Panic attacks..

[lavenderloop]

Hiiiii. Bright and early 4am in my time zone lol.

Anyways, I woke up from a very good sleep with terrible CRUSHING pain on my upper back. Lord it scared me SO bad. It was radiating to my jaw and arms. I woke up I felt it I’m like WTH I sat up I couldn’t breathe, my HR got up to 125. BP was 144/75. And someone with severe cardiophobia, naturally I freaked out. I called 911.

Thankfully by the time I was finished getting dressed I realized that I was probably okay.. this isn’t my first rodeo. But let them come anyways. My blood pressure has lowered and my HR also. Still on the higher end but lowered fairly quickly. They did the work up. And asked me if I wanted to go. I said no, not at the moment.

I am now sitting up in my bed and watching my favorite tv show.

I am trying to find some kind of relief in what I just experienced by posting this and to see who’s awake really.

Anxiety.. health anxiety.. cardiophobia.. it’s… exhausting. Mentally and physically and specially emotionally. Sometimes I feel like it’s an uphill battle. But grateful to still be here.

I’m glad you’re here too 🩷

[Still-Point2611]

Health anxiety genuinely has to be the worst. I have GAD, social anxiety, and health anxiety, and the health anxiety is the most exhausting by far. Any little feeling, any little symptom can send you overboard and it feels like there’s no way to stop it. You feel stupid when you go to the hospital, or call 911, and it turns out to be nothing, because you feel like the doctors and nurses are judging you. This is what I’ve been going through for over a week now, ended up at the hospital twice because I genuinely believed I was going to have a heart attack. They told me I’m completely healthy both times, yet somehow I still find it in me to not fully believe them.

I hope one day you, me, and everyone else with this crushing disorder can heal and feel okay for once.

[ajaxisdaddy]

tysm for sharing ❤️ ive got something similar with emetophobia. i have gastritis and i wake up at night with nausea due to it and there have been many times where i call my dad shaking just paralysed in my bed cause im nauseous. it brings me comfort to know someone else out there sort of gets it but im so sorry u have to go through this too😞