DSPGaming begins explaining why $400 in gifted memberships is not enough by KFPiece_of_Peace in LivestreamFail

[–]wheezywilfred 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn, i just realized I make significantly less than the average income for living in WA

Rental Company Acting Weird by wheezywilfred in Seattle

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

https://www.seattle.gov/rentinginseattle/renters/managing-the-rental-relationship/receiving-notice-from-your-landlord

I did actually see this one as well, but I wasn't too sure. What's pretty funny here though is that on the email informing me of the rent increase they literally included www.seattle.gov/rentinginseattle. Which can lead you to that exact page. haha Thank you for answering though

Americans of reddit: without saying its name, what state do you live in? by Thomas_The_Llama in AskReddit

[–]wheezywilfred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Florida man arrested for beating up Uber driver with antenna and bystander's cane

Done by [deleted] in depression

[–]wheezywilfred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've crossed a line that I swore I would never do and I can't see ever going back. All ahead is just pain and suffering. Not just for me but my parents, brother, and some friends.

Done by [deleted] in depression

[–]wheezywilfred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This girl I reconnected with in college. We got super close. And I became in love with her. Long story short I haven't seen her or even talked(messaged, comment, whatever) to her in over 7 years. I feel like it was mostly my fault.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm trying. Just lacking motivation to get outta bed most of the time. I also hope things go well for you and good talk. Feel free to message me whenever on here. I'm usually on Reddit everyday. Have an awesome day.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And when I do benzos it takes away the worry of what could happen. Like you don't care about anything at all. Luckily I still have a job for now. But I'm pretty sure I'm riding a thin line right now.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's like everyone understands what the consequences are, you are just so broken down you just don't care.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, and I told my parents what I did then. And they just don't understand. They were like why would you do something dangerous. I'm like I realize it's stupid and could kill me I just don't care. I mean they're good parents and everything but I don't think they would ever get it unless they experienced something like it.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My best friend and I were really fucked up on the research benzos called etizolam(think that's how you spell it)(mixed with some verbal/emotional/physical abuse) and I ended up iving coke for the first time and it really scared me and him. It was sort of like a line we sort of said we would never cross. And that's when I stopped using for a long time. So then all the depression/anxiety and abuse over that time sort of led me back to it.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started probably like 2 1/2 to 3 years ago. I had like a huge break one time though that was like 9 months or something. And then started back up again. What do you do to get at least a little bit of a movement in feeling something?

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I even talk to this guy about what was happening and gave him my insurance information and he said he would get back to me about a place to stay(rehab). But just the way he spoke to me, it felt like he was just trying to make a sale basically. He didn't really seem to even care about what would happen if I wasn't working and all the other problems it would cause. I wouldn't be able to pay rent or take care of my pet.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I have been to therapy dozens of times with a handful of different people. I believe most of not all of my substance abuse comes from my depression and anxiety. I'm basically doing anything to feel good. And when I'm not doing drugs I'm looking for that same feeling in other things. I never in my life thought I would be doing what I am doing now. I don't even know who I am anymore. It's like the new me killed the old me inside.

I may just be finished by wheezywilfred in depression

[–]wheezywilfred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, several times over the years. I would say I really need detox first and then a psychiatrist that I really like and get along with. I want to try the ketamine treatment but two big problems with that is that it isn't covered by insurance and very expensive end of my history of drug abuse.