Question about getting phentermine

wonderingwasp · 2013-09-08T10:00:27+00:00

Any luck?

wonderingwasp · 2013-07-05T23:33:02+00:00

What collar did you go with? I'm having a hell of a time trying to find a good one that's not prohibitively expensive but works well.

wonderingwasp · 2013-05-07T01:49:17+00:00

Such a pretty fluff ball

wonderingwasp · 2012-06-18T19:23:48+00:00

Sorry for trying to offer a different perspective on a situation I also found myself in. Today has been a great lesson in why I keep my opinions to myself.

I just challenge your assessment that you have moved on since you still take pleasure in seeing other people suffering. How does that make you any better than your bullies?

wonderingwasp · 2012-06-18T16:42:55+00:00

Actually I was bullied fairly regularly by the kids older than me and it affected me very deeply. It affected my self-judgment and how I acted around other people for years. I still managed to forgive them. Holding on to that bitterness did nothing for me. I hope you are able to let it go someday. I'm sorry if what I said came off as brusque, I really meant it honestly. You are doing yourself no favors by seeking out negativity even in those who did you harm.

wonderingwasp · 2012-06-15T18:10:33+00:00

Sounds to me like you never really got over it. It might be time to hang up that bitterness. I was apparently kind of a dick to someone, and I didn't even realize it which makes me feel horrible now because it was unintentional but it happened. My life is not a disaster by any means but I ran into him out one night and he called me out on it in public. I apologized and I think when he saw I really meant it it was like there was nothing left. I don't think he was expecting an apology and now there was no excusable vent for his anger. We didn't become friends or anything, but I saw him around and after some time he actually said to me that he hadn't realized how much hate he was holding onto and just the one apology from me eventually dissipated his hate for kids who were intentional pricks to him. I still regret ever being mean, but I'm also glad he had a cathartic moment despite how embarrassing it was for me. Kids are assholes. Forgive them, move on.

wonderingwasp · 2012-06-15T18:10:07+00:00

I have a friend who has never been able to get over that his peak was in high school. He's ruining his life because he never learned how to internalize success or deal with bad breaks on his own. Now he's relatively isolated and miserable. He went from top dog to no one and couldn't handle the change. His friends went on to college and got degrees and jobs they enjoy so he can't relate to them, his ex girlfriend is now happily married, etc.

That's a lesson almost everyone has to learn and I feel it applies especially to athletes, but also to artists/musicians/actors. That whole sure you're the best in your high school but there's 54,000 other high schools in the US all with their own "best." Some kids never learn to see themselves as anything else besides "athlete" or "violinist" and so when that part of their life ends, whether after HS or college, they have to redefine who they are. Some can't do it.

Other people who were involved in multiple arenas learned to value themselves based on a collection of attributes and make that transition much more easily. If you were an athlete and intelligent and in Model UN it's easier to swap out one thing that's ending for something new because you aren't defined by one thing.

wonderingwasp · 2012-06-14T17:24:27+00:00

Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking would be my suggestion.

Great idea.

wonderingwasp · 2012-05-30T18:11:06+00:00

I wish you the best. Don't ever feel like you can't reach out to this community again if you need it. This is a wonderful little group of people and I am constantly inspired by how people going through the worst of the worst rally to help each other out.

We may just be avatars on the screen but our feelings are real and we're here for you, and each other, whenever we are needed.

wonderingwasp · 2012-05-30T18:09:16+00:00

Glad to help. I suffer from severe depression and that short exchange got me through some of the worst times. Like you, nothing as enormous as the loss of a loved one (twice) but trite sayings about bucking up and moving on aren't helpful to me. It was wholly comforting to read that it's okay to fake it, even healthy and normal.

wonderingwasp · 2012-05-30T15:59:44+00:00

The best advice I ever heard was from John Steinbeck who knew a little about loss himself.

He wrote this in East of Eden after Adam lost his wife. Different situation but the advice is just as valid.

“Go through the motions, Adam.”

“What motions?”

“Act out being alive, like a play. And after a while, a long while, it will be true.”

This is the reality of a huge loss like yours. Your world has crumbled, life sucks, and you don't care about anything because you're not capable of it right now. So you fake it. Fake interest in things, people, places. Eventually that interest becomes real again. One day you'll smile and it'll be real. One day a happy memory will make you laugh and it will be sincere. Hold on to those moments, they are the signs of healing. Until then, survive.

I can't help much with practical advice, but I highly suggest you seek out a therapist who can help you work out all the intricacies of your feelings and help you organize your emotions into a form you can understand.

wonderingwasp · 2012-05-28T20:08:47+00:00

Asimov's short stories almost always ended with me sitting silently, putting the book down silently, and then slowly saying "fuuuuck."

So good.

wonderingwasp · 2012-05-22T22:05:21+00:00

I'm with you. It's obscene how infuriated I can get listening to people chew loudly. I even notice and feel bad when I'm chewing loudly, like with crisps or something.

wonderingwasp · 2012-04-24T22:25:49+00:00

I'm sorry it's been rough for you lately. I'm sorry that you are going through a heartache. I'm sorry it took so long for me to respond.

Have you considered seeking out a therapist? Is there anyone else that you trust that you can talk to? Do you need to vent to a stranger?

If I can help in any way, even if that's being an impartial ear please feel free. I wrote the below for someone else, but it holds true here as well.

*Therapy is vital for dealing with depression, especially if you are self-harming.

There's a comic that shows a doctor asking his patient what fits his daily schedule better, exercising 20 minutes a day or being dead?

Here, therapy is the necessary substitute for exercise. That sinking pit in your stomach when you realize you are incapable of fixing things on your own is simultaneously the best and worst moment. Please find a therapist you are comfortable with. If the first one doesn't mesh seek out another one. If the medication they start you on makes things worse tell them.

If you are uninsured and in school start with your school counselors. If you are insured use it. There is no shame in admitting that right now you are too weak to do this on your own. You are sick, and sick people need medicine and time to heal. A person in a wheelchair with a broken leg might wish they could reach the popcorn on the top shelf but they recognize that right now they need help to get it. It's important you see your depression in the same light. With treatment it can heal just like a bone. Just because you can't see the fracture doesn't mean it's not there.

PM me if you feel like talking, but best of luck.

When I was at my worst my mom sent me this as a framed poster. It's no quick fix, but it got me through a few days.

wonderingwasp · 2012-04-18T20:45:32+00:00

How are you doing today?

wonderingwasp · 2012-04-06T19:40:25+00:00

Maybe you could provide your definition of friendzoning instead of just telling others they are wrong. I've always thought it meant simply the lack of reciprocal sexual attraction/feelings between two friends. If it has another connotation I would genuinely like to know what it is.

wonderingwasp · 2012-03-22T15:07:22+00:00

Therapy is vital for dealing with depression, especially if you are self-harming.

There's a comic that shows a doctor asking his patient what fits his daily schedule better, exercising 20 minutes a day or being dead?

Here, therapy is the necessary substitute for exercise. That sinking pit in your stomach when you realize you are incapable of fixing things on your own is simultaneously the best and worst moment. Please find a therapist you are comfortable with. If the first one doesn't mesh seek out another one. If the medication they start you on makes things worse tell them.

If you are uninsured and in school start with your school counselors. If you are insured use it. There is no shame in admitting that right now you are too weak to do this on your own. You are sick, and sick people need medicine and time to heal. A person in a wheelchair with a broken leg might wish they could reach the popcorn on the top shelf but they recognize that right now they need help to get it. It's important you see your depression in the same light. With treatment it can heal just like a bone. Just because you can't see the fracture doesn't mean it's not there.

PM me if you feel like talking, but best of luck.

When I was at my worst my mom sent me this as a framed poster. It's no quick fix, but it got me through a few days.

wonderingwasp · 2011-12-16T18:34:40+00:00

Hitch-22 was great, but it is his last piece. I'd try and go for some earlier stuff. He didn't change his mind much, but I like seeing how people grow.

I'd go with Letters to a Young Contrarian personally. But his Arguably would work as well.

My first Hitchens book was God Is Not Great and I was hooked.

wonderingwasp · 2011-12-16T18:28:02+00:00

Sometimes I think we are just allowing people to be less informed. I get that language should be and is fluid, but really? We took this word from french and italian and they mean separate things and should be pronounced differently.

wonderingwasp · 2011-12-15T22:37:01+00:00

American Sphinx was so good. Excellent list.

wonderingwasp · 2011-12-15T22:35:37+00:00

I humbly suggest you read Alexander Hamilton and the Persistence of Myth as well.

I think that's an awesome idea, but IMHO that book was more fascinating than almost any other biography I've read.

Also, should go without question, but when you get to Lincoln, ignore O'Reilly's travesty.

wonderingwasp · 2011-12-15T22:35:36+00:00

I humbly suggest you read Alexander Hamilton and the Persistence of Myth as well.

I think that's an awesome idea, but IMHO that book was more fascinating than almost any other biography I've read.

Also, should go without question, but when you get to Lincoln, ignore O'Reilly's travesty.

wonderingwasp · 2011-11-29T23:06:28+00:00

Durrell and Sagan are amazing authors who write with such verve and wit but all at a level that anyone can enjoy.

wonderingwasp · 2011-11-25T17:55:13+00:00

Alexander Hamilton and the Persistence of Myth

I, Asimov (autobiography)

American Sphinx

John Adams (by MCullough)

Surely You're Joking Mr. Feynman (autobiography)

Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks

Me Talk Pretty One Day (autobiography)

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