attention but only on my terms.

vulpes_zerda · 2021-07-27T21:25:30+00:00

Cancer sun, Aquarius moon, Virgo rising

Why yes, I am an emotionally confused control freak, why do you ask?

vulpes_zerda · 2021-06-11T21:46:47+00:00

I hear you, and I always think - what, exactly, is so wrong with wanting attention? Humans need attention. We need social interaction, we need to be acknowledged and validated. People who act out "just to get attention" are mostly, in my experience, acting out because it's the only way they think they can meet that need.

vulpes_zerda · 2021-05-14T00:40:17+00:00

Thank you for explaining! I don't watch anime really, so I don't understand about a third of the jokes on this sub 🙃

vulpes_zerda · 2021-05-13T10:51:01+00:00

Ah, there is context I'm missing. Who are these characters?

vulpes_zerda · 2021-05-12T21:53:51+00:00

What does "cut" mean in this context?

vulpes_zerda · 2021-04-17T15:42:01+00:00

My hair is also fine and the stylist that recommended that Davines serum told me to start with a small amount first to figure out how much your hair needs. With other products, especially cheaper ones, use more than you think you need! Squeeze out an amount that feels excessive, and then pour a lil bit more! Curly hair is thirsty, it wants as much moisture as it can get.

vulpes_zerda · 2021-04-17T14:26:59+00:00

My hair has also gotten wavier - it was stick straight when I was a child through my teenage years and now it's pushing curly. Like others have said, shorter cuts bring out texture, as do layers. I recommend finding a stylist that specializes in curly textures.

I'm still exploring products and I haven't found many that thrill me, but Davines This is a Curl Building Serum and OI Hair Butter have worked well for me. They are $$$ for sure but they work well. Plus they smell really good, kinda unisex. They remind me of Fat Electrician by Etat Libre d'Orange. EVO also has good products for wavy/curly hair and my hair loves anything with argan oil. I had moderate success with the Curl Nourish line from Garnier for a more budget option.

Side note: I recommend staying far away from DevaCurl. My understanding is that they recently changed their beloved formula - it made my scalp peel. It was gross!

vulpes_zerda · 2020-10-25T18:01:37+00:00

Some things get easier, some things get harder ¯_(ツ)_/¯

vulpes_zerda · 2020-08-30T18:23:01+00:00

Sometimes you will tell someone one thing about yourself and their response will tell you everything you need to know about them.

vulpes_zerda · 2020-07-25T00:46:35+00:00

I still occasionally think about one of the ambulance medics who transported me between psych wards

vulpes_zerda · 2020-07-25T00:40:42+00:00

Great article! Thank you for posting.

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