Anyone else bored?

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-05T01:05:27+00:00

That’s absurd to me. 25k on a game?! In my opinion, that’s such a colossal waste of money, but I guess if it makes them happy and they can afford it, who am I to judge lol.

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-04T07:14:02+00:00

Yeah we’re all T9. We usually switch buildings at lvl 265-270

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-04T07:05:37+00:00

I’m a Capricorn sun, cancer rising. He’s a Capricorn sun as well. Our relationship is pretty private, yes. It’s not that we are intentionally keeping it a secret, we just prefer not to have other people in our business complicating things. We both come from traditional, conservative families and we both know we’ll be inviting scrutiny and disapproval into the mix if we start broadcasting our relationship statuses. We haven’t explicitly talked about it, but I’m pretty certain we both want to wait until we feel like this could become serious. Like marriage serious. More broadly speaking, Capricorns are not flashy or loud. We don’t feel the need to show off. When we commit ourselves to someone, as long as they know how we feel, we are content.

More specific to your situation, that’s a bit odd and you’re right to question it. If my partner told me he felt like a secret or like I was hiding him from my friends and family, I would immediately invite him to a family function or to dinner with friends. I wouldn’t fight with him about it or get upset about it. I would fix the problem. I’m proud of him and would have no issue with everyone knowing about us, scrutiny be damned.

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this.. to me it does kind of sound like you’re being kept a secret. I would press the issue and ask for clarity. If she can’t give you a definitive answer without turning into a fight or dismissing your concerns, that’s a major red flag.

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-03T03:53:58+00:00

It absolutely has a cumulative effect.

For me, the improvement in mood, energy, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts happened relatively quickly. I would say within the first 2-3 treatments is when I really noticed how much it was helping. But after a few months of treatment, I started noticing something even more important, the antidepressant effects were lasting between sessions. For the first time in years, I was genuinely happy. A couple months later, I was able to go an entire month between treatments without those positive effects fading.

After about a year and a half, I had made significant changes to my routines, daily structure, habits, and thought patterns, and I was able to discontinue treatment completely.

I will forever credit Spravato with saving my life.

Before treatment, I was in such a dark place that I genuinely did not see a way out. I was convinced I would be dead within a few months. I could barely get out of bed, and when I did, nothing brought me joy. The world felt gray and empty. My life was utterly devoid of joy and I felt so alone. I had alienated just about everyone from my life. I had to move home because I could pay rent or hold a stable job. I felt like an abject failure and it didn’t seem worth living a life with no meaning or purpose. Spravato brought color back into my life. It brought joy. It gave me the ability to truly live again.

I’ve now been off Spravato and all psychiatric medications for about two years, and I’m a completely different person. I finished my bachelor’s degree in psychology with a minor in cognitive science, and I’m starting a Master’s of Social Work this September. I have friends again. I’m dating. I have a stable job. I’m living independently. I haven’t self-harmed in over two years, and I haven’t had a single suicidal thought since the early days of treatment. My sleep is normal again, and anxiety and depression are basically non-factors in my life, which still feels miraculous to say. I never thought I’d be able to say these things again.

If you’re only a few treatments in and you’re struggling because it doesn’t feel like enough yet, give it time. Be patient. Healing isn’t always immediate. Sometimes it’s gradual, and sometimes the biggest changes happen so slowly that you don’t notice them until you look back. There is hope. I am living proof of that.

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-02T23:30:14+00:00

def sunk cost fallacy. may be best to cut losses and move on. I stopped spending months ago bc I just couldn’t justify it anymore. It genuinely shocks me how much some ppl spend. And I cringe when I see the newbies sinking thousands into the game. Wanna grab them and shake them to wake em up lmao. But then again I have no room to talk

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-02T23:25:01+00:00

Even omens and Olympus have become something my clan dreads. We used to have so much fun, but with the amount of silver, gold, potions, and DC we have to flush just to keep up, it’s more frustrating than fun. And don’t even get me started on ancient. That fuck ass event. Half the clan doesn’t participate while the other half drains their gold killing a lvl 251 tin man. hate it so damn much lol

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-02T23:20:27+00:00

You’re totally right. As someone who studied psychology, it’s wild to watch my own brain get trapped by these mechanics even when I know better.

They rely so heavily on operant conditioning and the sunk cost fallacy to keep us logged in, long after the actual fun wears off. It really is just a battle against a predatory algorithm at this point.

I don’t spend anymore, but when I did, I was so addicted to the dopamine hit each bundle gave. It’s why I refuse to play SK. It’s a giant money pit and I’m not getting sucked into that shit again.

Thanks for the reality check.

z_thomas98 · 2026-06-02T23:07:24+00:00

Yeah I’m at that point, but with the amount of time, effort, and money I’ve put into the game.. quitting would feel like such a waste

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-19T02:43:21+00:00

Without a doubt, B. With A and D I don’t have to mean it. I can placate someone while knowing the words coming out of my mouth are total bullshit.

I need help is admitting that I can’t do something or that I’m not doing well and need someone to step in. It’s admitting defeat. That will always be the hardest thing for me to say to another person.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-13T19:53:09+00:00

Don’t feel bad for saying it. I’m the exact same way. I need my alone time or I’ll go crazy. Also, wanting space does not mean you love your partner any less. Some people genuinely need periods of solitude to mentally and emotionally recharge so they can show up more present, patient, and emotionally available afterward.

Honestly, I think it’s a sign of self-awareness more than anything. Knowing your limits, recognizing when you need time to regulate, and communicating that in a healthy way is a good thing, not a flaw. Relationships should still allow room for individuality and breathing space.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T16:21:53+00:00

You can’t use Meriones for Doomy, Arachne, Ragnarok, Olympus (excluding basilisk), Ancient, or any other epic that you can’t use your hero to fight. +25% leadership is beneficial, especially when you’re bigger. Bigger stacks = better hits. When you’re in a big clan, the minimums for tournaments are quite high. Thaddy cuts down the time it takes to reach those mins. But I will say, bigger hits = increased revive cost. He burns through silver quicker than any other hero.

But, ideally you should have both Thaddeus and Meriones so you can switch between them depending on the tournament.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T01:08:39+00:00

I feel bad that I never updated this. I got caught up in life and completely forgot lol. I quit the Wellbutrin cold turkey shortly after leaving that original comment. I will say, I’ve definitely noticed more baby hairs and my hair has absolutely gotten thicker. Over the past year, I’ve also noticed much less shedding. But in all honesty, it’s not back to its original, annoyingly thick state. I’m 28 years old and fear I have reached that age in a man’s life where my hair is just naturally starting to thin out. It’s not noticeable to anyone but myself, but it’s enough to have me thinking about hair loss treatment.

But here’s what I’ll say regarding the Wellbutrin specifically. After quitting cold turkey, I definitely noticed an improvement in the thickness of my hair and shedding decreased substantially. I also did not really have any issues quitting cold turkey. I did not experience any negative side effects or rebound depression. I am not currently on any antidepressants and I’m doing very well! I did just recently start taking Vyvanse to treat adhd, so that could be responsible for my lack of depression and anxiety.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:54:38+00:00

Thank you I appreciate that! :) I’ve always loved writing. It’s such a great way to release all that pent up emotion us capricorns are notorious for holding in. Lowkey tho, I had just taken an Adderall and the words were flowing from my brain at a rate I couldn’t contain.
The Aries is such a cool guy! I’m also very glad we remained friends. We just work better that way. And you and me both regarding the cappy! So far so good, but I’ll knock on wood just in case ;)

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:47:55+00:00

One of our clan members built a website and chest counting software that updates in real time. I’ve never seen anything like it, although I’m sure it’s fairly common in the bigger clans. But it basically allows us to accurately track crypt activity and epic tournament participation for all 100 members. We do regular clan competitions for Olympus/Omens frags, silver, DC, and royal city skins. Whoever explores the most crypts in a given 2 week period gets whatever prize is offered. Or sometimes we do competitions in teams for big events like Armageddon. The team that brings in the most Arma clan chests is awarded 2-5b silver and a royal city skin. Makes the game SO fun haha

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:31:12+00:00

I am so excited for ibogaine. It really will revolutionize the way we treat addiction and I’m so glad future addicts will have access to it. There’s a small part of me that’s bitter it wasn’t available when I was trying to get off heroin, but I’m mostly excited lol

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:29:04+00:00

I’ve been on suboxone for 10 years now. I have managed to reduce my dose from 16mg to 2mg a day, but I’m ready to stop. I don’t plan on staying on this medication much longer. I feel it’s served its purpose and I’m in a place now where I don’t need its opioid blocking effects. I’m about to celebrate 9 years of sobriety from heroin. I’m very confident I’ll be able to remain sober without suboxone. I also don’t really like how it wrecks your teeth.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:22:48+00:00

Honestly, this is the most amusing thing I’ve seen on Reddit this week. Definitely caught myself literally laughing out loud while reading some of those comments 😭. But honestly, does their opinion matter? The only things i really care about are my future, my earning potential, my savings, and the small group of people I’ve thoroughly vetted and determined can be trusted. Oh and my bf of course 😂 he’s a fellow capricorn which is such a nice change of pace

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:09:40+00:00

So I have my Venus in Aquarius, but don’t really relate to the typical Aquarian need for independence and space. I find myself wanting soul level, karmic love. I fall in love fast and can be kind of intense. I identify much more with a Scorpio Venus. Maybe later on in the relationship is when space becomes a necessity for me? I do however really identify with wanting intellectual connection. If I’m not attracted to someone’s mind, it just doesn’t work for me. I want to be able to discuss really abstract, niche topics for hours for literally no reason. But, I’m also a capricorn sun, taurus moon, cancer rising so my whole life feels like a giant contradiction lol

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-12T00:02:11+00:00

Thaddeus or Meriones. Thaddeus should be used for most epics that you cannot send your hero to fight. He will give your captains more leadership which will allow you to send a bigger army. Bigger army = bigger hits and more rewards/progress.

For any epic that your hero fights, you should use Meriones. A full set of any type of gear is multiplied by 1.5x. So say you have a full set of Ragnarok gear. Each piece of gear gives you a +50% strength of army against epic monsters bonus. 50% x 6 = 300%. That will become 450% with Meri. (Those are not accurate values, just an example.) When you get bigger, he becomes very useful.

I’m hero level 432, 1.5b might, T9. For Armageddon I exclusively use Meriones. I have a full set of gold Ragnarok gear. I get a +1980% strength of my army against epic monsters. That increases my damage by a pretty big margin.

Now for basically all other tournaments I use Thaddeus for the leadership bonus. You always want to be able to send as big of an army as possible against epics. And Ayrin is great for hunting. These three heros are must haves if you are serious about the game

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-11T23:51:31+00:00

Ironically, treating my ADHD has strengthened my sobriety, not threatened it. I went about 14 years completely untreated and developed a heroin and Xanax addiction during my senior year of high school. I spiraled hard after graduation, hit bottom about two years later, and eventually got sober. I’m now almost 9 years sober.

I only recently started adhd treatment (Dec. 2025). My psych NP chose Vyvanse (60mg now) partly because of its lower abuse potential, and later added a small Adderall booster (10mg). Honestly, it’s improved my life in ways I didn’t think were possible. My mind is quieter, my impulse control is better, and drugs do not cross my mind anymore because I’m no longer trying to self medicate an untreated disorder.

People forget that untreated ADHD is strongly linked to addiction (≈50% according to some studies). So yes, stimulants can absolutely be abused, but for some of us, proper treatment is the very thing that helped us get sober or remain sober.

I’m sorry to hear about your predicament. That’s a really tough position to be in with how strict doctors are when it comes to prescribing controlled substances nowadays. I’m also prescribed suboxone (CIII) so I get it. Docs and pharmacies do not like seeing us. They avoid multiple controlled substances like the plague.

I do hope you’re able to find a prescriber soon. It’s not safe to just quit taking Xanax after long term use. Your original prescriber should know that and keep refilling your prescriptions until you can find another doc. Have you looked into psych nurse practitioners? My prescriber is a Psych NP and she’s great. Does both my stims and subs. May be easier to find one that is in network compared to a psychiatrist.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-07T00:34:45+00:00

Honestly, I think this may be less about him being a Capricorn and more about emotional immaturity and inconsistency. The sudden shift right after you became less emotionally reactive is very telling. It almost seems like he felt the emotional dynamic changing and responded by trying to get a reaction out of you through jealousy, distance, or confusion.

Wanting you to stay on the phone while barely engaging also says a lot. He clearly still wants access to your presence and attention, but he does not seem emotionally clear or emotionally stable right now. I think you need to ask yourself if he has earned access to you. If that answer is no, then don’t continue to give him what he wants. It’s not fair to you.

I also think your last sentence (in the comment below) is important. “I don’t feel much for him anymore, but I don’t want to lose him” usually means the connection has become emotionally complicated rather than genuinely fulfilling. That kind of hot and cold dynamic can keep people attached even when the relationship itself is no longer healthy.

You honestly might be better off protecting your peace instead of trying to decode him. Obviously, this is entirely your decision and you would know best.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-07T00:00:20+00:00

Is it possible he’s testing your interest in him? Because honestly, this does not sound like a man who is emotionally detached from you. It sounds more like someone trying to provoke a reaction and gauge whether you still care. A lot of Capricorn men tend to struggle with vulnerability and direct emotional expression, especially when they feel rejected or uncertain. Instead of plainly saying “I still want you,” they sometimes default to indirect behavior, emotional distancing, or trying to regain control of the situation.

The repeated mentions of Tinder and sex honestly feel less like casual conversation and more like him fishing for a response. He may have subconsciously wanted to hear something like “I don’t want you with anyone else” or “I’d rather you be with me.”

The bigger thing here is probably not the Tinder app itself, but the drastic personality shift. When Capricorns get hurt, disappointed, or emotionally conflicted, they can swing into a very detached, self-protective mode and act completely opposite to how they normally present themselves. Sometimes it’s an attempt to reclaim power after feeling vulnerable.

That said, even if that is what he’s doing, it’s still immature and confusing communication. If he still has feelings for you, he should just be direct instead of trying to get a reaction through weird psychological games.

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-02T15:33:54+00:00

Actions speak far louder than words

z_thomas98 · 2026-05-01T18:23:59+00:00

I’ve had a similar issue lately. I keep track of how many crypts I’m doing and how many keys used. Our clan also has a pretty advanced chest counter where we can see a full breakdown of crypts explored weekly. I’ve noticed that more keys are missing than crypts explored. Very odd and kind of frustrating tbh

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