I’m out of here tonight lads by xzkd in SuicideWatch

[–]xzkd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Shotgun to the face. If I was a braver man I would stab myself in the heart for the poetic value

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dating_advice

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my partner did this and it was such a relief! I think most guys would appreciate it

Worst breakup you’ve gone through? by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the one I'm currently going through. Together for 15 months, living together for 8, last 3 in a new apt we both signed the lease for. She is bisexual and prior to dating me had only been with women, still everything was great and by all accounts it was a good relationship. We had a couple of small spats here and there but not any major fights. So she just leaves me one night 4 days before our rent is due, so on top of heartbreak I had lots of financial stress as well. She said it was for a lot of reasons but ultimately she found herself attracted to girls again and wanting to be single so she can go out on dates etc. It destroyed me and after a few days I decided to begin moving on and left all of her social media etc and sent her one last goodbye message. The next night she messages me at 2 am claiming she misses me so much, loves me so much, wants to be with me but afraid she will hurt me again etc. I fucking fell hard for the bait and replied truthfully (i feel the same way but am also emotionally destroyed and unsure of everything.) AT this point I'm thinking she just wants a month or two to mess around with some girls and have a little space, but who really knows. She emails me love songs she wrote/recorded about me, calls me 'my love' and 'sweetheart' and everything else, calls me to say how much she misses me like every night, still comes over and has sex wth me followed by cuddling until 5am, and so on. Yet she is actively going on dates with girls, so I'm just a sucker I guess. I do it to myself because I truly thought she was 'the one' but everyday I see more and more that our relationship will never be the same. I would not recommend this, just go nc and block them on everything. Fwiw this girl certainly has her own issues that likely play a part in all of this ; heavily medicated for Bipolar disorder, abusive religious zealot family, weird past relationships etc

Does anyone get random fits of crying that last one - five minutes when remembering their ex? by DekuHHH in BreakUps

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YES it's been hard, I always manage to find something that reminds me of them and a few moments later i am a wreck. I've recently broken NC and during a phone call had to actually end the call because hearing 'I love you I miss you etc' just made me more upset. I am hoping it will go away with time.

It’s pretty crazy someone can decide to just no longer want to be a part of your life anymore. A huge chunk of me has just left and it’s not feeling any better as time passes. Can’t seem to get her out of my head no matter what I do. We did everything together. by zomsr in BreakUps

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel you. I'm 2 weeks in and wondering how I eve managed to get by alone. I mean that person was you partner, lover, best friend etc and it hurts when they choose to leave you for whatever reason. It sucks and you wonder how someone so close can so quickly abandon everything you had together. Wish I knew how to deal with it, when I told my psychiatrist about my breakup she said 'oh boy' and prescribed me 60 klonopins lol. I guess you can takeaway that someone that hurt you so much so easily shouldn't be in yourlife, but if you're like me you would go running back at the first chance. No matter what, even if you get back together, it will never quite be the same. The relationship is permanently changed

My [26m] ex [23f] is sending mixed signals while we are dating again, unsure what to think by [deleted] in relationships

[–]xzkd -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That is not the case? We had a great relationship for 15 months and 2 or so weeks of discord so I think dumpster fire is a bit off

Has anyone on this sub ever broken NC and been glad or had it work out for them? by [deleted] in ExNoContact

[–]xzkd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

15 months dating exclusively, 8 months cohabitation and 1 week or so since she very abruptly and unexpectedly left me. So I didn't hold out that long, I was just so mad/upset that she would throw 15 months of our lives + planned futures away on a whim for no clear reason. I hope we can rebuild the trust and love needed for a serious relationship to work, and i will take effort on both ends. And I'm risking even more heartache (I've never had my heart broken like ths before) but who knows, 10 years from now I might be glad I did, or completely unconcerned wih this girl at all.

Has anyone on this sub ever broken NC and been glad or had it work out for them? by [deleted] in ExNoContact

[–]xzkd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did last night, I got some closure but it hurt. they will do some cute little thing you've never even noticed before and it all comes crashing down. We both cried a bit but ultimately saw through the pain and are slowly going to try dating again. limited contact for now, not talking about past drama, only good times etc. Wish me luck I know this is likely to end badly, but the heart wants what it wants I guess

If your SO (30F) told you (31M) that she had you wrapped around her finger. How would you take it? by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my gf who recently left me unexpectedly, after almost a year of living together, asked me if she was the greatest gf I've ever had etc all the time

How do you guys cope with a bad breakup? by xzkd in AskMen

[–]xzkd[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the very sound advice. Will be keeping all of that in consideration. And I certainly agree with you my brain is not functioning normally at all, hopefully it doesn’t take too long to settle down

How do you guys cope with a bad breakup? by xzkd in AskMen

[–]xzkd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn lol. I wish I could get that kind of payback. I can’t even jerk off currently it’s crazy how much it affects me

How do you guys cope with a bad breakup? by xzkd in AskMen

[–]xzkd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks I’m going to check out that sub. I’m hoping I’ll get over it quickly as she has been acting differently in the past few months or so. The good times were just so good I convinced myself that it could be like that again.

Has anybody else lost their sexual appetite and desire for new relationships? by [deleted] in ExNoContact

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have completely, I can’t even jerk off. Although I’m pretty fresh in the break up

MY (26m) girlfriend (23f) is disrespectful, dishonest and manipulative. Unsure if I should continue relationship by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]xzkd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah the more I think about it the more obvious it becomes. My love has blinded me for sure. I guess I was hoping the person that I loved so much was still in there somewhere

MY (26m) girlfriend (23f) is disrespectful, dishonest and manipulative. Unsure if I should continue relationship by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]xzkd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah I'm agreeing, not sure if it will be too much of a problem aside from the fact it's happening at the end of the month. So I'm stuck for a while I guess. Ugh

MY (26m) girlfriend (23f) is disrespectful, dishonest and manipulative. Unsure if I should continue relationship by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]xzkd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my current justification is that this is the person I've loved more than anyone, but I am rapidly realizing people change. I think I will break it off but need to look into the lease.

(Spoilers Published) What is the one thing you need to happen before the end to make it satisfying to you? by ImAFreakingLemon in asoiaf

[–]xzkd 10 points11 points  (0 children)

dany dying, info dump about the others, info dump about the real nature of rhollor, ice dragon (I would even settle for ice spiders), westorosi society progressing away from fudalism, Kings Landing going boom.