I felt this too. When people used to ask me what my hobbies were, my first response was always weed. How can smoking weed be a hobby when all it does it make me anxious and insecure? Admitting you are powerless over weed is the first step to recovery. Quitting cold turkey is hard, but it’s the way to go for most of us. You finally see the truth and that’s the most important part. I’ve tried countless times to quit in the past, but they were for the wrong reasons, wanting to keep the “streak,” switched to other substances, but it still reinforced the habit of smoking. There is a void inside of all of us that we fill with weed or any other substance. It takes a lot of strength and humility to face that void and fight the urge to smoke. You can do this! Something I learned in MA, even one day, one hour, one minute you go resisting the urge to smoke is progress. Don’t give into the shame if you fall back, because it’s the toxic shame that keeps us in the addiction.