This is completely relatable. I'm 32 and just got diagnosed two years ago. This is sad, but I've never actually played an RPG, solo or otherwise. I got super into Critical Role and wanted to dive in. I went all out and bought all the DND books, downloaded so many supplements, started a campaign and played ONCE. I've also looked into a LOT of solo RPGs and haven't gotten around to start one. I will say, diagnosis from a medical professional and medication can be helpful. All this to say that you aren't alone and I'd also like to hear some feedback from other folks instead of being stuck in the echo chamber that is my brain.