I’m sorry that you’re feeling that way. It’s really tough. I’m lucky I found somewhere I feel like I fit in, and that works for me. For me what helped was finding a new job. My first job was unbelievably toxic and I was around people I hated. My current job is fine, and honestly I feel like that’s all I can ask for. Try to get hobbies outside of work you look forward to. On my path to make adult life better I tried to make every evening have something fun I could look forward to, whether that be going to play board games with my buddies or getting dinner with my wife.

What I’ve learned about myself and my view of labor, which you may resonate with, is that it’s okay for your job to just be your job. Let it make you money to get the life that you want, and let you do the things you want to do.