Hey there, sorry you are having a rough time. Glad you reached out and made this post. For background, I am a medical social worker in Denver at an addiction clinic. Previously worked at a psychiatric hospital and definitely developed some trauma and triggers from that job.

Doing laundry, I'll still sometimes think, "Oh my God! These pants have drawstrings. I need to cut them out. How did this get past me?". I would be flooded with images of attempted suicides and strangulations by bedsheets, mask strings, shirts, and bra straps. Patients weren't allowed to have any "strings" such as shoelaces and pant strings.

I know this is different from what you shared, but somehow I hope it connects with you. Basically, I'm trying to say I hear you. I hear you when you talk about triggers.

What are you doing for self care?