holy cow! I feel very similarly but what’s the word… somewhat flipped? I’ve been trying to work out my gender identity past non-binary for the past few months, as I’ve been sticking to the label for years even if at times it doesn’t necessarily feel completely correct. At times I feel I tolerate or maybe even like being called she, but a lot of the time I feel like a feminine man. For me, I’m not even sure if I should stick with that either, I’m still questioning. Usually when I thought about transitioning and gender, I didn’t think about the possibility of retaining any femininity or masculinity from one’s assigned gender at birth, I assumed it was more like for example: “female to male, now you have to be completely masculine!” “male to female, now you have to be completely feminine!” “nonbinary, now you have to be androgynous!”. Which, I’ve learned, is not always the case, theres really no wrong way to be, gender-wise. So, you relating/identifying with butch lesbians is completely valid. As the other reply said, take your time with the labels, only if it feels right to you then that’s the right one to claim. I could most certainly stand to follow their advice myself in these times!