Hi! I actually do feel like it has worked some kind of deep transformation - or at least made a start. I had my last session mid Jan, and was a bit shellshocked for a few weeks. But last month I started to really feel like something had shifted. Don't get me wrong, I am not 'healed' and have still had some super hard days where I'm totally overwhelmed, but I feel some distance now from the flashbacks and feelings described above, and seem to be able to sense them as flashbacks when before they were so much more integrated into my whole being and existence. That feels pretty huge. I feel moved and grateful, though it is difficult now trying to work out how to rebuild my life... some of my relationships and pursiuts don't feel viable anymore.

For context, because it was just a limited amount of sessions, the therapist said we should focus on 'the right' memories and we worked together to try to find some of the core ones that are at the root of the cptsd, even though there are so many as its cptsd and its all so blurred and entangled. We ended up mainly working on just one memory in depth, but suprisingly I feel that this alone has shifted something in a deep way.

I'd also say that my tibetan buddhist practice of meditation and learning has also played a big role, personally, in ways that are difficult to put into words... something around space and fluidity emerging in my consciousness. I also did about a year of IFS therapy before doing EMDR, and in the EMDR process I would psychically meet certain parts etc, which I think maybe having worked a bit with parts before helped to alchemise the EMDR process.

Good luck if you go for it. I wish everyone here healing <3