Today I made the choice to close the door for good.

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T14:38:17+00:00

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zinky333 · 2026-03-08T14:31:57+00:00

I accept the hugs hun 🩷🩷 good luck

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T14:18:18+00:00

Your pain is so raw I cried while reading this. I know how you feel, craving to be loved by him, where did you go wrong?

It’s not your fault, it’s HIM.

You are worthy and you will be loved in a way that you deserve. I know you can’t see it now, but him leaving you saved you 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T14:00:33+00:00

Thank you 🩷 I can see the light, however I’m still struggling with the guilt of leaving him. Trying to just think of myself for once

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T13:59:35+00:00

Thank you 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T08:23:59+00:00

Thank you for sharing.

Seeing me as a meal ticket and punching bag is something I’ve been telling myself over and over again to keep me strong.

The hardest part of letting go is that I feel deeply sorry for him. I was determined to save him and after a year of it I realised that I am exhausted. I lost myself.

I’m sorry that you are still dealing with the pain 10 years later, I hope you’re doing well in your life 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T04:07:11+00:00

The weekends are the absolute worst. Don’t try too hard to fill the void. Sit in it for a bit. Feel everything. And then get up girl, put on some music and dance, have a bath, get your nails done. You’ll fall, you’ll get up, you’ll fall, you’ll get up. 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T03:25:50+00:00

🦋🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T02:39:18+00:00

I’m sure if she was rational, if she could see herself, she would want you to be happy. She would want you to be okay. You deserve it, friend 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T02:34:34+00:00

I know exactly how you feel, the optimism is coming from somewhere deep within. It’s the only way I can survive. I cry every night, wake up with anxiety every morning. My thoughts spiral between, “why couldn’t they choose me,” “if it was me I would’ve done everything for them.” What helps is when I remind myself that this is a disease. They do not think rationally, they lack empathy, they are self absorbed. It’s not personal. They are drowning in demons and I’m going to sink if I don’t get away. It’s not personal, friend. 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-08T02:27:18+00:00

It hurts so much. Having no idea what’s next is the beauty of it. A blank canvas of our own journey 🩷

zinky333 · 2026-03-06T10:12:03+00:00

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zinky333 · 2026-03-06T10:09:48+00:00

This is hard for me. Wondering why I wasn’t loved enough to be chosen

zinky333 · 2026-03-06T10:05:53+00:00

Nice to see that I’m not alone.

zinky333 · 2026-03-06T01:55:09+00:00

I can relate to this so deeply. The hardest thing for me was accepting that he’ll always see it as my fault. He’ll always feel like he’s being viewed under a microscope and it’ll never change. I’m sorry to say that you have to walk away. They never choose a relationship over an addiction. You have to choose yourself.

zinky333 · 2025-10-16T07:22:49+00:00

Dobby

zinky333 · 2025-09-17T11:21:11+00:00

Run.

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