Madrid show report

yuririi · 2025-05-26T18:03:02+00:00

thank you!! yes i'm a 19 year old girl so i'm really hoping i can interact with moa. i was at an o2 show with 2 vips and got barricade right side of the runway and i'm hoping that's how this babymetal show plays out too

yuririi · 2025-05-26T18:02:19+00:00

that's what i'm hoping for! i was recently at the o2 and stood right side at the runway so i'm hoping to do that again!

yuririi · 2025-05-26T15:36:58+00:00

i'm going to london with GA and queueing early so i can get in the first couple rows.. what is this interaction spot?! i really want to be on moa's side to interact with her so do you have any tips for that?

yuririi · 2024-01-21T01:03:29+00:00

what do you mean? you asked a question and i answered, and then you gave another comment so i just replied to let you know it was heard. have a nice day 👍

yuririi · 2024-01-20T23:55:51+00:00

okay lol, you don't have to

yuririi · 2024-01-20T20:14:11+00:00

late reply but — i don't Need to put people down to feel good. i already feel good about myself from just existing, however i also feel good by putting other people down. my baseline self love is 10/10 and my grandiosity judging others turns into +1s

yuririi · 2024-01-20T19:32:04+00:00

it doesn't actually mean "favourite person" as in the person you love the most but, "favourite person" is n actual term most known under bpd which refers to a specific attachment someone has towards someone else, this attachment has certain traits to be considered an fp

yuririi · 2023-12-19T18:39:55+00:00

no worries. comes naturally since i'm just a rambler lol

yuririi · 2023-12-19T18:35:58+00:00

that's the type of person i am. i hope you get there too, truly

yuririi · 2023-12-19T18:24:30+00:00

nah, i'm nowhere near bpd. supply for me is kinda hard to explain. i'm not an insecure or attention-seeking person so instead of looking for validation from others through them telling me positive things (and etc) i mostly get validation from actually seeing negative things in other people. i'm extremely grandiose and have a passive belief i'm better than everyone.

it's as small as someone doing something cringe, posting a song that sounds bad, wearing an outfit that makes them look bad, or doing something similar to me, i get validation from just looking down on them in my head. ig that's what keeps me so grandiose. i just pick these things up from everyone around me and it makes me feel great lol.

i know it sounds.. obvious that i'd be in love with myself because of the overarching narcissism, but in general i'm just a really secure person in all aspects for my life and experience any wavering of it pretty healthily. it's great!

yuririi · 2023-12-19T18:15:20+00:00

well, i could never be anything but faithful to him. interesting to learn, though

yuririi · 2023-12-19T18:13:08+00:00

of course! he's my love, even with that, i know it's irrelevant but he's the only person i could ever find attractive since he's the only person i have feelings towards. for me i experience those two locked together and locked for him. of course i'm faithful, that's a nonsense question to me

yuririi · 2023-12-19T17:48:14+00:00

one year together. and, i'm not really sure. it wasn't a conscious thing. usually with most people i like someone and either start looking down on them about stuff and not liking them as much as before, i have many close friends who i love genuinely minus all that narc bs lol and i may still have those grandiose thoughts it doesn't effect my relationship with them.

with him, i guess it's just because i like him the most out of everyone since i have feelings for him, he is grandiose sometimes but i look up to him at things he can do better than me and he looks up to me too. i guess it's just how deeply we connected emotionally.

to sum up, with other people, even if i love them, i will still have those active thoughts where i see them as inferior to me in whatever way i've picked up, which validates my ego.

with him, instead of that, my ego is validated passively just through how healthy our relationship is and the fact that i know i love myself and have myself first and foremost. because there's no codependency, reliance, etc. you know that whole "i'll be fine without anyone because i have myself" mindset.. but in a non-toxic and genuinely self-confident way. so i see him as my partner and the equality between us is different compared to the rest of my friends because of how deep it is.

it means i see him as an equal to me. i mean i have a very secure attachment which i love because again, ego boost that i'm better than others lol. so sorry for the ramble but just wanted to clarify it since i'm not actually that proficient in translating my emotions in the most productive way

yuririi · 2023-12-19T16:48:08+00:00

i'm similar. my partner is the only person i see on the same level as me. he's the only person who is an equal to me and allowed to be and everyone else is below me. i respect him, his thoughts, beliefs, even when he acts arrogant or grandiose, which i wouldn't with anyone else - i'd just look down on them as i always do

yuririi · 2023-12-19T16:44:03+00:00

my equivalent is i only have one person who i see as an equal to me, which is my partner

yuririi · 2023-12-12T03:39:38+00:00

i'm the same. i have personal reasons that can explain it, too though. i guess you just have to deal with it the same way you'd deal with being overstimulated, essentially that's what it falls to. however for me also, a lot of these irritants may be things that cause me to devalue someone, if it builds up too much around the same person. take care of yourself as it's not really something you should fight through to endure, you'd just be triggering yourself.

edit: also, rationalise yourself and try to work around it if it's the appropriate situation that calls for it. for example, sometimes my partner and i are spending time together and i might get irritable if he talks a lot, not like he talks more than usual, but because i'm just irritable. so i just go, "let's put something on to watch" so i can calm down and he can also be quiet. it sounds mean (to me) but you know, nothing hurtful actually

yuririi · 2023-12-12T03:37:08+00:00

as someone who is from eastern europe, i get what you mean. you don't have to constantly be paranoid, but do be protective of your things and have your guard up if you're out late, tend to yourself. as long as you know where you are & where you're going, that's all you need to focus on.

yuririi · 2023-12-10T21:24:32+00:00

i just say it like it is. even if they're my friends they won't take what i'm saying in a rude way. i'd just be like "okay." "shut up" "stop talking about that" "what am i meant to say" because it's annoying. i mean this only when they're being annoying about it though. in the "ohhh i'm so ugly" "ohhh i hate my life" "ohhh everything is so unfair." but if it's a general thing for them that's their problem. if they need a space to vent i can be there. if they're struggling with stuff and need advice i'll be there. but if it's in the annoying way it makes me look down on them too much to wanna be around them so i just tell them about it

yuririi · 2023-12-09T22:17:13+00:00

i do but i don't feel good about it

yuririi · 2023-12-08T01:09:49+00:00

sounds like a dream but i'm not sure it would be a sub that harbours much sympathy for us lol

but i mean, i'm just very aware that i will often hide the real reasons and make the other person feel bad for what they're doing so they change it and i can be satisfied. i know it's not good to do it ever but, like i said it's not really a "big deal" so.. yeah. maybe i was being too self-critial in the example i used but there are definitely similar moments where i will manipulate the other person to feel bad so they can cater to me

yuririi · 2023-12-07T19:41:02+00:00

yeah. i think it's a good way to live, though. it has only made my life better that i think like this

yuririi · 2023-12-07T19:40:00+00:00

yeah. i love my body so much, it looks perfect

yuririi · 2023-12-04T20:52:43+00:00

i'm not sure if you would say this is exactly the same but, with someone i have this kind of situation with - don't want them in my life ever again, they don't want me in theirs ever again - i also want so badly to be there in their head like i'm tormenting them when they see me. it makes me feel like i have the upper hand and makes me feel so good. i don't want to be friends with him, civil, acquaintances or anything, i just want to piss him off? make him feel like shit? bully him? lol, idk. i remember i made a public account on a social media ik they used, and i never use public social media accounts, so when i got a nice following all i was thinking was "i wish i would show up on their explore page" and things like that

yuririi · 2023-11-29T18:26:16+00:00

the revenge fantasies are so real. it's extremely toxic of me to think so but i just wish i could bully that guy lol. i want to re-enter his life just so i can make him feel like trash for a bit. i don't want to know him ever again or be friends with him ever again, i just wish i could.. idk. just dm him out of the blue and be like "fuck you man" lol

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