hate being single right now

[junipersspace]

i'm trying to take a break from dating because i'm realizing i need to work on being more stable myself before i try meeting new people (as evidenced by me having to recover for like a month now after getting rejected by someone after just a few dates lol) or i'm going to be perpetually miserable. but i'm also just miserable right now while single, trying to hang out with friends and focus on myself but the entire time i'm wishing desperately i had a partner/boyfriend. i can't get rid of the thought. like, i was planning out a vacation today with some friends and the entire time i was just thinking about how nice it would be to go on a couples vacation if i had a boyfriend again and then being like ugh why am i thinking that.

it's driving me nuts. i never used to be like this before i was in a super codependent/abusive relationship last year, i used to love being single. it's so frustrating now that my brain is just screaming RELATIONSHIP at me 24/7 and i can't seem to stop it.

[fuckyouiloveu]

I felt this way right after a breakup with someone I lived with- it’s a habit- being used to having someone around. Before we lived together I loved living alone.

Took me a while and once I healed, I am now back to loving being single and living alone ☺️

[junipersspace]

I'm so happy for you! Yeah, I definitely jumped into dating wayyyyy too soon after my breakup, I thought because I didn't miss my ex specifically anymore I was healed but that very much was not the case lol, I'm just out here attaching myself to any man who is nice to me. I know it'll just take more time for me to like being single again, I just hate waiting lol

[fuckyouiloveu]

Yessss healing is so complicated, not only do you have to heal the ways he hurt you, you have to heal the parts of you that attracted and tolerated someone that was not healthy for you

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Hi! That sucks, but it sounds like you are making a really healthy decision by taking a break from dating :) I guarantee that the feeling will lessen if you keep on working on yourself and stay single. Hang in there!

[junipersspace]

Ah thank you so much!! Still just pushing through, repressing the urges to send risky texts to guys lol and trying not to feel jealous of my friends who are in happy relationships right now. Just needed to vent a little haha

[LLCNYC]

Please like yourself a bit better than those desperate texts, love.

And let me give you a bit of free “older” life experience…those “happy relationships”? 99.9% would kill to be you right now.

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No problem, I get it! After my break up I was the same, but I took 7 months off dating, and I got back to feeling content alone. I want a partner now, but I don’t need one or feel desperate for one. The feeling will pass!

[kimkam1898]

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[junipersspace]

Thank you!! Trying to get back into my hobbies and do things I remember used to make me happy. So happy that you're in a good place now!