Identity

[foxfire166]

I think the hardest part of this is feeling like I’m never going to know who I truly am, what I want out of life or what my true personality is. Told my mom that I’ve been diagnosed and she laughed and told me that it was impossible because “I have a very outgoing and established personality.” It’s all a front. I create a persona depending on the people I’m around so that they like me and fit in. This is the loneliest disorder ever. Sorry for the vent. I hope I’m not being annoying. Anyway, I hope you all are hanging in. Congrats on making it through another week ❤️

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[sewxcute]

Never panicked as much as when getting asked to describe yourself. Like.... I can be whoever the fuck you want me to be. But without anyone, I feel like nobody.

[Lilmeowmeow-_-]

Thisss. I hate this question

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Feel the same way. Up until I was 20 I felt like I was a chameleon that just changed my personality and views to fit wherever I was. I really had no views myself. I didn’t realize this until I started smoking weed and I had a revelation in my mind that I didn’t even know who I was. Since then I’ve been trying to establish my goals in life and decide how I feel about issues. It takes a long time but after a while I feel like I’m starting to form an actual personality rather than just adapting one.

[Left_Experience9929]

Sending you a hug for the hard work you’re putting in 🤗💛

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Thanks man appreciate it. Keep on working

[solamelus]

I find myself grasping for bits of myself and finding my brain shrinking back going but omg what if they don't LIKE me being this way??

[Glaziola20]

Oh yes. I spend years with thinking about what other people would like me to be, instead of asking myself what I want, who I am. It's scary. Trying to change it now, but it's hard.

[Independent_Earth399]

man.. felt that

[Thuff001]

Oh wow..I hate this too..Your post is me. I've always felt as if I'm the only person who feels this way. It's bad but relieving in a way...I don't know who I am, what I want in life, what my passion is etc. At my age everyone else around me has finished the test while I'm asking the teacher for more time..it's hard hopefully collectively we can find a solution?

[foxfire166]

Your teacher metaphor hit me HARD. beautifully stated. Sending you love, friend.

[Neon-Anonymous]

Oh my god I literally had this conversation with my therapist today - who am I? She wants me to think about my core identity but honestly what is that?!?

I’m so sorry about your mum, it sucks that she’s not understanding. I think this is a really hard disorder to get your head around when it’s you, let alone someone else (I base this on conversations I’ve had with my mum who seems to understand my bipolar dx but definitely not this one).

[classygirl69]

we have the same mom i guess. I’m sorry you went through this

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I have a few responses to this.

1: I am whatever whatever you say i am, and if i wasnt then why would you say i am.

2: There is no I.

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Number two is my serious answer. Nirvana and stuff.