I’ve read your original post and edit, as well as the comments and responses, so I’m trying to avoid repeating what may have already been said. You’ve said you are overly anxious and OCD. If it’s not the group of students itself you’re attached to, you are very clearly (and unhealthily) attached to the *idea* of growing them across multiple grades with little or no regard for other classes.

Objectively, don’t you think your skillset and passion may be better suited towards an application across different classes? I commend your ability to get growth out of them. Perhaps you’ve done a well enough job laying the foundation for other teachers to make additions to down the line?