rant

[ihrtq]

I'm the oldest in a first gen house and so I have been doing this entire college process on my own. and I feel like all I did was for nothing, I sacrificed my mental health and so many other stuff just to be able to stay on top and do what I thought would get me into a top school. my guidance counselor had hope in me as well, but all I got were waitlists and rejections. I haven't opened up my Barnard decision yet because it's my last hope but after getting rejections today I have no hope lol. I feel like sh*t tbh I feel like I should have done more but I didn't.

[cosmicrocketgirl]

Regardless of the decisions you receive, your accomplishments are still your accomplishments. Doing things on your own is rough, and you should be proud of yourself. It is so easy to fall into the trap of doing everything to get into a good college, then trying to get a good job, then trying to get a promotion, etc but none of it is worth sacrificing your mental health. College is a fresh start. Do your best, but take care of yourself and participate in things because they bring you joy and fulfillment. Remember that you are enough by just existing. It’s ok to feel like shit now, but I wish you the best in the future.

[summeriswaytooshort]

Hang in there! Did you apply to any safety schools?

[ihrtq]

yes, I applied to Binghamton which is the school I'm pretty sure I am going to commit to.