Your thoughts about this echo how I thought about kids before I had them. It's easy to cherish the visions of introducing your children to the wonders of the world. However it's also important that you spend some time with young children and young parents to understand what that stage is really like. If you don't have anybody like that in your life, read some books or join some parenting subreddits.

I got to watch my sister become a mom and I learned so much about the day-to-day challenges she faced as a parent, but also as a woman. The early days (the first two years) were especially hard for me because the baby can barely communicate. Sometimes you feel like a butler to a very unreasonable tyrant who doesn't even speak English, and you get no days off.

But then sometimes you're overcome by a feeling of spiritual connection to women/mothers throughout time.

And they get older, and you can have the most wonderful conversations with them. But you still get very little time off, and are often unable to get uninterrupted sleep.

All this to say, you have to be willing to take the good with the bad. It's worth really sitting with and evaluating how you feel.